Your Future Awaits
Thank you to the wonderful Oh, Mike how will I go on for this Perfect Banner!!! Go read her stories! Bella feels a strong pull towards the Czech Republic, always dreaming of a strange man on the Charles bridge that she can never reach. So when she graduates high school and gets a mysterious letter stating that her tuition to go to university in Prague has been taken care of, she follows fate towards her destiny. But once there, will she finally unravel her mysterious dreams and the stranger within, or the danger lurking beneath them? AU and yes this is a BxE, but with a few twists along the way... Rated Adult for Lemon's in the end.
16. I wear my heart on my sleeve
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I Wear My Heart On My Sleeve
It was Sunday, the day after the banquet fiasco. My phone had been ringing constantly, first it was Alice asking if I was okay, then it was my mom because she forgot the time difference, then it was Victor telling me he had a wonderful time. After about the 8th time Alice called, I just stopped answering it. I was tired, depressed,confused, and all I wanted to do was sleep. So I changed into the comfiest pair of sweats I had, threw on a big t-shirt I had, and curled up in a ball under my covers and crashed out. But even in sleep, I got no rest. I kept seeing Edwards crushed face as I asked him to leave, Victor's smiling face as I was dancing with him, Axton’s shaking form as he crushed my door frame. So I’d wake up suddenly and realize I had only dozed off for 10 minutes, and then the cycle would repeat itself. It was torture. Finally, I had managed to stay asleep, but once I woke up, I couldn’t understand what the dreams had been about. I tried to remember what I had dreamt about, but I couldn’t. It was just bits and pieces floating around in my head. I remember talking and laughing with Victor, but that wasn’t his name in my dream. We had been sitting close together on the balcony of an opera house, and I remember seeing glimpses of an opera, but I couldn’t place it. Everyone in the room wore lavish, fancy dresses, reminding me of the costumes in Sofia Coppola’s Marie Antoinette. But I didn’t remember anything else; I just remembered it as if it were mini-videos and photographs. I vaguely remembered hearing that your dreams are what happen when your subconscious combines everything you see and think about, but this dream was so off the wall that I couldn’t understand why I dreamt it. And why did it feel so familiar, as if it were a memory. I glanced at the clock, and was surprised to see that it was 11am. It hadn’t felt like I had slept that long. I sat up in my bed and stretched out my arms, extending them out and then above my head. Then I reluctantly swung my legs over the side of the bed so that I could make my way to the bathroom for my morning ritual.
After I had finished a cup of earl grey tea and a bagel, I began to feel restless. The prior night’s argument weighed heavily on my mind and I felt horrible. I knew that I over reacted, that he was just worried about losing me. But no matter how much I reassured him, he was positive that I would resent him someday. Just thinking about it again was frustrating me and I had to force myself to take deep calming breaths. Yep, I still needed space. As guilty as I felt for the way I handled the situation last night, I was no less upset that he wouldn’t listen to me.
Then there were the feeling I was feeling for Victor. A week ago I had no idea who he was, a few days ago I was afraid of whom he might be, and now I couldn’t wait until I saw him again. And it upset me even more because I had a boyfriend. I wasn’t one of those girls that take for granted what she has. I hated those girls that cheat on their boyfriends and flirt with other men, girls whose romantic lives are riddled with drama. I WASN’T ONE OF THOSE GIRLS! But here I was in the middle of a love triangle that I did not want to be in. This is what I knew…. I love Edward. Edward loves me. I feel a connection with Victor. Victor is vying for my affections. Edward doesn’t trust Victor. I trust Victor. Do I like Victor? Yes. Do I love Victor? No. If I had to choose Victor or Edward, who would I choose? Edward.… So I didn’t get why it was so hard to stop thinking about Victor.
After a couple of hours of trying to read Pride and Prejudice, I finally gave up and collapsed on my bed. I laid there staring up at the ceiling, thinking about what I should do. I couldn’t call my best friend, because that had been Jake, and it would be awkward asking for love advice. I couldn’t call Alice because she would be biased. I couldn’t call my mom, because really what would I say? Mom, I’m in love with a vampire who doesn’t trust my insanely good looking benefactor that I have a strong connection with. Um, no. So that left me with just about no one to call. I sighed loudly; irritated with the fact that I had no one to go to. For the first time in this city I felt alone. In a few hours it would be an entire day since I asked Edward to give me a day’s worth of space. I wondered if he would take that literally and come at exactly 24 hours after I asked him. He probably would. I wasn’t sure if I was ready to see him yet; I knew the minute I saw him I would forget about everything that we fought about last night, so I thought about calling Alice and asking her to tell him to give me more time when my cell phone rang again. I let it go to voicemail. Then a couple seconds later I heard my home phone go off and decided to let the answering machine pick it up. About 45 seconds later, I could hear Alice’s furious voice yelling at me to pick up the phone.
