A Bella/Jasper fic Bella, Edward and Alice returns from Italy, but something's changed. Bella finds herself in a tricky situation: Her feelings towards Edward arent the same, and at the same time finds herself falling for one of the other Cullen boys. This amazing banner was made by JokesOnJane, and it is so beautiful!! Kit_Kat_Cullen_XOXO, this is for you:)
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4. The end of the universe?
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"Bella, I think we need to talk."
Oh no. This was the confrontation I had feared. Edward knew. Edward saw us.
I didn't open my eyes, hoping this might be a nightmare.
But I knew I was awake.
"Bella." He whispered again, almost inaudible. His voice was shaking.
I opened one eye, afraid to look him straight in the eyes.
There was hardly any light in the room, and it was very hard to see his face.
I had to open both my eyes to be able to focus on him. He was standing by the window, arms crossed. His body language was saying he was angry, but when I looked him in the eyes, all I saw was hurt and disbelief. I wondered if that was what I looked like when he left me.
"Might as well get this over with." I thought, though I didn't really mean it.
I sighed. I got up so that I was sitting cross-legged on the bed. I looked at him. He wasn't even breathing.
I looked him in the eyes. They were not the smouldering gold I was used to. The were frozen solid.
He just stood there, looking at me.
I stared back. There was no way I was going to start this conversation.
"Bella." He said, again.
"Is that all you have to say, Edward?" I said. He was starting to annoy me.
"Why, Bella? How could you do this?"
"I didn't do anything. It just happened, Edward. It wasn't like I was planning to find someone else."
He cringed at that.
"But Jasper, Bella? Of all people, you have to choose the one who tried to kill you?" His voice broke two times during the sentence, which was odd for him. His voice was always so sure. But not now, not in this situation.
"You know he has trouble controlling himself! One minute of weakness from his side, and you're dead" He cringed at that. "You know that, right?!"
His arms were at his sides, his fists balled up so hard, his knuckles where completely white.
"He's not some savage! He's not doing this for my blood! He's not going to kill me!"
I was starting to get really angry now. And of course, I was starting to cry because I was angry. I could feel tear running down my cheek.
I wasn't sure, but it looked like Edwards hand twitched towards me. But of course, I couldn't be sure; it was almost completely black in my room.
I looked from his hand to his face, and almost in sync with my eyes, his other hand flew to his face, and he pinched the bridge of his nose. He was taking deep breaths, probably to calm him self down. I did the same thing. Only my breath was much more ragged. In the black silence, I couldn't help but to think of Jasper. Was he talking to Alice now? Was she just as angry and hurt as Edward was? Was he on his way back here? I hoped not. I wasn't sure if Edward could be in the same room as Jasper at this moment. I also had to ask:
"How long have you been here?" I asked, not really sure if I wanted to know the answer.
"Long enough." Was his only answer. He looked out the window.
"Edward, please tell me." I said.
He took a deep breath.
"I came just in time to hear Jasper." He almost growled his name. "Asked you why you were feeling guilty."
That meant...Edward heard me say I loved Jasper. He heard me say I didn't love him anymore. He saw Jasper kiss me. He saw me faint because of Jaspers kiss.
He had heard everything, and seen everything.
I put my head in my hands.
I felt despair overwhelm me. He knew everything.
A little part of my mind was telling me that I didn't have to talk to him then; he already knew all of the things I would have told him. Not that that made it the slightest part better.
I wished Jasper was here to calm me down, both with his ability and with his arms around me. But of course, that wouldn't help the situation with Edward. Not that it felt like anything could make that better.
"Edward." I said, still with my head in my hands.
"I'm sorry, about everything. I'm sorry that you had to find out this way. I wish I could have told you myself. And I'm sorry I'm hurting you."
I knew I had to say it, but it felt like the words were stuck in my throat. I looked up at him.
"But..." I took a deep breath. "If there's one thing I'm not sorry for, its how I feel. I love Jasper, and nothing can change that. Nothing you say or do can change that." His face fell more and more for each word. And when I said I loved Jasper, his face crumpled in pain. I bit my lip. This was even harder than I had imagined.
