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Not So Sure

Summary:
During New Moon, Edward left but then came back a little while later. Before he left, he slept with Bella and unknowingly got her pregnant.


Notes:
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. If I did I would have to be Stephenie Meyer. I am not but I am Hepzibah Flurge. Just kidding, lol!!! (I'm kidding about the Hepzibah Flurge part, not the me not being Stephenie Meyer part)


1. Chapter 1

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Chapter One Back with Complications I appraised myself in my full length mirror. Smiling at my reflection I kissed the first two fingers of my right hand and pressed them to the lips of my reflection. My outfit was absolutely stunning, daisy dukes, six inch stiletto heels, and a form fitting, dark blue, tube top. Which was over a dark brown, string, top; my top bared two inches of my stomach above the waistband of my shorts when I lifted my arms. My hair I pulled back into a messy bun at the nape of my neck. When I heard the horn of Jessica’s used, black, Sentra beep, I went down the stairs, picked up my denim, oversized purse and my knee length, dark blue, denim, trench coat-like jacket that tied in the front. I hopped into Jessica’s car we took off down the street singing along with the radio at the top of our voices. Is it still me that makes you sweat? Am I who you think about in bed? When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress? Then think of what you did, and I hope to God he was worth it. When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin. I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better Then any boy you'll ever meet. Sweetie you had me. Girl, I was it. Look past the sweat, a better love deserving of exchanging body heat in the passenger seat. No, no, no, you know, it will always just be me. Let's get these teen hearts beating Faster, faster! So, testosterone boys and harlequin s: Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? [Repeat x2] So, I guess we're back to us. Oh cameraman, swing the focus! In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off? Let's pick up, pick up. Oh, now I do recall, we just were getting to the part Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick. I sure hope you didn’t expect to get all of the attention. Let's not get selfish, did you really think I'd let you kill this chorus? Let's get these teen hearts beating Faster, faster. So, testosterone boys and harlequin s: Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? [Repeat x2] Dance to this beat. [Repeat x3] Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster. Let's get these teen hearts beating faster. I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better Than any boy you'll ever meet. Sweetie you had me. Girl, I was it. Look past the sweat, a better love deserving of exchanging body heat in the passenger seat. No, no, no, you know, it will always just be me. Let's get these teen hearts beating Faster, faster! So, testosterone boys and harlequin s: Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? [Repeat x2] So, testosterone boys and harlequin s: Dance to this beat So, testosterone boys and harlequin s: Dance to this beat, and hold a lover close. Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster. Let's get these teen hearts beating faster. Once we arrived at the school, I noticed in the parking space that was usually empty, sat a very familiar, shiny, silver, Volvo. My mouth dropped open and I gasped. Swinging my gaze to Jessica’s I saw that her expression mirrored my own. After a minute, a sort of evil plan formed in my head. My wide open mouth turned into a wide mischievous smile. “Bella, why are you smiling? When they first left you were like the living ! Now, we find out that they are back, and you’re smiling?” her tone questioned my sanity. “I just realized that they have never seen the “new” Bella. Today is going to be such fun! I mean, even if he doesn’t love me any more, he is still a guy. Won’t today just be absolutely lovely?” I asked gleefully my smile growing even wider. “You are absolutely amazing Bella Swan! I just love how your mind works,” Jessica giggled. There wasn’t a soul in sight so I knew that we were to hurry if we didn’t want to be late. When I got of Jessica’s car, I put my coat on and tied it, so all you could see was skin and my heels. No one would know what I was wearing underneath the coat. “Jessica, do you think you could do me a favor? Could you please not think about me at all? Edward is very intuitive, and he can read people pretty easily, so just don’t think about me, alright?” I asked, my mouth twisting a bit when I said his name. “Of, course Bella,” she replied her face just a little bit confused. I didn’t have single class with any of the Cullens and neither did I see any of them. But everywhere I went, people were whispering and talking about the Cullens. Jess and I both had Spanish right before lunch so we walked to lunch together. We ran into Mike Newton and