“Bella, I know you're home. Pick up this phone right now or so help me God I will-“
“Hi Alice,” I said tonelessly as I answered the phone.
“Bella,” She said curtly.
“What’s up Alice?” I asked. I already feared what she could have seen me asking her.
“Do you honestly think I would break Edward’s heart by asking him to stay away longer?” Her voice broke.
“I’m sorry Alice, it was just an idea. I was still peeved about our fight last night and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to see him yet,” I explained.
“Bella, grow up!” She snapped at me. It took me by surprise, “Of all the things to be upset about, you pick Edward’s self-consciousness.”
“I’m not upset at Edward’s self-consciousness!” I defended.
“Then what do you call it? You’re upset because he doesn’t trust that you feel the same as him and because he doesn’t know if he can trust the new highly attractive mysterious man that has shown an interest in his girlfriend. Look at it from his perspective, Bella! Edward views himself as the vilest creature, a vampire. He doesn’t believe that we have souls; he thinks were condemned to hell. He can’t offer you children, to grow old; he can’t even offer you a normal physical relationship. And then a mysterious, rich, attractive guy that he can’t hear and causes your future to disappear, waltzes in your life and you’re upset because he won’t believe you when you say that you love him to? Sure, it should be enough to say love in any other relationship, but we’re talking Edward here. He’s the most self deprecating person in the world. It’s going to take patience to make him understand. Do you understand Bella?”
“I…I don’t know what to say.” I sobbed into the phone. Alice had hit so many truths in her speech that I felt even worse ten times over. “You’re right Alice, absolutely right. I can’t believe I was upset over a stupid little thing. What have I done? He probably hates me. I need to apologize; I need to talk to him. Alice please ask him to come?” I begged. I was so upset at myself that I had over reacted at such a petty thing. Of course it would take time to make Edward see that I loved him more than anything. Alice had a point. He was the most self deprecating person in the world, and he’s had a long time to believe that he was the vilest creature as well. It would take time to make him see his worth in my eyes. Rome wasn’t built in a day.
“Bella, shhh, its okay. I’ll text him and tell him to head over. Just calm down okay? Everything will be alright,” She soothed.
“Thank you Alice, I’m sorry about everything. I can’t believe I was so petty.” I sniffled.
“It’s okay Bella. Just remember, you have to be patient with him. It’s going to take time for him to realize that your feelings are just as deep as his. I gotta go Bella; I’ll see you tomorrow after class okay?”
“Okay,” I said then hung up the phone. Edward was going to be here soon and I needed to gather what I was going to say to him when he got here.
What would I say to him? Sorry wasn’t good enough. I loved Edward, and he needed to know that. The fact that he wasn’t positive of that fact was what got us here in the first place. Sure, Axton was a possible contender for my heart when I first arrived in Prague, but then Edward came from out of no where and stole it. And now with Axton out of the picture, Victor Scarling makes an appearance. Victor was alluring, mysterious and broken. The pull I feel when I am around him is entrancing and I almost lose myself in it…almost. I grieve for his broken heart, not wanting to ever feel the agony I’m sure he has endured. There are so many secrets surrounding him, and I had a feeling that if I let him, he’d lay them all out on the table for me. But despite the connection we have, it doesn’t even come close to the fact that Edward has my heart. It isn’t even mine to give to whom I want anymore; it is unequivocally and irrevocably Edward’s.
So when Edward knocked on my door, I held my breath as I walked to open it. I paused with the door still closed and slowly leaned my forehead against it, one hand on the lock, the other resting flatly on the surface. I dreaded the awkward and tense talk we were about to have. I exhaled and slowly opened it to reveal a very well fed yet anxious Edward.
“Bella…” He breathed as he swooped me up in his arms and began kissing every single part of my face and neck. “I’m so sorry; I should have never distrusted you. If you trust this Scarling man, then I shall too. I will never waver in my trust in your decisions. Will you please accept my apology; I’ve been a wreck thinking about the pain you must have felt at my doubt. Please forgive me my sweet, sweet Bella,” He begged.
