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A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes

Summary:
Hindsight is 20/20, right? What if Bella knew the events of Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, and the first portion of Breaking Dawn before they transpired? How would the story change? Would it stay the same. Thanks to MRSBellaCullenBlack for the amazingly wonderful banner! A Dream is a Wish your Heart Makees


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6. Because, when you're with me...

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The next month was sheer torture. If Edward leaving me had been pain, this was worse. He was there, less than five feet away, every day, and I could not touch him. I could not talk to him. He wouldn’t even look at me, though I looked at him…more often than I cared to admit.

The day following the accident had been hectic. Alice had come over at five in the morning, ready to play Barbie doll Bella. She practically had to drag me to the bathroom, so great was my slumber-induced stupor.

After an hour of pinching and pulling, I was finally awake enough to talk. Alice must have known this. She began to fire off angry questions. “What were you thinking yesterday? Did you know that was going to happen? Did you know what I had to do to keep you alive? Were you going to tell me about this little plan? Did you thin-“

I cut her off. “One question at a time, Alice. In answer, I was thinking that Edward needed to save me. Of course I knew what was going to happen. I didn’t think about telling you. You knowing might have messed everything up. Sorry.” I smiled guiltily.

“What if Edward had made a different decision? You could have been killed! Bella, at least let me know when you are going to do something dangerous like that.” Alice was in full lecture mode.

“If Edward hadn’t rescued me, he wouldn’t have realized that he has more than ‘friend’ feelings toward me. Next time I do something really dangerous, I’ll inform you, Alice. Would you like twenty-four or thirty-six hours notice?”

“This is no time to be funny, Bella. I was worried,” Her mouth turned down into a pout. She repeated, “Do you realize how close Rosalie came to killing you?”

I nodded. “I know about the family argument; one of the worst you’ve ever had, right?”

“It wasn’t one of the worst. It was the worst fight we’ve ever had. In answer to your unspoken question, yes, Edward stuck up for you. He loves you. I think he knows he loves you. But he’s too scared to admit it.”

“Is he going to talk to me today, Alice?” This was the question I wanted answered most.

She bit her lip. “Well, Rosalie wanted to see your head roll. Edward had to compromise with her. He promised he would not have any contact with you. I think a part of him wants to stay away from you. Keep you safe.”

“That sounds like him.” I replied, rolling my eyes in loving annoyance.

“Edward is…well, Edward.” She replied, giving me a half smile.

“I wouldn’t have it any other way,” I paused. “How come you can still talk to me? We’re pretty close. Don’t they think it’s dangerous for you to be around me all the time? What if you slipped, and I connected the dots?”

“Well, Rosalie…and even Jasper and Edward thought it was better I stay away from you, but you’re my friend, Bella. I won’t desert you. I convinced them that I am smarter than my poor besotted brother, and can keep a secret.” She smiled, showing her small pointed teeth.

“Even Edward?” I asked in a small voice.

“He really just wants you all to himself. He’s so selfish.” She huffed.

“That’s going to come in handy later.” I smiled, trying not to go to my happy place.

Changing the subject, she said, “Now, let’s get you into the clothes I brought. Valentino is on a roll this season.” I groaned as Alice turned off the curling iron, and marched me back to my room.

I drove Alice to school in my truck. She grumbled about my speed the entire way. “You’re going to let Edward get you a new car as soon as you start dating. No! Better yet, there will be a new car sitting in your driveway when you get home. Please Bella! Let me do this for the sake of humanity.”

“Alice. No, I like my truck. It has personality.”

“A Coup de Vil has personality.” Alice muttered under her breath.

At school, scores of people surrounded me, asking to hear the details of my brush with death first hand. Edward was ignored. In Biology, he only nodded in response to my greeting. That was my last communication with him for a month.

The only thing that kept me afloat was Alice’s constant attention. We had fast become co-conspirators. We studied together after school, and she slept over on a couple weekends. She listened to all my whining over Edward, and told me of how chinks in his armor were starting to appear. Charlie loved her, and Renee was thrilled that I was making friends.