Frank Loris once we hit the cafeteria and they joined us. “Hey, Bella, what’s with the coat? Are you even wearing anything underneath of it?” Mike asked jokingly but with an undertone of curiosity. I reached over and smacked him. It’s none of your business and yes I am, not that you really needed to know. But it is getting just a bit hot in here,” I said fanning myself. I untied the strings of my coat, slid it off my shoulders, and folded it in half over my arm. “See, clothes.” “Man, you look hot Bella,” Frank breathed. “I try,” I laughed and we opened the cafeteria doors. We swept through and immediately everyone turned to look at us. I figured they were waiting for the Cullens to come in. But once they say it was just us, they all looked away and went back to eating and talking. We went and stood in the lunch line and took our trays over to the table we always sat at. Eric, Katie, Lauren, Angela, Ben, Mike, Frank, Jessica, and I always sat at the same table with a couple of freshman. I plopped myself down in Frank’s lap and his arms slid around my waist. Jessica took my lead and sat down in Mike’s lap. Whereas Jessica was Mike, I was just fooling around with Frank and he knew it. I hadn’t been in anything serious since Edward left and none of the guys tried to make me. Probably because of their insecurities, I mean, even the guys know that Edward is hot. Not in the ed way, but that he is physically perfect and nobody wants to be a runner-up to that. Ten minutes later the cafeteria doors opened again. The only reason I knew the doors had opened was that everybody stopped talking. Frank and I were lip-locked and not really paying much attention. After everybody fell silent, I pulled away from Frank and turned to look at the doors licking my kiss swollen lips. And there they were, five, pale, perfect, figures walking towards the table that they had always sat at and that had remained empty since they left. Nobody wanted to sit there, the guys because they were afraid of my wrath and the s didn’t want to be stuck sitting by themselves. They didn’t even look in my direction although I was staring right at them. After they sat down, Emmett glared at everybody and everybody’s heads swiveled away in fear of Emmett’s glare. “Jess, I am going to go over and talk to them. Do you want to come with me?” I asked her motioning with my head over to the Cullen table. She pursed her lips and thought for a second and then nodded her head. “Yeah, I’ll come with you and I’ll continue to do what you asked to do this morning,” she reassured me. “I’m coming with you,” Angela put in. I looked over at her, stood up and nodded my head. She smiled at me and we three headed over to the Cullen table. I could feel everybody’s eyes on the backs of our heads. I turned to look at them and glare. It didn’t work as well as Emmett’s did, but a lot of them did turn away and at least pretend to mind their own business. As soon as we got over to the Cullens table, they all turned to look at us. Rosalie with a look of utter disgust, Alice will a nod of approval for my attire, Jasper tensed, Emmett just winked at me, and Edward looked at us with polite disinterest. Their gold eyes looking oddly empty and solid, except for Emmet and Alice, their eyes were liquid gold. ”Hey guys,” I said brightly. “I just wanted to tell you guys something.” “Bella,” Jasper put in, “Don’t you think you could do this later in private?” I felt a wave of apprehension flow over us and knew that Jasper was using his ability. “Nope,” I replied popping my p. “What I have to say can be said in front of Jessica and Angela.” “What did you tell them?” Rosalie hissed at me. Jessica opened her mouth to say something but I shook my head at her and she closed her mouth. “I just wanted to tell you that just because you guys are back, don’t mean that everything is going to go back to the way it was. Because its not. Things have changed,” I informed them haughtily. “Oh, you mean your new boyfriend?” Alice asked her voice cold. “New boyfriend!?” Jess and Angela gaped at me. “You didn’t tell us you had a new boyfriend,” they said together. “I don’t,” I shook my head at them. “But, that guy,” Alice started. “Oh, you mean, Frank? He’s not my boyfriend,” I replied again haughty. “Like I said, things have changed, au reviour,” I wiggled my fingers at them, spun on my heel and walked away, making sure my hips sway seductively. I heard footsteps behind me, but when I sat down next to Frank, only Jessica was with me. I looked back at the Cullen table and saw Angela still standing there. Angela looked up and I raised an eyebrow in question. She just smiled at me and shook her head. I motioned with my hand for her to come back to the table. Shaking her head no at me she turned away. My eyes narrowed and I turned away from their table. That day, after school was over I was sitting in the passenger seat of Jessica’s car listening to her I pod that was plugged into the car radio. Don’t Trust Me by 3oh!3 was playing over the air. The volume was turned up really loud and I wasn’t the only one