“Edward, you have nothing to apologize for. I’m the one who gave you reason to doubt me. But you have to know, you’re the only one who can ever claim my heart Edward. I feel kindness for Victor, I can see the pain he is forced to live with, the pain of a broken heart; but I don’t love him. You are the only person that I can ever love, and the only one who can ever break my heart. Edward, my heart is yours,” I said as I slowly lifted myself to kiss his smooth lips. It was as if our bodies were made for each other, our lips molding perfectly to each other.
“I fully came prepared to grovel at your feet, not have you surrender your heart to me,” He said surprised, still kissing my lips.
“My heart is not the only thing I will surrender to you Edward,” I said as I pushed him on to my sofa.
“Bella, what are you doing?” Edward asked, perplexed as to why I had pushed him away from me an onto the sofa.
“Because I’m about to surrender my whole self to you, Edward,” I whispered, afraid that my voice would fail me if I spoke any louder. I hadn’t planned on seducing Edward, but his surprise at my speech kind of inspired me, if you will. I slowly leaned into him lowering myself until I was straddling him. My hands were on either side of his face, caressing every line, my lips kissing his temples, lids, cheeks, and jaw line, everything except his lips. My hands combed softly through his disheveled hair, until I roughly pulled it a little, so that my lips could whisper into his ear.
“Edward, I love you. I give myself to you… fully…forever…eternity…” Slowly my lips found the sensitive spot of his neck, right below his ear, and I kissed him. It wasn’t until I heard him growl and felt his body tremble, did I know that I was affecting him.
“Bella…Please…I don’t know if I can control myself…” He strained to say. I hushed him with my lips to his.
“Shh, I trust you. Now didn’t you say that you would trust my judgment from now on?” I said smiling as I let my hands trail down his shoulders to the hem of his shirt. “Hmm… I think this needs to go.” I said lifting his shirt from his body, up over his arms and on to the floor. I had expected him to fight with me, but he leaned forward a bit to make it easier for removal. I was pleased with my progress. I next aimed for his pants button, until his hand came and stopped me.
“Uh, uh, uh,…it’s your turn.” He snickered at me as his hands skimmed their way down my ribs to the hem of my shirt. I paused, suddenly feeling self conscious. Reality was dawning on me with the fact that if I took off my shirt, then it was officially the farthest I had ever gone with a boy. But wasn’t I wanting to go farther that that when I started this? It was like I had a devil and angel on my shoulder. The angel was trying to talk me out of it, to save my virtue. The devil was urging to take off the shirt and screw my virtue, literally. Edward saw the flash of hesitation and his dark lustful eyes began to turn back to their golden color.
“You’re not ready Bella. This can wait; it doesn’t have to be tonight.” He said, trying to get me to sit beside him, rather than on top of him. But unfortunately for him, his slight refusal only made me side with the devil, and before he could get up from the sofa, I had thrown off my shirt and pulled him on top of me.
“No, I want this, I’m ready. It’s just the first time I’ve ever done this. I’m a little nervous,” I admitted.
“Me too.” He said shakily, taking in my half naked form beneath him. I turned red with embarrassment, hoping my body was not a disappointment.
“Bella, you’re….Beautiful,” He smiled at me.
He lowered himself carefully to my lips, kissing them tenderly. He kissed a trail to my neck, down to my shoulders then back up again. In an achingly slow manner, he slowly kissed my collarbone, then entirely skipped over my chest, to my stomach and looked up at me. He smirked and kissed just below my belly button, causing me to suck in a breath at the coolness of his lips on my skin. The excitement of what was about to happen was seeping in, and it was causing me to tremble. He paused again and looked up at me. The look on his face was pure bliss. He looked happy and looked like a man in love. I smiled at him.
“Edward, please?” I asked. I was ready. Ready to give myself to him.
“Bella, will you marry me?”
Who is Victor Scarling?
He wants me to marry him? I just couldn't fathom it. This beautiful Adonis before me wanted to marry me. I just stared at him in wonder, amazed at how I could find myself in this situation. If you would have told me a year ago that this would be my life, I would have laughed at you. But now.... I just couldn't wrap my head around it. Only moments before we had acted like hormone crazed teenagers attempting to become one, and now I was completely taken aback by his question.
"Bella? Love, are you okay?" Edward asked as I laid there gaping at him. He sat in front of me on the floor as he leaned over to grab his shirt. "Bella...I'm sorry if I scared you, maybe it was too soon to ask if you wanted to marry me, but it just... came out." He tried frantically to explain. Why was he apologizing, didn't he know that I wanted to spend eternity with him?