With all of Alice’s conversation, Eric, Tyler, and Mike were still attentive. So attentive that Jessica felt the need to ask my permission to ask Mike to the Spring Dance that was fast approaching.

“Are you sure you don’t mind…you weren’t planning to ask him?” She persisted as she informed me of the upcoming Spring Dance.

“No, Jess, I’m not going.” I assured her. I would be on my “first” date with Edward during the dance. It was in less than two weeks. Even thinking about it made my heart race.

“It will be really fun.” She persuaded unconvincingly.

“You have fun with Mike.” I pressed.

The next day, Mike walked me to class. He was nervous. I wished he wouldn’t do what he was about to do. It only made Edward jealous. No one wanted that...or did we?

Mike perched on my desk before class started. I really wished he would flirt with someone else. I was taken. Married…well, almost. “So, Jessica asked me to the spring dance.” He began.

“”That’s great.” I declared happily.

“I told her I had to think about it.” He mumbled.

“Why would you do that?” I asked incredulously.

“I was wondering if…well, if you might be planning to ask me.” He couldn’t meet my eyes.

Not a chance! Deciding to be polite, I replied, “Mike, I think you should tell her yes,”

“Did you already ask someone?” Mike’s eyes flickered to Edward. I had to wonder what his thoughts were at this moment. Someday, I would remember to ask Edward.

“No. I’m not going to the dance at all.”

“Why not?” He asked accusatorily.

Edward and I will be on a date, declaring our feeling for one another. “I’m going to Seattle that Saturday.” I replied. Edward had invited me to ride to Seattle with him in the dream. He wanted to protect me. I had to recreate the circumstances that made him fall in love with me.

“Can’t you go some other weekend?” Mike pressed.

“No!” I replied harshly. I swallowed, and continued more reservedly, “So you shouldn’t make Jess wait any longer- it’s rude.”

“Yeah, you’re right,” he mumbled, turning toward his desk.

I sat back, trying to ward of a headache. I opened my eyes and turned, looking at Edward. Our eyes met. He was frustrated, but I thought I could detect a certain mixture of love and confusion there as well. His gaze was mesmerizing.

“Mr. Cullen?” Mr. Banner called, breaking the spell.

“The Krebs Cycle,” He answered, unwilling to break our gaze.

I fidgeted in my seat for the rest of the hour. I didn’t know what to do with my hands. I ended up twiddling them. At the bell, I slowly arose, waiting for the words that I knew were coming.

“Bella?” I spun on my heel, and nearly fell over.

“Are you speaking to me again?” I asked, trying to hide a smile.

“No, not really.” He half smiled.

“Then what do you want, Edward?” I asked, knowing the answer, but not wanting to appear to know.

“I’m sorry. I’m being very rude, I know. But, it’s better if we’re not friends.” He was so sure of himself.

“You should have figured that our sooner.”

“I do not understand.”

You should have let the van squish me. All your problems would be solved.” I hissed. In my dream, my thinking had made him look deeply into my character. I had to recreate that.

His eyes widened in surprise. “Do you really think that?”

“Yes.” I answered. It was true. His problems would be gone if I was.

“Then you don’t know anything.” He was mad now.

I had to stop involuntarily moving closer to him. It was harder than I would have thought possible. Knowing the end from the beginning of our story, I tended to forget that Edward didn’t. It was terribly difficult to not be able to touch him. How had I survived in my dream?

“Thank you, Edward.” I declared, trying to smooth over our fight.

“You’re welcome.” He retorted, still angry. I turned on my heel and stalked out of the classroom. This conversation hadn’t been exactly the same as the one in my dream, but it still conveyed my point.

Basketball in gym had been close to torture. Since my dream, thoughts of Edward had been like a constant hum in the back of my head. After interaction, the hum became worse; louder. I replayed our conversations in my head several times. Looking at them from every angle was becoming something of an obsession with me. Because of this, my already poor sports skills were reduced to a level bordering on pitiful.