by Jess’ car listening to her music. Her car was surrounded by a bunch of our friends. Some kids were singing along with the song including me. Shush , shut your lips Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips I said shush , shut your lips Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips I said shush , shut your lips Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips The Cullens were standing by Edward’s Volvo and looking in my direction. I watched as Angela came down the steps behind their car. She was about to pass them when Alice stopped her with a hand on her arm. I got out of Jessica’s car and the crowd parted to let me through. I had my arms crossed over my chest and leaned against the hood of Jessica’s car. Tapping my foot impatiently waiting for Jessica was how the Cullens and Angela found me. Once they got to the front of Jess’ car, everybody instantly found something else to do. We were alone by the car when Jessica finally got out of the school. The song now playing was Please Don’t Leave Me by Pink. Please don’t leave me Please don’t leave me I always say how I don’t need you but it’s always gonna come right back to this Please don’t leave me “So Bella, we were talking to Angela and she had an idea,” Alice’s voice broke into my blank staring. “We should have a small party at the Weber’s house. And we’d really like if you would help us set up for it.” “Why not?” I replied, asking myself rather than them. “So when are you putting your plan into motion?” “Tomorrow and we’re going to invite you, Jessica, Ben, Mike, and Frank. Angela and we will be there to of course,” Emmett said. “Of course, and I am sure that everybody you invite will come. After all, everybody loves a good party,” I almost bantered back. Do you forget me I ‘m dying, I’m praying Bleeding, and screaming, am I too lost to be saved? I am too lost? Sang Jessica’s I Pod. “Bella, I am sorry that I was late,” Jessica’s puts in breathlessly. “Are you ready to go?” “Yeah, let’s go. Oh, Ang and the Cullens are going to have a small party at Angela’s house tomorrow. And we are going to help them set up,” I informed her with a smile. We got into Jessica’s car to Lying is the Most Fun a can Have without Taking Her Clothes Off by Panic at the Disco. As we drove off I watched the Cullens and Angela watching us. The curiosity was eating at me, I really wanted to know that else Angela had said to them during lunch, but I guess I’ll never know. Getting out of the car I walked right into the center. I waltzed right past the front desk to the room where the nine month olds were watched. As soon as I walked through the door and saw my daughter; she was all bundled up and held by Mrs. Garson. When she saw me, Elizabeth’s eyes lit up and she held her arms out to me. I picked her up and she smiled and patted my cheek, showing my images of what had happened that day. That was how I knew everything that went on and that she was safe. Thanking Mrs. Garson I left the center and carried her out to Jessica’s car. Placing her into her car seat, I go in and Jessica drove us back to my house. “Thanks again, Jess. I don’t know when my truck is going to get done, so I’m going to take out Elizabeth’s car seat,” I told her. After I got inside and changed my clothes. Elizabeth patted my cheek to show that she was hungry. I carried her back downstairs, into the kitchen and grabbed up her sippie cup. I knew that she wanted so I unlocked the cupboard that held the animal that I bought from the butcher’s shop. The sippie cup was dark purple so you couldn’t see what the cup held. Going back into the living room I got out my trig homework and watched as Elizabeth sat there drinking her and playing with a little, black ball on the floor. Every once in awhile I glanced up to check up on her; about ten minutes had gone by when I heard the doorbell ring. Standing up I swung Elizabeth up into my arms and went to answer the door. I opened the door and standing there was all the Cullens, including Carlisle and Esme. “What are you guys doing here?” I asked in a choked voice. “We wanted to talk to you privately. Can we please come in?” Esme asked her eyes soft. “Sure,” I replied, “just close the door when you’re all in,” I told them as I spun on my heel and walked back into the living room. I turned around and they were all standing there staring at me. “Who is this?” Rosalie asked, her voice a coo. “Are you babysitting her?” “No, I’m not, this is my daughter,” I informed them. They all just gaped at me, their mouths hanging open. Esme was the first to recover, “Can I hold her?” “If she’ll go to you,” I answered. Certain that she wouldn’t, as she had her face buried in my hair, I tried to put her down, but every time I tried she tightened her legs around my waist. “I guess not,” Esme said a little bit of disappointment leaking into her voice. “So, did your boyfriend leave you when he found out that you were pregnant? Or did he stick around?” Edward asked, harshness in his voice. At his tone, I raised my chin a fraction higher in the air and replied