"Edward? You just .... we almost.... you asked... Wait right here, don't move!" I commanded as i jumped from the couch and dashed into my room. I quickly threw on a dress that Alice had insisted I buy on our last shopping dress and pulled off my sweat pants. I took a quick check in the mirror on my way out and fluffed my hair a bit and ran back out, only to see the most agonized expression on Edwards face.
"Whats wrong?" I asked as I rushed to him and threw myself on my knees directly in front of him so that we were eye level. My hands framed his face forcing him to look at me.
"You changed?" He asked.
"Well I wasn't about to become engaged in sweats and a bra. What would my dad think, or better yet.... What would Alice say?" I laughed, trying to lighten the mood.
"You... You're accepting?" He asked amazing, a smile forming on his perfect lips.
"Of course you beautiful, amazing, clueless man. Why would I say no?"
"Oh I don't know... maybe because I'm a vampire."
"Honestly, if I cared about that I wouldn't be here." I said matter of factly. "But wait wait.... Let's try it one more time, and this time it had to be traditional. i don't want to have to tell my mom we were about to consummate our relationship and you just blurted it out." I giggled. He smiled at me as if he had just won the lottery and threw me over his shoulder, carrying me to my balcony. With the view of the Charles Bridge and the city of Prague, Edward gently placed me on my feet, kissing my cheeks as as he did so, slowly lowered himself onto one knee, and said the words that would forever change my life.
"Isabella Marie Swan, will you give me, Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, the honor of being my wife?" With an in take of breath, I saw him pull a small box from his pocket. He slowly brought it up, opening it slightly until he paused, gauging my reaction, then opened it fully. There in the confines of a tiny velvet box held the most exquisite ring I had ever seen. He slowly pulled it from its setting, holding my left hand. Just as he was about to slide the finger on it he gently kissed my ring finger and looked up at me from beneath his lashes. It took me a second to realize he was waiting for an answer.
"Yes. With my whole soul... yes." I whispered. He smiled once again as he slid the ring on my finger.
"This was my mother's, one of the few things I have of hers. I've been carrying it around in my pocket since the very first day I met you, waiting for the time when I would give this to you." He said. If my heart could melt, it would have done so already. This was the sort of stuff you saw and heard in movies, not in my life.
"It's beautiful Edward. It truly is perfect." I smiled as I pulled him up to me so that I could kiss his lips. We slowly walked over to the love seat that was stationed out on my balcony overlooking the city. We sat comfortably together, wrapped in each others arms. The view or the baroque style city, the Gothic castle on the hill, the bustling Charles Bridge, and the smell of fresh warm pastries from the bakery a couple doors down was the perfect setting for this moment of pure bliss.
"Edward?" I asked, one more thing on my mind.
"Mmm... yes love?" He answered.
"Can I ask you one thing in regards to the engagement?"
"Anything." He said, turning my full attention to me.
"Can we wait until after I graduate for the wedding?"
"After you graduate?" He asked confused.
"Yeah, well this way I can get school over with and I won't have any distractions. Plus, my parents, my mom especially, are very weird about marriage. They really won't like it if we do this before I graduate. I mean, I am still 18. Edward, I want to spend eternity with you, and I know school will always be there for me to go back to. But I know that by marrying you, I have to be a vampire eventually. So waiting until I graduate is more for them, a closure I guess you could call it. If I had my choice, I'd say lets go to city hall and do it now, but I have to give my parents their chance to see me get married and walk down the aisle and graduate college." I explained. I wanted to marry Edward, the sooner the better, but I had to give Charlie his chance to walk me down the aisle, Renee her chance at helping me plan a wedding, both of them the chance to see me graduate college. I had to give them those moments because soon after I marry Edward, I'll never have those chances.
"I understand love," he said thoughtfully, "I'll give you as much time as you need."
"Well, I was thinking.... Maybe we could tell everyone were engaged anyway. They'll understand that we want to wait until I graduate for the actual wedding. Plus I've been thinking of visiting Charlie and Renee soon and it would be nice to give them some news. Maybe you could come...?" I asked.
"I would love to meet your parents Bella, and you have no idea how much it pleases me to hear that you want to tell everyone about the engagement. There was a part of me that was afraid you'd want to keep it a secret." He chuckled.
"Well, I did think about that for a second, but I figured Alice already saw this happening so I figured whats the point." I smiled. "Besides, I want the world to know that I'm getting married to the greatest man alive!" I giggled.
"Alive?" He gave me that crooked smirk of his.
"You get the idea." I smirked right back at him. "Maybe you should get me a less special ring though. I wouldn't want to lose this one in one of my bouts of clumsiness." I said worriedly.
