A Bella/Jasper fic Bella, Edward and Alice returns from Italy, but something's changed. Bella finds herself in a tricky situation: Her feelings towards Edward arent the same, and at the same time finds herself falling for one of the other Cullen boys. This amazing banner was made by JokesOnJane, and it is so beautiful!! Kit_Kat_Cullen_XOXO, this is for you:)
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3. We need to talk
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"Then why does it feel so right?" I always asked back. At the first kiss, the voice had been yelling, almost drowning out every other sound. Now, it was barely audible.
Even though the voice wasn't as strong as before, it was still there, and I knew I should feel a little bad for what I was doing.
But I didn't, I felt absolutely content.
But still, I couldn't help but to think of Edward. That was the only thing that could make me feel I bit bad, about what I was doing. It bummed me a bit out to think of him, knowing he thought I still loved him with all of my heart.
Sensing my depressed mood, Jasper looked down at me.
"Something wrong?" he asked, his eyes so intense, it felt like was looking straight through me. Looking in to his eyes, made me forget what I had been worrying about.
"I'm...I'm not sure." I answered, blinking rapidly, as if that would shake the daze of off my brain.
He chuckled at that.
I punched him on the shoulder. Not hard. Just hard enough to make me rub my knuckles afterwards. That made him laugh even more.
"Stop laughing at me! It's not my fault you made me forget what I was thinking about." I said, smiling at him.
He smiled back. Seriously, I think an angel got its wings at that moment, his smile was so beautiful. How did I miss that before?
He pulled me unto his lap. Even though sitting on the bed had been warmer and a bit more comfy, I didn't object. I preferred to sit in his lap, rather than next to him. And he didn't worry about me getting cold, like Edward always did. Jasper knew that if I got too cold I would tell him. And I would, knowing that I couldn't get too cold, sitting in his lap, even if we where in the middle of a blizzard.
He chuckled again. "You were feeling guilty about something." He said, helping me remember.
"Oh, right!" I answered, hitting myself over my forehead with my palm. He frowned.
"Could you please not hit yourself, I don't like you hurting yourself" he said.
"Sorry." I said, snuggling into his chest.
He just smiled. "So, what was it you were feeling guilty about?"
"You get three guesses"
"Ahh" he said.
"Yes." I said, turning in his lap to face him.
"What are we gonna do, Jasper? This is going to hurt them so bad. I don't know what to do. I love you, but I can't hurt Edward that way, I just cant, not after all he's done for me. Not after all we've been through." I was about to continue, but Jasper put one cold finger on my lips, silencing my babbling.
"Shh" he soothed. "It's going to be alright. They can't be mad at us for following our feelings. I'm sure we can talk this over with them, nice and calm."
"Of course it'll be nice and calm! You'll be there." I exclaimed, throwing my hands in the air. He laughed again.
"You're really cute, when you are stressed out, you know that?" He said, playing with a strand of my hair.
"Stop avoiding the subject, Jasper. We have to figure out what to do!"
"Yes, ma'am" He said, acting really serious.
"You're impossible" I said, turning my back at him.
He put his arms around me again, his head resting on my shoulder. "I'm truly sorry, if I have upset you. Can you forgive me?" he whispered in my ear, sounding perfectly innocent, his cold breath tickling my neck. I knew I couldn't stay mad at him.
I sighed, turning in his arms to look at him.
"Of course I forgive you, silly. I love you." He smiled at those last words.
"I love you too" he said, giving me a light kiss on my forehead, the same place I had hit a couple of minutes ago. I had to concentrate really bad on not to get captured by the atmosphere. I wanted so bad to kiss him, to have him hold me in his cold arms, knowing he was mine, and only mine.
But he wasn't truly mine, yet. He would never be mine, if we didn't tell them. I dreaded that moment I would tell Edward I didn't love him anymore, that I loved his brother. The same brother who had tried to kill me.
And telling Alice, that would hurt so bad. She was my best friend, my...
I suddenly remembered something.
"Oh no" I said, feeling my shoulders slump.
"Alice." was all I said.
"What about her?" he asked, sounding confused.
