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Bella jumps off of the cliff in New Moon...but it wasn't Jacob who saved her. Tanya Denali and her sisters offer to take care of the delirious Bella. She can only remember one thing- her name. What happens when Edward shows up after he finds out Bella has died? If Bella can't remember, and she's so altered completely after her transformation into a vampire, how will they know? And was this someone's plan all along? Who was in on it? It's finished! Look out for a sequel (:*AND IF YOU READ IT, PLEASE TAKE TIME TO REVIEW IT!*Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget- it's a hard line to walk.Vietato per Ricordare Banner by poptartsandshoelaces Ahem, banner by me(: I stared at him, trying to find an answer for what he just said. He was right. There might not even be a heaven for all we know, and here I was, attempting to get his hopes up that there was when I knew he had no hope for anything left. “Love never fails.” I said simply.It's finished! It's so sad to see it end! But I'll be back before ya know it :D


1. A Vampire

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Chapter 1: A Vampire

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Goodbye My Lover- James Blunt


I woke in what seemed to be a dimly lit room, though everything looked absolutely clear and bright to me. I looked up at the fluorescent lights that burned my eyes, and to the left of me were three women. All three of them were unbearably beautiful, with pale skin and squared off features like perfected sculptures you’d find in ancient Greece.

My senses felt unusually sharp; I could see the little flecks of dust floating through the air, and rainbows of color the sun threw against the wall. All of the colors stood out so distinctly, I could see the variation of shades and hues of other colors mixed in to them, too dull for the naked eye.

I felt the confusion in my features, and I scrutinized the faces of the three beautiful strangers standing before me about four yards away.

One of the women stepped away from the group, bravely extending a white arm toward me, a gentle smile playing at the corners of her lips.

I felt my eyes grow wider as I stared blankly at her hand. My eyes drifted back to her face. She shifted around her long strawberry blonde hair, and I watched as each little strand fell back against her head. But, one feature, aside from the skin color, stood out to me, making me cringe back on the small white table.

Their eyes were all the same deep, golden color. The color of melted topaz, or butterscotch. I looked into them confused, as they penetrated through mine. I turned my head away in a swift movement, a little stunned at the way she peered at me.

I heard a quiet footstep, and snapped my head back in their direction. I realized, the red head had taken another step closer. She dropped her hand, and opened her mouth to speak.

“Hello, Bella.” She spoke in a voice so perfect and beautiful that I blinked my eyes in wonder. I was puzzled at how she knew my name. Her scrutinizing expression caused me to compose a mask of something along the lines of stoicism.

She turned slightly to the other three people, and motioned them to step forward. They looked between each other, exchanging looks of discomfort, and unwillingly came toward me.

I felt like I was some kind of dangerous animal, judging by the way they were acting. It was unsettling watching them stare at me so curiously, studying my movements so apprehensively.

“Bella, my name is Tanya Denali. These are my sisters,” she said, gesturing to the blonde one first. “This is Katrina, but she prefers Kate.”

Her fingers combed through her curly shoulder length hair, and she flipped it back over her shoulder. She gave me a tiny wave and I tried to smile, though it came out a little half hearted.

The other girl, more petite than the others, with shorter dark brown hair stepped around Tanya.

“And this is my other sister, Irina.” She smiled, touching Irina’s shoulder.

“Hello, Bella.” She said, in a pretty voice that reached at least a half an octave higher than Tanya’s low and melodic one.

I wasn’t sure exactly what expression took over my face, but whatever it was, it made Tanya smile and gently laugh.

“I see your still a little…perplexed- I’m guessing at this entire situation,” she said, coming forward to sit on the edge of the table beside me, the quiet laugh still continuing through her perfect lips. “I completely understand of course, but would you like me to explain it to you?” she raised one eyebrow. I nodded slightly.

“Excellent, come with me.” She said, offering her hand to me, I watched my hand shake as I reached out to take hers.

I followed her out of the little pink room and out to a white hallway covered in hanging pictures, and abstract paintings. My mind fluttered around, wondering where I was and why I was here.

Out of the hallway, we came to an open room with nothing but a large table that barely fit its space- a dining room.

Tanya came around me, pulling out one of the chairs and gestured for me to sit down. I obeyed and slowly lowered myself onto the seat.

She walked around to the head of the table, while her sisters took the seats beside her.

“First, and foremost, I’d like to explain to you what we are- what you have now become,” she said, looking at Kate who gave a single nod. Tanya turned back to me. “We are a peaceful coven of vampires. We feed only on animals, not humans. My sisters and I were changed long ago- transformed into what we are. We can’t remember much of our human lives, and I assume that you can’t either?”

I shook my head, ‘no,’ too shocked to speak when I heard her utter the word “vampire.” When I hear vampire, I immediately think coffins, and wooden stakes. This home seemed too…normal.

But the fact that I was now a vampire startled me the most. As I said, I had already been through most of this house and the fundamental structure of it was obvious. My thoughts were interrupted when Tanya began again.

“We are fairly positive that we were born in the early tenth century, but that is just a rough estimation. And when we were very young, just after our transformation, our mother, Sasha, was taken away from us and killed by a royal vampire family called the Volturi.