"I have faith in you Bella, besides, Alice will see if you lose it or not." He said taking my hand and kissing it. "Have I told you how much I love seeing my mothers ring on your finger?" He asked in a mischievous grin.
"Nn-noo." I stuttered. His lips had moved from my hand to my wrist to the inside of my elbow, up to my collar bone, to the side of my neck, up to my chin and finally to my lips.
"It's absolutely...mouthwatering." He breathed. He joined his lips to mine and we continued like that for as long as we could until I was gasping for air.
"Wow, that was... amazing." I said breathless, earning a chuckle from him. I couldn't stifle the yawn that followed and Edward slowly started to get up, with me in his arms.
"I think you've had a little too much action for one day. Lets get the human to bed." He said teasingly.
"You mean lack of action...," I grumbled.
"You're tired Bella. You need rest before Alice can tackle you with wedding plans tomorrow." He reasoned.
"But the wedding isn't for another 4 years! How can she already have plans?" I asked.
"If Alice has her way, the wedding will be less than that. Plus, I'm sure she already has you set for fittings with some up and coming designers." Edward said thoughtfully, placing me on my bed as he laid right next to me with his arm bound around my waist.
"Did you read her mind?"
"No, but it's something Alice would do. She is quite predictable with events and shopping.... Once you know how extravagant her mind works." He chuckled.
"I'm soo looking forward to it," I said unenthusiastically. Again I yawned, breaking out cheerful banter.
"You know... We could move the wedding to say... three months from now. I promise I won't be much of a distraction." Edward said kissing my neck.
"Mmmm... I'd love to, but I already explained why I want to wait. I want to give my parents these four years before, you know... I change." I said.
"I know, I'm sorry for pushing it. I just... it worries me how fragile you are." He said softly. "Sleep, my Bella, sleep." Edward said as he kissed my forehead. I snuggled into his side placing my head in the nook below his shoulder thinking about what he said about being fragile. He was right, anything could happen to harm me, but I had faith that between he and Alice I would be safe as I drifted off to sleep...
Watching Bella sleep was entertaining to say the least. Some nights she would dream of her father and mother, other nights she would recite recipes, and my all time favorites were when she dreamt of me. After our close encounter on the sofa earlier and my proposal, I was wondering what turn her dreams would take her this time. It's 15 past 1 am and it would be any minute now that she would start talking. Right on schedule I heard her sigh. The hand that she had on my chest began to slowly make its way up to me neck, pulling me closer to her. This is different, maybe she is awake I thought.
I listened to her breathing and it was virtually the same. I looked to her eyes and they were proof that she was still asleep. Hmm, this was odd for her to move so much. She resumed her movement, however this time it was to pull my neck to her face, where she began to kiss my neck, right below my ear, my shoulder, my collar bone, anything that was within the reach of her lips she kissed. It made me chuckle nervously, as I awaited to hear what words she would be uttering. A few minutes later after her on and off kissing, she began to mumble incoherently. it was intriguing, because it didn't make sense what she was saying.
"We'll...be caught....please.....more...need more..." she would say, only making me more confused. "Kiss me... I love......love you..." Now I understood what she was dreaming. I breathed a sigh of relief and the scent that registered in my mind only confirmed what my suspicions were. So my beautiful innocent Bella was having a passion filled dream about me. I couldn't resist the smile that came to my lips, it was reassuring to know that I had this effect on her. The monster inside of me was hidden away, and lurking in the shadows was a whole new monster...lust. Suddenly, she began to clutch me even tighter, almost desperate, as if i would leave. I looked to her face and her brows were knitted together, the way they usually do when she is distressed. It disturbed me that she was so distressed in her sleep. What could she possible dream about to scare her so?
"Don't go...need...need you... don't go Victor...I love you..." What!? Was she dreaming of Victor, Victor Scarling?! I could barely compose myself as I slowly detangled her from my body and rose from her bed. Millions of thoughts flooded through my head at hearing her speak those words. I walked swiftly to her window and took one last look before I jumped out. She had curled into herself and was still murmuring his name over and over. Why? Why was she calling to him? She was mine, she was engaged to me! Had they been intimate? No, I didn't think so. But why dream of those moments, moments of passion with...him? It tore my heart into pieces to hear her utter the words love in regards to him, and her request to kiss her. Why would she dream of him? These were questions that I wanted answers to, and I would find them. I would find Victor and make him give me the answers that I want, and return to Bella before she awakes.
