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Hollowed Existences

Summary:
~spoiler warning~ What would have happened if Bella hadn't jumped?...


Notes:
I sort of just started this little story for fun because I wanted to see as to where it might go. hehe xD. The chapters are going to be short, why? I don't know. My brain doesn't tell me its reasoning most of the time but I bet it has something to do with the fact that if i squished it all together it wouldn't sound right. Thats my guess. hehe xD. Oh and of course, I don't own Twilight, New Moon, or any of the characters. They are all Stephenie Meyer's creations. ^_^


1. Chapter 1

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I stepped out to the edge, keeping my eyes on the empty space in front of me. My toes felt ahead blindly, caressing the edge of the rock when they encountered it. I drew in a deep breath and held it… waiting.

“Bella.”

I smiled and exhaled.

Yes? I didn’t answer out loud; for fear that the sound of my voice would shatter the beautiful illusion. He sounded so real, so close. It was only when he was disapproving like this that I could hear the true memory of his voice—the velvet texture and the musical intonation that made up the most perfect of all voices.

“Don’t do this,” he pleaded.

You won’t stay with me any other way.

“Please.” It was just a whisper in the blowing rain that tossed my hair and drenched my clothes—making me as wet as if this were my second jump of the day.

I rolled up onto the balls of my feet.

“No Bella!” He was angry now, and the anger was so lovely.

I smiled and raised my arms straight out, as if I were going to dive, lifting my face into the rain. But it was too ingrained from years of swimming at the public pool—feet first, first time. I leaned forward, crouching to get more spring…

Just then a roll of thunder sounded and it was then that I finally realized what I was doing. I finally took notice of the weather. The sky was one of the darkest shades of gray I had ever seen. The wind was coming in gusts and billows so strong it sometimes caught me and almost made me fall over. Then there was the sea, oh as I looked out into the turbulent sea I began to feel the fear and the shock. I didn’t know much about tides but I knew enough to know that with the wind being as it was and the waves crashing so violently, the rip tide would surely have drug me under and killed me.

I sank down to the ground and began to cry. If I had died, where would that have left Charlie? Renee? I could see their mourning faces so clearly that it pained me. No, I couldn’t leave them yet, not yet. They would rather have me, even in my shell like state, then not have me at all.

All the things I have carelessly done over the passed few weeks suddenly came crashing down on me. So many times I could have died and it was sheer luck that I hadn’t. I made a vow right then, a vow stating that I wouldn’t end my life… my existence, just because of some careless, thoughtless mistake.

I turned on my heel and headed back towards my truck. I would go back home, I would go back to my shell. That way I would survive at least. A daughter who was still alive in a sense was still better than having no daughter at all. I just hoped that my parents would see it that way as well.