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A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes

Summary:
Hindsight is 20/20, right? What if Bella knew the events of Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, and the first portion of Breaking Dawn before they transpired? How would the story change? Would it stay the same. Thanks to MRSBellaCullenBlack for the amazingly wonderful banner! A Dream is a Wish your Heart Makees


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8. Prelude at La Push

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I sat in my room, reading Macbeth. I knew Alice would let herself in when she arrived with my car. The more I thought over my conversation with Edward, the more I lost interest in the novel I was holding. How could you enjoy a book, when you were living a fairytale?

As I was about to succumb to my happy place, Alice pirouetted into my room. “You and Edward seem to have hit it off rather well today, future sister. Just promise me that when you two start dating you’ll still make time for me in your life. I was here first, after all.”

“Sure, sure.” I cringed, knowing that phrase had been picked up while hanging with Jake. “We’ve got bigger problems than time commitments, Alice.”

“What problems? I don’t see any big changes in your relationship. I hate missing things, Bella! I never used to miss anything until a few months ago.” Alice began to rant.

“Alice, you’ve got to understand that problems tend to follow me. There is supposed to be a huge change in our relationship this Saturday, and unless we come up with a plan, I’m afraid your wedding planning services will not be required.”

“This Saturday is the Chanel trunk show. What could happen there? Yes, we could find some couture, but lasting relationships are not formed while properly looking at the runway, Bella darling.”

“Alice, you need to cancel. Edward and I will be going for a walk in the woods on Saturday. I don’t care how you do it. It’s going to be sunny that day. Make an excuse about hiking. I need Edward to think I’m shopping alone. We both know he won’t like that.” I smiled at the thought.

“Bella, I’ll trust you, but you’re going to owe me. Big time! I’m foreseeing fashion week in Paris next year.” Alice wasn’t happy. At all. My poor best friend. She had been so looking forward to Saturday’s show, and now I was canceling on her for her brother.

“We’ll see, Alice. I know that I owe you big. I’ll find a way to repay you, someday.” I looked down in shame. I didn’t want to feel guilty, too.

“Now, enough of planning your future. Do you want me to help you make Charlie’s dinner? I’ve been watching the Food Network, you know.”

“You can help me if you want. I’m making a salad tonight. Knives and I are barely on speaking terms. It might be best if you cut the vegetables.”

“Vampire speed helps with chopping too, Bella. Now let’s go downstairs.” Rushing me down the stairs, Alice guided me into the kitchen.

“I’ll be just a second,” she said, “Project Runway is on, and I’d like to hear it while making dinner.”

“Project Runway, Alice? Do I even want to know?” I asked, skeptically.

“Probably not. It’s an addiction of mine along with America’s Next Top Model.” With that, I pulled out the ingredients and started broiling the steaks.

Just as Alice and I were setting the table, Charlie walked through the door. Hanging up his gun belt, he said “Smells good, Bells. When will dinner be ready?”

“Five minutes.” I replied, concentrating on not getting burned while trying to take the steaks out of the oven.

“Alright. Do you, uh, need any help?”

“No. Alice is helping. We’re fine.”

“Alright. I’ll be at the table in just a minute.”

Sitting down, Alice and I dished up. Charlie joined us a few minutes later. “Alice, you aren’t going to eat more than that? You’re thin enough.”

“Oh, I’m fine. I’ve never eaten very much. Besides, I’m a vegetarian.” I coughed into my grape juice. Alice flashed me a quick smile. Stupid little pixie!

“Alice, you have to go anyway, right? Aren’t you guys hiking this weekend?” I asked, seeing that Charlie was about to offer her some salad.

“Yes, I should probably get going. We have to start out early tomorrow. I’ll show myself out.” Rising from the table, Alice ran up the stairs to grab her bag out of my room, and was soon out the door.

There was to be no vampire contact until Tuesday. How was I going to survive? Alice and the rest of the Cullens were my reason for getting up in the morning. I was going to survive…somehow. Tuesday couldn’t come fast enough.

The next day in Trig, Jessica asked offhandedly, “So, what did Edward Cullen want yesterday?”

“Oh, nothing. He just wanted to talk to me.” I replied, inspecting my fingernails.

“You looked kind of mad,” she pressed.

“Did I? Well, I’m not mad now.” How could I stay mad at my angel?

“You know, I’ve never seen him sit with anyone but his family before. That was weird.”

Honey, you don’t know the meaning of the word…”Yeah, whatever.” Jessica flipped her hair, annoyed with me, and my lack of gossip.

Sitting with my human friends at lunch, I listened to their plans to go to First Beach. It was still going to be cold, but Jacob would be there. He would be my Jacob; the Jacob that wasn’t in love with me. Maybe, if I played my cards right, I could keep my best friend, and have my husband, too. …

During lunch, I received a few unfriendly looks from Lauren. I brushed them off. Was it my fault Edward had picked me over her? It wasn’t like I had done anything to deserve his affection. On the way to class, I made sure I was several feet behind her so as to not overhear the rumors I knew she was spreading about me.

Biology was boring. Edward was hunting at Goat Rocks with Alice, and I was here. Alone. Our lecture was on the proper way of dissection. I had learned how to dissect in Phoenix, and again in my dream Forks. Was it necessary to learn it a third time? Oh well, I had better get used to re-learning things. Ah, the life of a future vampire….No! That was too close to my happy place. I had to pay attention to the lesson.