I jumped from her window and made my way over to my family's house a few miles away. As I walked through the door I was greeted by a worried Alice.
"Edward, I saw what happened. I've already started a search of where you can find this Scarling guy. There's two addresses, one is located in a loft near the Charles bridge, and the other is an estate just outside the city. I've already seen, and you'll find him at the estate." She said.
"What else do you see?" I asked, my frustration and anger seeping into my voice.
"Nothing. Everything disappears once you walk through his door. But I do see you being there when Bella wakes up, so your safe."
"I'm not the one that needs to worry about being harmed, he is." I growled as I burst through the door and ran as quickly as possible to the estate.
As I ran to Victor Scarling's Estate on the edge of Prague, my mind began to wonder why this man was in Bella's life. He was the one who payed her way through college, but why? Why did he take such an interest in her, was there something beneath the surface that I could not figure out? And why could I not see his mind, and Alice his future? There were so many unanswered questions.
I finally came up to the gate of the house. Slowly, as if in a horror story, the gate began to open. I didn't detect anyone manually open it, so I assumed I was already expected. I walked to the front entrance, almost intimidating with its large solid wood doors and intricate design. I wanted to roll my eyes at the over the top indulgence. I pushed open the door and walked inside. If I had thought that the exterior of the house was over indulgent, then the inside was even worse. Gilded ceilings, velvet and leather sofas, intricate designed fire places, and last but not least a large portrait of Mr. Scarling himself above it. I walked towards the back where I could hear movement hoping to find Victor. My assumption was correct there he was sitting at a large dark wooden desk in a room that I assumed was his office.
"Ahh... Edwin. To what do I owe this pleasure?" He asked with mock courtesy.
"I would correct you and tell you that my name is Edward, but you already know that. I am here for answers." I growled.
"Answers to what may I inquire?" He asked leveling his glare with mine.
"As to why you have such an interest in Bella."
"She is a magnificent young woman, surely you know that?" He said, baiting me.
"I do know that." I said stiffly. Of course I knew that Bella was amazing, I just wanted to know why this man had such a vested interest in her.
"Now, now, there is no need to get upset young one."
"Young one, really? You and I look practically the same age, and if you only knew..." I trailed off. I was over 100 years old, who was the young one now?
"If I only knew what? That you are a vampire? I think I already do." He said as if it were common knowledge.
"How.... What?.... You know? But how?" I asked, utterly shocked at his knowledge.
"I've ran into your kind before once or twice, but you I must say, are a bit more civilized than the rest. I can tell by your eye color that you do not hold the same diet as the others."
"If you've ran into my kind before, then how are you-"
"Still alive?" He cut me off. "Easy, I can't die."
"What?" I was becoming more confused by the second. Who, or what, was Victor Scarling?
"I can't die. No matter how hard someone may try, I will never die. I am what one would call immortal. It really does become such a bore once you've done everything imaginable." He said nonchalantly.
"How are you immortal?"
"I blame the black plague. You see, my father was a chemist, and when I came down with the plague, he went through every possible solution to come up with a cure. Then he finally did it, he thought he finally came up with a cure. So I took it and drank every last drop. It tasted like the smoothest heaven, weightless on my tongue. Of course, my father told no one, as he would have been exploited to replicate it. But we knew something was wrong when I stopped ageing. 10 years and I still looked my 24 years, 30 years and I still looked the same. My father died out of guilt, guilt that he had sold his soul to the devil, for that is what his catholic heart told him. I've lived to see countless battles, Kings and Queens, I've seen the greatest works of art created before my eyes. It has been one hell of a ride." He said with a sad grin.
"But why Bella?" I asked, fearful now for her well being.
"In all my years, I had never once thought reincarnation was possible. Until I ran across a college application from a lonely girl from forks with doeful brown eyes and luscious mahogany locks like hers. She is the spitting image of my Marie, she even has the same name. We were inseparable back then, we were the perfect pair. But she was taken from me; Death stole her from me just days before our wedding. I tried to figure out a cure, the same one my father created so that we could be together...forever. But she died before I could get it to her. Just as I walked into the room, I saw her take her last breath and I couldn't save her. I had the elixir in my had, and I couldn't save her." He said heart-brokenly, reliving the moment within his head.
"So you believe that Bella is the reincarnation of your Marie? That's why you brought her here to Prague, so that you could have her again." I spoke partially to him and myself.
"I wasn't expecting you to be in the picture," He said conflicted. "Or that shifter."
"Wait, what do you know about the shifter?" I asked. The memory of Axton had left my mind until he had brought him up.