As usual, Alice met me by my truck. While trying to hurriedly climb in, Eric ran up to us. “Hey Eric,” I called, disappointment coloring my tone. I had been hoping to avoid this encounter all together. I guess fate had other plans.

“Hi, Bella.” He replied.

“What’s up?” Please don’t ask me to the dance. Please don’t ask me to the dance.

“Uh, I was just wondering…if you would go to the spring dance with me?” His voice broke.

I sighed. Eric, I’m going to be in Seattle that weekend. Alice and I are planning on going to a Chanel trunk show. I lied easily.

“Oh. Well, that’s cool, I guess. Maybe next time.” He said, sounding hopeful.

That was not going to happen. Ever. “Thank you for asking me.” I replied, grimacing politely.

I climbed into my truck, and started the engine. Pulling in behind Edward, I waited. Looking back, I could see Tyler Crowley waving frantically from his newly acquired Sentra. I turned back around. Knowing what was going to happen didn’t make getting asked out three times in one day by the wrong boys any easier.

I heard a tapping on Alice’s window. Tyler was there, smiling at me. My best friend and future sister rolled her window down. “Hey, Bella.”

“Hi Tyler. What do you want?” I asked, impatiently. I wanted to get home, and talk with Alice about her brother. Human boys asking me out did not fit into my plans today. I resisted the urge to massage my throbbing head.

“I was just wondering, will you ask me to the spring dance?” He was utterly confident that I would say yes. Was he in for a surprise.

“I’m not going to be in town, Tyler.” I said, a little more sharply than I intended. Alice was grinning like no tomorrow.

“Yeah, Mike said that,” he admitted.

“Then why-“

“I was hoping you were just letting him down easy.”

“Sorry, Tyler. I really am going out of town.”

“That’s cool. We still have prom.” I was about to correct him, but Edward had so enjoyed telling him off while going to prom. I couldn’t let him miss that opportunity. Better to keep the peace with Tyler, and let Edward have his fun.

As soon as Tyler was safely back in his car, I looked ahead, into Edward’s rearview mirror. He was laughing. I had to smile a little, as well. How I loved the sound of his laughter! It was music to my ears.

Alice’s boisterous laughter snapped me out of my day-dreaming. “Bella, do you realize,” more laughter, “that you just turned down three boys in less than two hours? Also, you made an excellent lie on the spot. You may fit in our family yet. How did you know there was a Chanel trunk show in Seattle in two weeks? Have you been staying up late, reading Vogue by flashlight?”

I muttered under my breath all the way home, while Alice continued to laugh. Honestly, I couldn’t see what was so funny in the situation. Three human boys had asked me out to the dance. Big whoop. It was not the greatest miracle I’d experienced in my dream…vision…former life. I didn’t know what it was, but the longer I spent here, the more I began to think that my dream had been more than a dream.

Once safely settled in my room, laughter having ceased seconds before, she declared, “Edward really loves you, you know. It’s been hard to live around him lately. He’s going to crack. Very soon.”

“I know.” I replied.

“Of course you do.” She sighed in response. “Do you know how annoying it is to be around someone who knows the future better than I do?”

I began to laugh. “How do you suppose everyone else feels…all the time?”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about. Now, focus on your homework. I see you getting a ‘C’ on your test tomorrow unless you buckle down, and study.” She sniffed.

Just then, the phone rang. It was Jessica. Answering the call, we chatted away for a few minutes. Ending the call, I was satisfied that I was keeping up my human connections quite well, all things considered. I had Alice, but I was determined to make better friends here in Forks while the opportunity still existed.

Later, while falling asleep, my heart suddenly jumped, knowing that Edward would visit tonight. I tossed and turned for hours. I heard a small squeak, and was suddenly able to relax. Edward was where he was supposed to be. With me.