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Summary:
Jacob has just left Leah so he can go with Renesmee, he had told her that he would stay forever and break the imprint... This is from Leahs' Point of view. Create your own banner at mybannermaker.com!


Notes:


2. AND I WONDER WHERE ?FOREVER? WENT AND HOW OUR ?EVERYTHING? CAME UNDONE.

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I was woken with the annoying sound of the younger brother banging on my bedroom door shouting my name and telling me to get up; the usual thing he does before he goes to school, the always so positive Seth. I pulled my pillow over my head and squashed it over my ears. His voice was muffled, but then it went scarily quiet, i couldn’t hear anything. All of a sudden, i was dangling in the air by my feet, i turned to come face with Seth’s mucked up, ripped at the knee jeans.

“Leah.” He said in a James Bond impression.

I tried to mimic him by saying, “Seth.”

“I think it is time for you to get up and dressed since school is starting in 23 minutes.” He stated.

“Well thank pu Cap'n Obvious, i would if you let me go BUT on my bed.” I had to add that i wanted dropped on my bed, because if i didn’t he would take great pleasure in dropping me on my head. He seems to think that because we are werewolves that pain does not matter; it really does when you fall on your head!

“Fine.” He drops me on the bed and walks out my bedroom. “Love ya Lee!”

“Heeem...” i reply as i grab a small black vest top and white shorts from my drawers. I slip them on with a pair of black sneakers, i also grabbed a black and white scarf from the bedpost. As I ran down the stairs, i saw Seth seated at the kitchen table, finishing a last piece of homework from?

“Oh. Have you forgotten to finish your homework? Naughty boy Sethy! What subject?”

“Shut up Leah, it is just French. Ma’am Geller said i could hand it in later than the others because she knows i have other “stuff” to do instead.” He explained. He was so lucky because i never got that kind of treatment from Ma’am Geller. She is so biased.

“Bien vous êtes la succion vers le haut de la famille!” he looked at me with a confused expression.

“Leah, you can’t do that, write it down or tell me. “He whined, so i wrote it down and he got his little blue French dictionary out and started looking it up. Therefore, i left.

At School. Once i stepped out of the house all my worries and depressing thoughts flooded back to me; i am going to have to face Jake today. I put my headphones in as i stepped on the bus. The first song that came on was “i will always love you by Whitney Houston.” I think my IPod had something against me; this was the song Jacob played on the beach on our first date. As i sat on the bus, i vowed to myself that i would never let anyone see me cry. As i listened to the music, i thought about that beautiful night,

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.
Ooh, I will always, I will always love you

*FLASHBACK TO THE NIGHT SHE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER*

Jacob had set out a big rug with a picnic box sitting in the corner; the food was placed around the edges of the rug. He had his big strong, caring hands over my eyes as he led me to his little spot. He spoke to me as we walked slowly but swiftly along the soft sand.

“Leah, i love you so much. You need to know that.” He said against my ear.

“Jacob Black. I never doubted you didn’t.” I said. When we arrived at the spot, he removed his hands and placed them on my hips, waiting for my response.

“Jacob... i ...it’s ... oh Jacob” i turned around and kissed him on the lips.

“What was that for?” once we broke apart.

“Because you are the best soul mate there is!” i explain my feelings in only a few words but i am sure he got what i meant. The music played simply to match the night and him. We sat and chatted about life in general and other things that were insignificant but relative to the night. “Leah, i wrote this letter for you;

To my girl, Leah,

I love you enough to fight for you, compromise for you, and sacrifice myself for you if needed. Enough to miss you incredibly when we‘re apart, no matter what length of time it’s for and regardless the distance. Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it in the worst times, to have faith in our strength as a couple and to never give up on us. Enough to spend the rest of my life with you, Be there for you when you need or want me and never, ever want to leave you or live without you. I will always say what you think, that of course is the connection i feel when i am with you, Lots of love now and forever,

Jacob xox

My eyes welled up as he spoke out the letter. Once he had finished i crossed the rug and snuggled into his lap, my head was resting against his chest.

“Jacob, i will always love you. I didn’t need a letter to tell me that you will always love me, but it was beautiful.” I leaned towards his face and gave him a kiss. The night passed with no flaw; we slept on the rug throughout the night together as one.

*THE END OF THE FLASHBACK SHE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER*

We had arrived at school and were unloading, when i bumped into Quil, walking in the opposite direction.

“Hey, Lee. What’s up?” he asked when he took one look at my face, i hadn’t realised but i must have begun to cry on the bus. He did not give me time to say anything, before he pulled me into a warm tight hug; he rubbed my back with big circular motions.

“Is this about Jake?” he asked into my hair after he gave me a kiss on the forehead. We stayed like this for over five minutes. I cried buckets into his black t- shirt.

“Leah, don’t cry please, i hate seeing one of my best mates cry. Stop before i start... Leah, look at me.” He lifted my chin angling my face towards his face. He looked deep into my eyes. I wondered what he would see; pain, emptiness, cold and possibly a bit of depression.