"I know his name is Axton Wells, he is a shape shifter in the form of a wolf, and he was come to destroy you, which invariably leads more to danger to Bella. I had him removed from Prague and sent back to the states, his Visa will be rejected when he tries to come back." He explained.
"Wow... Thank you I guess." So he removed Axton from Prague to keep danger away from Bella, okay.
"No need. Her protection and safety are of my utmost concern. Which is why I must address my concern for you to be in such close proximity to her."
"My proximity to her has nothing to do with this."
"You are a volatile vampire, one false move could kill her. We both know that." He reasoned.
"So what are you saying?" I asked, getting upset now.
"I think you should leave Prague, away from her."
"What, so you can sweep in and take my place?" I yelled.
"Well that is a possibility. But I can offer her one thing that you cannot...immortality." he said.
"I can offer her that too." I growled to him.
"Yes, but at what price? A constant burn and craving for human blood, or a painless bliss filled immortality?" He said with a smile.
"I will not leave her, until she orders me away. You may have a connection with her, and she may be your reincarnated Marie, but she is my Bella, and I will not go down with out a fight."
"She will remember me. She's had the dreams, am I correct? Is that not what brought you here?" He asked.
"What about them?"
"She'll remember, and what are you going to do once she remebers our life together? Who will she choose then?"
"I.. I dont know. But she will make that decision on her own; I will not make it for her." I said as I stormed out of his estate.
This man, I didn't know whether I should hate him or agree with him. I felt relief at the fact that he wanted what was best for Bella and he wouldn't harm her, but now I had to fight for her heart. There was no denying that they had a connection, and after her dream tonight, maybe she was his Marie reincarnated. But she was Bella now, and I would fight for her heart until it stopped beating.
You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin'
Since the proposal, life had definitely been hectic. It had only been 3 months and yet Alice had already begun wedding plans, getting sketches and ideas ready for my dress, and giving me color swatches for the color scheme. She was already scouting places to have the wedding, debating on having it in Prague, Forks, or some place exotic. She was even forcing me to compile a guest list... this far in advance! She was insane! Edward patiently dealt with her, but when we both had had our fill, he would finally whisk me far away from her. He would occasionally ask if I had changed my mind on moving up the date, but I was firmly decided upon waiting. We had a discussion a couple days ago about if I was positive I wanted to be a vampire. He and Alice both sat with me and explained every detail about the change and what it would feel like after I was changed. They both want to make sure that I am fully aware of what I am getting into, since there's no going back once it happens. It was terrifying to hear it all explained so vividly, but I had made my decision and I was positive that it was what I wanted. Hours later... they relented and I won.
I had begun to meet with Victor weekly now, discussing classes, literature, pop culture, just everything. He had wanted to keep in contact just to make sure that everything was going okay and my academic needs were being met, and I had suggested a weekly coffee date. He had tried to counter offer with a weekly dinner, but I wasn't entirely too comfortable with that. In fact, it was hard to sit in a room with him for our 45 minute coffee dates without blushing as I tried not to remember the less than PG dreams I've had about him. It wasn't that I wanted to dream about him, no it definitely wasn't, but every so often I would have this dream set in the 18th century and either we were dancing, watching the opera, or secretly meeting in a dark corridor. We were always a couple, and he would call me Marie. I couldn't figure out why I would have these dreams, I was engaged to Edward for crying out loud! I always invited Edward to come along with me to these coffee dates, but he always declined. I got the impression that he didn't like Victor very much. And Victor didn't really like Edward for that matter. When I told him about the engagement, he was less than thrilled. He tried to dissuade me, using the excuse that my academics would decline, but I explained that we were waiting until I graduated. He seemed to soften at that, but was no less happy about it. A couple of weeks back, I was venting about the too early wedding plans and that I felt Edward was slightly trying to pressure me into moving up the date, and he grabbed my hand and held it within both of his. He leaned forward, staring intently into my eyes, never breaking contact.
"Isabella, are you sure you want to marry him? You don't have to do this; you're so young, you still have thousands of options." He begged silently with his eyes. I paused thinking about his question.
"Edward is the only option I want." I whispered, feeling uncomfortable by his close presence.
"Are you sure? If you only let me, I could give you the world. I would give you everything, everything!"
"But not love. Passionate, heart breaking, undying love."
"Oh if you would only let me, I could give you all those. Marie, I am giving you my heart, please don't break it." He whispered.