“You have the choice of course, after we have taught you our ways, and after you have been…accustomed to vampirism, you may leave us. But, I hope you find that you will enjoy living among my sisters and I.”

My eyes narrowed slightly and my brow furrowed in confusion. I stared back at Tanya letting all of this seethe into my brain. My throat felt suddenly dry, and I gulped loudly. The brunette, Irina, looked up from the table suddenly, smiling.

“Really, everything is going to be okay, we promise. We aren’t trying to scare you, we just don’t want you to be shocked.” She said, honestly. Too late.

“But, now I’d like to explain how you are here,” Tanya said, moving her chair back, making it screech softly on the wooden floor. She stepped away from the table, and walked around it, running her hand along the wood as she went. When she reached me, she placed a white hand on my shoulder, and her golden eyes looked down on me.

“I was visiting a few friends in Forks, Washington when I found you. It’s illegal for m- our kind to be on the reservation, so I walked along the edge, along the cliffs, mostly. Then, while I was looking down into the water, a saw a big splash burst out of it. I waited for a few minutes. I had heard that many people enjoy cliff jumping on the reservation, and I assumed some of the locals were just having some fun, which is exactly what you were doing.

“But when I didn’t see anyone emerge, I jumped in, afraid that someone was drowning. After I found you though, you seemed to have been dying because you were bleeding from your head, and you weren’t responding to me. So I carried you back here, afraid of what would happen if I left you there. I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t leave you to die. So, when I brought you back, I consulted with my sisters, and we all came to the conclusion that there was only one thing that we could do, only one logical solution, and that was to change you.”

Now that it was explained in full context, I could feel the tension in my face melt away slowly. I darted my eyes between them. Tanya’s little smile was still in place- but I felt like her eyes were saying something else, Kate’s head was cocked to one side, and Irina was picking split ends from her hair.

“You don’t seem…disturbed by any of this. I was expecting you would be terrified.” Kate said, echoing the look on Tanya’s face.

“Yes exactly,” Tanya said, looking to her sister, nodding her head in agreement. “Your reactions are so calm, please, feel free to react rationally any time you’d like.” Tanya laughed.

I smiled a little bit. “Okay,” I whispered.

“Ah, she speaks!” she cried, and held her hands above her head. “I was afraid that we’d be housing the first mute vampire!” she teased.

My hands balled into fists and my tensed up at Tanya’s casual use of the word. Vampire…it was now inevitable that I was now a vampire…vampire.

She apparently felt my sudden change of apprehensiveness, and touched my shoulder again. “I know that this is very…unsettling for you. I can just imagine how scared you must be. But that’s why we’re here. We are welcoming you into our family as one of our sisters. Unfortunately, our other sister Carmen and her husband Eleazar couldn’t be here today. They are in Spain right now, living as a married couple. Carmen and Eleazar joined us about one hundred years ago, but we still consider her one of our sisters.”

I thought about each of their adorned features and was instantly curious.

“Can I see myself?” I said, surprised at the way my voice sounded. I couldn’t remember exactly what my human voice was like, but I knew it couldn’t have sounded like this…sing-song voice I now acquired. It sounded like bells chiming or a bird singing- it was beautiful.

“But of course, come with me.” Tanya said, leading me out of the dining room and back through the hallway to the familiar pink room where I woke up. I stood awkwardly in front of the mirror, looking at the beautiful girl standing before me. This could not have been me, vampire or not. I remembered my plain and chalky complexion- though I was still pale, my facial characteristics were beyond ornate.

My features were anything but ordinary. My chalky white face looked as smooth as granite. I put a hand on my cheek, watching as it happened in the mirror. My pink full lips were pursed together. I touched my dark brown hair that flowed to the middle of my back in loose waves. But my eyes…my eyes were different than Tanya, Kate, or Irina’s- they were burgundy red. The burned bright, looking like fire lighting up in my eyes. Otherwise though, I was…beautiful- I was a vampire.

“Why are my eyes red?” I asked, still looking at my reflection in the mirror.

“The color will subside in about three months. After you’ve drank a lot of animal blood, your eyes will fade to an almost orange color, and soon to butterscotch gold. And when someone’s eyes are black, that means that they are thirsty, and haven’t hunted in probably…weeks.” Tanya said, coming beside me in the mirror.

When I looked at the two of us standing side by side in the mirror, it looked natural. It looked like I belonged in this family.

“Hunting?” I repeated.

“Yes, we hunt animals. Mostly anything we can find if we’re desperate. We’ll take you somewhere close for your first time.”

Suddenly, I felt a sort of fire in my throat, before it was just an uncomfortable feeling, like a tickle, but now, it felt like someone shoved hot matches down my throat, and they just wouldn’t burn out.

“I’m so sorry! You must be hurting terribly. We’ll take you out now.” She said, taking my hand and bringing me to the door.

“N- now?” my voice shook in nervousness and my eyes widened with fear.

Tanya turned back around and gave me a devious smile. “Now.” She repeated.