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Vietato per Ricordare

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Bella jumps off of the cliff in New Moon...but it wasn't Jacob who saved her. Tanya Denali and her sisters offer to take care of the delirious Bella. She can only remember one thing- her name. What happens when Edward shows up after he finds out Bella has died? If Bella can't remember, and she's so altered completely after her transformation into a vampire, how will they know? And was this someone's plan all along? Who was in on it? It's finished! Look out for a sequel (:*AND IF YOU READ IT, PLEASE TAKE TIME TO REVIEW IT!*Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget- it's a hard line to walk.Vietato per Ricordare Banner by poptartsandshoelaces Ahem, banner by me(: I stared at him, trying to find an answer for what he just said. He was right. There might not even be a heaven for all we know, and here I was, attempting to get his hopes up that there was when I knew he had no hope for anything left. “Love never fails.” I said simply.It's finished! It's so sad to see it end! But I'll be back before ya know it :D


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8. Don't Be Sad

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Chapter 8: Don’t Be Sad

I stood up quickly, and ran back to the little house, the exact way that Edward went. My speed never failed to shock me; I made it from the long length of the woods to the house in a matter of seconds.

The back door was part way open, but before I barged in I heard murmurs coming from inside. You’d think that I had learned my lesson by now, but I still brought myself closer to the open door and arched my head even closer.

It was Tanya, Irina, Kate, and Edward. They seemed to be having an argument again- a bigger one.

“No Edward, that’s out of the question!” Tanya said, sternly.

“Tanya, you don’t understand-“ Edward’s voice was calm, collective. And he was right, she probably didn’t even know the half of it.

“Edward, you can’t go to the Volturi! Give it some time!” I heard Kate’s low voice say over Tanya’s deep sighs.

“I just can’t do this anymore. There have been too many reminders, and this is all just less than helpful. It isn’t working the way I thought it would.” Edward said, his voice getting higher as his annoyance raised.

“Well, go back to Carlisle and Esme then, they can help. Just don’t go to the Volturi, just don’t.” Tanya said, for once, her voice sounded somewhat solicitous.

“It’s the only solution that I see, Tanya. I’m sorry.” Edward said, and then a cell phone rang. “Here, I won’t be needing this.” I assumed he passed the ringing cell phone off to someone.

“Edward,” Kate began, but she was cut off.

“Take care of yourselves. Tell Lillian my goodbye’s also, and that she was a wondrous help.” I heard footsteps, and I backed up against the side of the house. A door slammed, and Edward was gone.

More footsteps took over, fading off into the distance.

I stepped inside the house tentatively, looking around. No one was there. I leaned20back against the door, when I heard Irina’s quiet voice.

“Should we tell her, Tanya?”

“No, we are never to tell her anything. She’s better off not knowing. Everything is ruined anyway.” Tanya’s voice was grim and cold, like nothing mattered to her anymore. I felt bad for her, realizing how much Edward meant to her.

Edward was gone. It all suddenly sank into my mind. Edward was gone off to Italy for some reason. Why, why did he leave? Was it my fault? I shouldn’t have followed him out to the woods, it only made matters worse. He would’ve still been here in Denali if I had just left him alone.

I couldn’t let him leave, not without a proper goodbye. I turned around, back towards the door I came in, and ran back outside to the soothing crisp air. Even for May, it was cold. I felt the…need to find Edward. Somehow, as I said before, I had some sort of closeness to him I couldn’t explain. It’s only been a month, but for a reason I could never describe, it seemed that I truly loved him.

I didn’t know where I was going, but I ran the way that Edward and I went when we hunted together. I ran for about ten minutes when I spotted him running about ten yards away. I forced my feet to go faster so that I could catch up with him. “Edward!” I yelled.

He stopped abruptly, and spun around. “Lillian?”

When I made it close enough to him to talk, I stopped. “Edward, you can’t leave.” I pleaded.

“You aren’t the first to tell me that.” He replied, cro ssing his arms across his chest.

“Of course I’m not, because nobody wants you to leave! I don’t know why your planning on going to the Volturi, but whatever the reason is, I’m sure that you could have it here…with me.” My reasoning was weak. Obviously he didn’t care enough about me to stay. Actually, whatever he found in Italy, probably would be much better than any of this.

He looked at me, his eyes never leaving mine. His=2 0hand moved up to my cheek, and lightly pressed against it. “What I have here is too good for me. That’s why I have to leave.” He said quietly.

I closed my eyes. “Please don’t go.”

“I can’t live without her anymore.”

I opened my eyes, and his were closed now. He took his hand off of my face.

My legs were buckling underneath me, and my hands were shaking. “Why are you going to the Volturi? What are you going to do?” I asked.

He reopened his eyes, and sighed. “Like I said, I can’t live without her. I’m just too weak to keep going. When I left, my only reason to continue with…living, was the knowledge that she was alive. Now, I can’t even think of that anymore.”

His reply still didn’t come out clear to me. It felt like there was water in my ears, and his voice was distant, it was a familiar feeling. A feeling that I knew somehow, one I had felt in my human life.

“What are you saying?”

“I’m going to ask the Volturi to kill me,” He said quietly, ashamed of even having the thought. He turned slightly to the right, and then turned back to me. “I see no other solution.”

“No!” I cried, but it sounded only like a sound of begging. “You can’t, Edward!”

“I have to.” He replied coldly.

I felt my face scrunch in an expression of pain. The nausea rolled uneasily in my stomach, and my head ached terribly. I knew that I couldn’t do anything to stop him. “I’m going to miss you, Edward.”

A little smile spread on his face, but never reached his eyes. “Thank you for everything, Lillian. You made my life worth living for a little while.”

A quiet sob escaped from my lips, as Edward turned to run away. The sound stopped him and he looked back. “Don’t be sad,” He whispered. He leaned forward and kissed my forehead, and my eyes closed. “Goodbye, Lillian.”

My lips parted and I whispered, “But…I love you, Edward.”

His expression didn’t change as he pulled his head back. He opened his mouth to say something, and then closed it again. “Unfortunately, I don’t know what love is anymore.”

And then he was gone. I sat quiet and alone in the middle of the empty woods, staring after him as he ran away. I sunk to my knees, and laid my head in my hands. It was so hard to see him leave, and I barely knew him.

A voice in the back of my head told me to get up and go back to Irina, Kate, and Tanya, but what would I tell them? So, I stayed exactly where I was. If they decided to come and find me, they would. But I so very doubted that anyone would ever want to look for me.