“Y’know, when i didn’t turn into a...eehhmm... well i thought of many things that would change dramatically, like never seeing Jacob or Embry again, having to sit by myself at lunch, on the bus everything actually would change. However, see, you don’t have that problem Leah; you have people willing to sympathize with everything you have been through. And yes, i know ‘i want no one to feel sorry for me,’ as you would say. But even though you say that we will all be there for you. Hell, you may be annoying and frustrating but you are my only sister and i will be with you through every step. I would come to you if you wanted to talk. Leah i want to help you. You may think i am strange and want nothing to do with me but you actually know that i can care about others. Because i love you. As a sister!” he said to me in a smooth voice, he said everything with meaning and sincerity. His cologne must have done something to my thoughts because i actually agreed with him.He was actually quite right, the packs are like family. Quil is just like another brother that i didn’t live with.

“Quil... thank you... but if you meant that you will be with me whenever i need you, well you will be seeing me a lot. I just need someone other than Mum and Seth to help. Thank you Quil”

“Leah, i mean every word.I will be happy to be there as a punch bag or another person to confide in, i mean it. You know where i am. Love you sis.” He gave me another hug, and kisses me on the crown of my head, and then headed towards building four for English,

“Meet you at lunch, if you want lee?” I smiled,

“Cool, see you there.” I shouted back, heading in the direction of the office; i forgot to sign in.

The day past quickly and before i knew it two periods of the day had past and it was now lunchtime and i was going to meet Quil, who i noticed was standing talking to Embry at the entrance of the cafe. As I approached, i caught the end of the conversation,

“...Em, i am waiting for lee. I promised i would sit with her today. I will catch up later.”

“But Quil, you have the rest of the day to be her pillow, c’mon come down to the street with me and grab a fish and chips. Please?”I walked up behind Embry and said in a quiet voice,

“Hey guys.”

Quil looked at me and smiled a thankful smile, “Leah, would you prefer coming to the street for something to eat or this cafe?” he asked pointing to the school cafe. I saw embry looking in the cafe with a bored look across his face.

“Really? The street, if you don’t mind?” i answered truthfully.

“Cool, Embry you comin’?” he asked after he smiled at me.

“Aye, what the hell?” he said casually once he pulled his glance from a girl in the cafe. So we began to walk down to the Street to get our fish and chips at the other end of the street.

"Embry?" i asked as we were walking down, "Who were you checking out in the cafe?" His face went bright red, he thought i hadn't seen him. Quil burst out laughing then whispered,

"ooohh, you've just been caught you dirty boy!"

Embry politely put his arm around my back and punched Quil in the back, he yelped out, whilst still laughing.

"Nobody, dear Leah. I was... just...em... looking?" he tried to justify.

"Yeah? Sure, i will try and believe you." we just laughed as we walked.

Once we reached the Chippy, Quil went in and ordered us all a bag of chips each. We sat on the wall, and ate them.

"Thanks guys." i said, once i had finished.

Quil and Embry just smiled at me as they continued to wolf down their chips before we headed back to the school.

Period Three- Calculus- with Quil...

Quil sat next to me in class. He charmed Amy out of her seat, and persuaded her to sit next to Jason, at Quil's spot.

"Quil, you so shouldn't do that. She is now probably going to say to all her little friends 'Quil Aterea spoke to me; he asked me to move...'" we both just laughed at the thought of her. i hadn't realised until now that i hadn't thought about Jacob and hadn't noticed that he wasn't actually here today.

'Quil, where is Jacob, i haven't seen him today?' I wrote on a piece of paper, he looked at me then wrote back saying,

He didn’t want to come in. He thought that was unfair on you. I know this because he said this last night whilst we were on patrol.’

as i read his writing, i could see in he corner of my eye, Quil looking at me with a weak smile playing around his lips. I looked up from the letter and looked at Quil and gave a quiet sigh. He rubbed my arm, So Where is he now? His little brats hou - i mean renesmee?’

Quil looked up from the note and gave a faint nod of his head. I mouthed a 'thanks' to him, and continued on with some boring stuff that has been covered every year since we were in sophomore year.

The day went past really quickly and Quil was there with me every minute. He once again charmed, Mariella into moving next to Chris on the other side of the classroom so he could sit next to me again in Art. We spoke about everything, nothing to do with art though.

School had finally finished, and Quil drove me and Seth home. Seth jumped out the car and i was going to follow but Quil caught my arm, causing me to turn around and face him,

"Lee. Everything i said today and everything i have done. i meant it. i actually enjoyed school today... which is a good sign for my mum but not too good for my street cred. Anyway, i have enjoyed myself and maybe tomorrow i will come and pick you up for school?" i laughed and smiled at him,

"Quil, thanks for everything.That would be great if you could pick me up. Thank you." i leant over and give him a kiss on the cheek, i jumped out the car and headed up the pathway,

"Love you, Quil." i shouted back, i saw him wave as he pulled away from the kerbside. I saw Seth inside,

He caught me before i went upstairs to start on my homework," Oh, Leah to continue the conversation from this morning; i am not a suck up!" i just laughed. What a kid!