"She probably already knows." I said, felling extremely guilty. Poor Alice. Her best friend and her husband. It sounded like some stupid soap opera.
Feeling my despair, Jasper sends a wave of calm over me. I smiled at him.
"Thank you." I said, truly meaning it. I was afraid if he hadn't been there I would have gone into a depression.
"You're welcome. Now what are we going to do, about the two of us?" he said, a teasing smile on his lips.
"Hey" I said. "That was my line."
He just sat there, smiling as he waited for my response.
"I don't know." I said.
Looking at him, I couldn't help but to ask.
"Do you still love her, like you love me? I mean, it's possible to love two people at the same time, right?" I asked.
"Of course I love her, I always will, but not like I love you. I love her like a dear friend, nothing else. And I hope we can still remain just that, after all of this."
He sounded like he really believed they could still be friends after this. Maybe they could. After all, Alice didn't really live in the same world as us non psychics. If her visions said everything would be okay, she believed them. I really hoped that was the case.
"Do you still love Edward?" he asked.
Of course, after I'd dropped the question, he had to ask too.
"I'm not sure." I said. Jasper was about to say something, but I interrupted him.
"Let me finish!" I said.
"I meant, I'm not sure, because it feels like I have to love him, you know, after all we have been through. I mean, he wanted to kill himself, because he thought I was dead!"
"So, what you're saying is, you feel like you owe it to him?" he asked.
"Yes! That's exactly what I meant. Wow, not only do you know how people feel, you're also good at explaining those feelings."
"Don't you think that's a bad reason for not telling him? "
"I guess so. But I still don't know what to tell him or Alice."
"Do you think we should talk to them one on one, or...?"
"I think that would be the best. I mean you talk with Alice. And I'll talk with." Gulp. "Edward"
Feeling how uncomfortable I was becoming he changed the subject.
"Have I told you how adorable you look tonight?" he said, brushing his hand over my cheek.
I blushed deep scarlet.
"I think you did a couple of times." I said, my voice breaking at the end. I couldn't think coherent with his hand on my cheek. I breathed in and out, trying to calm myself. But, of course, then Jasper decided to take it a bit further. He put both of his hands around my waist, and I could feel his cold breath as he whispered.
"I don't think I've told you the last five minutes." He said. I could hear the smile in his voice. His arms grew tighter around my waist. I found myself having trouble breathing. And not because of his arms were too tight around me. I couldn't believe it. Edward used to dazzle me when he looked at me. Jasper dazzled me without even looking at me.
It didn't help much, when he started kissing my neck. My head began to spin.
Suddenly I blacked out. Jasper was yelling quietly at me, even though he sounded concerned, it also sounded like he was trying not to laugh. I couldn't be sure, it sounded like I was hearing it through a tunnel.
"Bella, Bella! Are you alright?"
My eyelids fluttered, and I tried to stare accusingly at him, but it was hard, since my brain still was lacking oxygen. He just smiled.
"What?" he said, sounding oh so innocent.
"Oh, nothing. Just that you made me black out." I said, still feeling a little dizzy, turning my back to him.
"That wasn't my fault." He said, smiling a sly smile at me. "You were the one who forgot to breath." He said, kissing me in the crook of my neck.
"Yeah, maybe. But it was you who made me forget to breathe." I said, making it sound like it was trivial knowledge.
He laughed a soundless laugh, his breath tickling my neck, giving me chill down my back.
"Are you sure Alice knows?" he suddenly asked. His question confused me a bit.
Caught a bit of guard I stammered:
"Um, yeah, I guess. Why?"
He lifted me from his lap, sat me down on the bed, and got up.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going to talk to Alice."
"Jasper! No, you can't..." I started, but he was already out the window.
I sighed, collapsing unto my bed.
With Jasper gone, the bed felt too warm, and too soft.
I crawled underneath my bedcover, suddenly feeling really sleepy. I yawned. I could feel my eyelids getting heavier.
I had almost fallen asleep when a familiar voice whispered my name.
"Bella..." It said. I could hear the agony in it. I froze. I started hyperventilating.
Oh no, oh no. I kept my eyes shut. I didn't want my fears to be confirmed.
"Bella. I think we need to talk." Edward whispered.
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