That night, I told Charlie about my plan to visit the La Push Indian Reservation. After telling him all the names of the people going, he seemed to approve. Somehow, I didn’t think he’d feel the same about my plans that had to do with Edward.

I woke up to the sunlight streaming in my window. I sighed. Edward wouldn’t be among humans today. There was no chance of seeing him, or any of the Cullens for that matter. I knew that this was going to happen, but that didn’t mean I had to be happy about it.

Driving north, I made my way to the Newtons’ Olympic Outfitters store. Pulling up, I saw Katie, Mike, Ben, Eric, Jessica, and the other kids from school were all standing in a circle around Mike’s Suburban.

As soon as Mike saw me, he shouted, “You came! And I said it would be sunny today, didn’t I?”

“I told you I was coming,” I replied patiently.

“We’re just waiting for Lee and Samantha…unless you invited someone,”

“Nope, Alice and Edward are out of town this weekend.” I was hoping that Edward’s name would register in Mike’s brain, and stay there until Wednesday, when Edward could hear it.

Mike looked a little disturbed at my words, but quickly shook the feeling off.

“Will you ride in my car? It’s that or Lee’s mom’s minivan.”

“Sure.”

“You can have shotgun,” he declared, smiling at me.

Making sure to please both Mike and Jessica, I wedged her into the front seat, effectively creating a barrier between me and my overly friendly golden retriever.

I drifted into memories of Jacob during the fifteen-minute car ride. Knowing that I was going to “meet” him soon gave my mind permission to release all its carefully walled thoughts of Jacob into my conscious brain. Knowing I loved him was not going to help this meeting. I’d chosen Edward over Jacob though, and had to learn to accept my choice. I just wasn’t quite sure how…maybe with time, I’d learn. One thing I knew, I couldn’t break his heart again. It was just too precious, and deserved to be whole for the girl that would be the love of his life. I wasn’t that girl.

Suddenly, I was shaken out of my reverie by Jessica, “Bella, Bella, we’re here. Get out of the car. What are you waiting for?”

“Oh, yeah. Sorry.” I mumbled, fumbling with my seatbelt.

“Whatever,” she sighed, rolling her eyes.

Sliding out of the car, I saw First Beach. So many memories were stored here. First learning about vampires…hanging out with Jake…almost drowning. It saddened me that in about a year-and-a-half, I wouldn’t be allowed here. I silently cursed the treaty.

The beach was as beautiful as ever. The wind was blowing; the multi-hewed rocks glistened in the cold sun. The seagulls flew high above us, completing the perfection that embodied First Beach.

Walking down the beach, we stopped at the ring of driftwood logs. Sitting down, I watched as our group gathered driftwood to make a fire.

After a few minutes, Mike sat down next to me. “Have you ever seen a driftwood fire?” He asked, lighting a match.

“No,” I replied. It wasn’t a complete lie…

“You’ll like this then – watch the colors.” Mike dropped the match into the fire, and waited, staring at me.

“It’s blue,” I declared, my eyes flying open in an attempt to look surprised.

“The salt does it. Pretty, isn’t it?” Mike’s eyes seemed to add, just like you.

I squirmed in discomfort. In my mind, I was engaged. I’d chosen my life, and I wouldn’t – couldn’t - go back. Luckily, Jessica was sitting on Mike’s other side, and quickly claimed his attention, alleviating the slightly awkward moment.

After half an hour of chatter, the boys decided to form a group to go explore the tide pools. I joined Mike, Angela, and Jessica in the pro-hike group. To my dismay, Tyler and Eric suddenly decided to join us. That hadn’t happened in my dream. It was my fault for joining the group too early. Stupid me.

As we began walking, Tyler sidled up beside me. “Bella, how are you.”

“Fine,” I replied, slightly put-out. Why couldn’t he leave me alone? I was taken. For good.

“That’s great. Hey, I was wondering…um, well do you want to um, like catch a movie in like a week or two?” Tyler asked nervously.

“Oh,” I exclaimed in surprise, “Tyler, thank you for thinking of me, but the next couple of weeks are going to be pretty busy.” It was true. What with James, and Edward, and “meeting” my future family, I was going to be a very busy person.

“Oh, well that’s totally cool. Maybe some other time.”

“Maybe…” I trailed off, looking away at a particularly interesting tree.

The tide pools were beautiful as always. I watched as the boys leapt across the small sea worlds, showing off. I chose to kneel, and watch the life forms from a safe distance. With my luck, I’d be deathly allergic to the star fish, and would have to be rushed off to the hospital.

Soon, it was time to go back. Steeling myself, I began to traverse the trail back to the ring of driftwood. I fell down a few times, but I didn’t make a big deal out of it. I had a lot bigger problems. I was going to see Jacob as soon as I broke through the trees. What was I going to do? I couldn’t hurt him like I had in my dream. It would kill me. I had firmly decided I would be the only one who suffered this time. Both Edward and Jacob deserved that much from me.

I confidently walked to the group of people standing around the bonfire. I listened as Mike made introductions all around. I recognized Sam, Paul, and Jared among the new comers.

My eyes didn’t linger on them very long; Jacob was there. My heart began to race. How was I going to do this knowing that I loved him? It was crucial I talk to him, but I didn’t know if I could without crying. I guess I’d find the answer to my question very soon.