in my coldest voice. “No, the boyfriend didn’t know that I was pregnant when he left. And he still doesn’t know that he has a daughter,” I replied frostily. “You haven’t told him?” asked Carlisle. “You might want to because you never know. He may decide to help you out.” ”What if I don’t need or want him to help me out?” I asked bitterly. Apparently they hadn’t thought of that as they fell silent. “What’s her name,” Rosalie asked in the same coo voice. Taking a deep breath I replied, “Elizabeth Vale Swan. Vale being v-a-l-e.” Chapter Two Finding Out “Why Elizabeth?” Edward asked his voice full of curiosity. “Because I think that it’s a very pretty name,” I replied looking everywhere but at the people, well, vampires, in front of me. I felt a cold rush of wind and a cold stone finger lifted my chin up. Raising my head, I looked up into Edward’s topaz eyes. For a second he held my gaze before I turned my head and pulled my chin away from his finger. I didn’t want to because he touching me made we want him again and I loved his skin touching mine. I d to feel my heart rate speed up when he touched me because I knew that all the vampires in the room could hear it. I stepped away from him and tightened my hold on Elizabeth. As I stepped away I could have sworn I heard Edward sigh, but didn’t really care too much if he had. Elizabeth started crying and I was glad of a distraction. “What’s wrong Elizabeth?” I asked her knowing that she would tell me when she touched me. She lifted her hand and placed it against my cheek. “She needs to be changed,” Edward put it. “Thanks, but I kind of realized that,” I told him angrily. But then I stopped. “You can hear her thoughts?” ”Yes, I can,” he replied looking confused. It took a minute before comprehension flooded his features. “You thought that maybe since I couldn’t read your mind, you thought, or hoped, that I wouldn’t be able to read hers,” he said bitterly. Not answering I went over to the end table by Rosalie to where the diapers and wipes were stored. Squatting down I grabbed a new diaper and some wipes and headed behind the couch. When I was done, I left Elizabeth lying on the floor and threw her old diaper away making a stop at the kitchen sink to wash my hands. I stood in the doorway of the kitchen watching as Elizabeth rolled over on her knees, and grabbed the back of the couch. Using her grip on the couch she slowly drew herself up and stood on her legs, all the while holding the back of the couch in a grip. A wide smile spread across my face as she let go of the back of the couch and tottered forward three steps. She came to a stop when she was in view of the Cullens and put her arms out to my, her little hands clenching into fists over and over again. Slowly she kind of swayed back and forth as I walked towards her. Once I got to her, I swung her up into my arms and she laughed a high, tinkling, soprano laugh. Her laughter was so infectious that I had to join in. “Bella,” Alice’s voice interrupted mine and Elizabeth’s laughter. “Why were you riding with Jessica and why is your truck not here?” “Well, the other day my truck was having problems, not wanting to start. Since I am no mechanic and the mechanics around her charge too much, I took it to Jacob Black in La Push. Besides the truck used to belong to the Blacks so he should know how to fix it. But he’s been a little busy lately and hasn’t really had time to get to it…” I broke off. “What is it Bella,” Jasper asked, I assumed he had picked up on my stress. “You guys are back,” I said knowing I sounded like an idiot, stating the obvious. “I have to warn, well tell, the Quileutes…” I trailed off again. “I’m pretty sure that you guys remember the werewolves when you guys were here a long time ago. Well, the werewolves are back as well and since you guys were gone, they extended the patrol lines. But now that you’re back, they’re gonna need to pull back a little.” “You have been cavorting with werewolves,” Edward asked angrily. “They are the worst, most immature, volatile…” ”There’s nothing wrong with werewolves,” I shouted at him angrily and coldly, cutting him off. “At least they stay and don’t run off! At they least they continue to protect those that they have sworn to protect. Did you know that while you were gone, Laurent came back? He came back on Victoria’s orders and he would have killed me if the werewolves hadn’t shown up and destroyed him.” I couldn’t stop the tears that were rolling down my face and the shudders that ran through my body at reliving running into Laurent in the meadow. I held tightly onto Elizabeth as if she was my lifeline. I felt a pair of cold, strong, stone arms encircle both me and Elizabeth. I stood there the tears rolling down my face and let the arms continue to hold us. I knew whose arms they were and as much as I was upset at him right now, I let it slide. Needing the comforting embrace I leaned my head forward so my forehead was resting on his cold chest. A/N: Please read and let me know what you think. Tell me if I should continute or not. Please and Thank you!!!