"Edward, please, say something." I pleaded.
He was taking slow breaths.
"I still love you Bella. I always will."
His words made my eyes fall to the floor.
"Edward, I..." I started to say, but he cut me off.
"Bella, don't. You didn't let me finish."
I looked confused at him. What more was there to say?
"I wanted to tell you that I still love you. I love you so much, that all I want for you is to be happy. And if Jasper makes you that, then let it be that way. All I ask is that you don't ask me to stick around to see you two together." He said the last part with a frown on his face.
"Edward, you're not going to do something stupid are you? Like go to Italy or something, right?" I asked uncertainly. He wouldn't, would he? I mean, he has done it before.
"I would never do anything to make you unhappy, Bella."
"Then you don't be unhappy, Edward! This isn't the end of the universe!" I said, throwing my hands in the air.
"No, its not." He said, stepping closer to the window.
"Just the end of my universe."
And with that, he was out the window.
"Edward..." I said. Now I felt really bad.
I wiped the tear that was falling down my cheek away. This had ended so badly. What an idiot I had been, hoping we could remain friends, or at least something more than enemies, because that was what it felt like we were now.
I didn't get to think about it much more, because sleep suddenly overwhelmed me.
I got under my bedcover and fell asleep almost immediately.
When I woke up, I could feel strong, cold arms around me. I gasped, not expecting them to be there.
"Good morning to you too." Jasper said.
I smiled, not daring to open my mouth, afraid I might have morning breath.
"Can I have a minute to be human?" I asked, squirming in his arms, trying to get free.
He laughed at that, but let me go.
I stood up.
"Wait, what about Charlie, is he still here?"
"No, he left about half an hour ago." He said, smiling at me.
I just nodded.
I walked out of my room and into the bathroom, in a desperate need for a warm shower. After I'd been in the shower I felt better, relaxed. I suspected that Jasper also had something to do with that, but I let it go.
I brushed my teeth and my hair, and when I thought I looked decent, I went back to my room.
When I got in, Jasper wasn't on the bed anymore. I got confused and looked around, only to see him sitting in the rocking chair in the corner of the room. He was looking at a picture. I remembered with a sigh, that I never threw those pictures of Edward out. Nicely done, Bella. Now Jasper was sitting there, looking at them.
I walked over to him, and took the picture out his hands. He looked confused up at me. I just smiled, and sat down in his lap. He put his arms around me, and rested him head on my shoulder.
"So..." I asked. "How did it go?"
"Rather uneventful. As you though, Alice already knew. She told me that of course she was unhappy, but all she wanted was, that I was happy. And she wanted you to be happy to. She really loves you Bella. But then, in the middle of our talk, she had a vision. Something about Edward running away. She wasn't sure, because he hadn't decided where to go. But she said it looked like he was heading towards Alaska. I asked her if she was leaving to, and she answered that she would be going away for sometime, to think things over, but she also promised she would be back. She said she couldn't just leave you like that. And in the end she wished us good luck, with everything."
"Well, at least your talk ended on a good note."
"What do you mean?" He asked
"After you left yesterday, Edward came through the window. He had heard everything. So, of course, I had to tell him that I didn't love him anymore. He didn't really take that very well, but you already knew that. And it ended with both of us feeling awful."
"I'm sorry. I didn't even sense him out there. I should have paid more attention. I..." I put my lips to his to make him stop talking.
He kissed me back, but after a couple of seconds I had to pull back, not really wanting to. He looked amused at me.
"Don't be sorry, it wasn't your fault." I said, leaning against his chest. He rested his chin on my head, his arms still around me.
"Let's just put this behind us. It belongs in the past. Now, all that maters, is you and me, okay?"
"Okay." He said, kissing my head.
I closed my eyes, and smiled.
We sat like that for a couple of minutes, but then I remembered something that made my smile go away.
We still hadn't told the rest of the Cullens about us.
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