"My name is Bella, and I never asked for your heart Victor, please I'm sorry. I'll see you next week." I said as I left,
It had been pretty awkward after that, but I just acted like everything was fine. I didn't tell Edward or Alice about it, I was afraid they would over react. It was odd that Victor had called me Marie, I never went by my middle name. It was also odd, how at the moment he told me I had his heart, my heart swelled at the idea. I didn't know why my body had reacted the way that it had, I almost threw my arms around him and comforted him, but I left before I could do anything stupid. I didn't want to lead him on, I was completely and blissfully happy with Edward. It was hard to tell him I never asked for his heart, but it was the truth. It hurt to be so cruel to him knowing I reminded him of his lost love.
Back to the present... I was packing to go home back to Forks to visit during my winter break. I was excited to see my dad and my old friends again. I had originally planned to spend my break with my mom, but Phil had bought them a Caribbean vacation to spend during Christmas, so I was just going to have to see her during spring break. I was excited to go back home, especially since Edward and his siblings were coming along too. They decided it was time to visit Carlisle and Esme, and I couldn't be happier. Of course, Edward and I planned on announcing our engagement to everyone since we'd be there as well. I was nervous to tell my dad, I still hadn't told him I had a serious boyfriend. Boys was not a topic of conversation that we dwelled on. None of my old friends from Forks high knew, so I was anxious to see their reactions, especially Mike Newton's, I knew he had a thing for me back in high school. I did tell my mom about the engagement, and she took it much better than I expected. She screamed and squealed into the phone for 5 minutes before she calmed down enough to cry. I made her swear to not tell my dad, that we wanted to surprise him. She was worried he would have a heart attack. One person I wasn't sure about seeing however was Jacob. He was still my friend of course, but now that I knew he was a werewolf, a piece of information he didn't know that I knew, I wondered how things would be. I mean, I was engaged to his enemy.
On the extremely long plane flight I couldn't help but be happy I allowed Edward to buy me a first class ticket. I was almost stubborn and paid for it myself, but he went and bought his family's and mine with out telling me. We sat next to each other and discussed what we were both most excited for when we got back home. He asked about my friends from high school, and who we would be meeting up with during break. I told him about my friends Angela, Ben, Jessica, Mike, Eric, and Tyler and how Mike had invited me to go to his house for a bonfire the next night. I thought it would be the perfect time to introduce Edward. Of course, they already knew Edward from when he lived in Forks. But they didn't know him as my fiancee. I couldn't help but get a huge cheesy grin at what their faces would be like when they saw us.
"Bella?" Edward asked, snapping me out of my day dreaming.
"What's the matter?" I asked, wondering what had him looking so nervous.
"Your father is the police chief correct?"
"He's not going to try and shoot me is he? I mean, he didn't even know you had a boyfriend."
"Hmmm... I don't think he will. That would be against the law." I chuckled.
"But chiefs are above the law, look at Chuck Norris." Emmett said from behind us, earning another chuckle from me.
"I don't think he'd shoot you, but he may have a heart attack." I said.
"Do you really think it's wise to spring it on him so quickly then?" Edward was concerned.
"I don't know how else we could do it."
"I could think of a few ways you guys could do it..." Emmett insinuated behind us. Now Alice and Jasper were silently laughing next to us.
"Oh shut up." Edward said. "What if, after a few days there and some male bonding time, I can respectively ask your father for your hand in marriage, that way he won't feel like he isn't out of the loop. Then maybe he'll be more accepting of the idea?"
"Hmmm... I like it. I think that may work. My dad is traditional enough to respect you for doing that. But...male bonding, really?" I asked.
"Yea, what are you going to do with him Eddie, show him how to perfectly coif his hair?" Emmett joked.
"Well, my dad likes fishing..." I offered.
"I can't go on the reservation remember?" Edward said.
"Hmmm, true. Hunting?"
"Good point. How about sports! My dad loves sports!" I offered.
"Oh I'd pay to see Bella's dad and Edward play baseball." Jasper commented.
"How much? I put $20." Emmett said.
"Make it $50 and you've got yourself a deal." Jasper said slapping Emmett's hand.
"Guy's they're not going to play, obviously. My dad loves watching sports on TV, maybe you two could watch a game together Edward."
"I wonder how your dad would like seeing a game on Emmett's projector screen in HD and a killer sound system..." Edward thought aloud.
"I thought we didn't want to kill him?" Alice asked teasingly.
"He'd love it." I said ignoring the bantering around us, and kissed his cheek.
*** 3 Hours Later ***
"Love, what are you looking at?" Edward asked as I looked at his mother's ring on my finger.
"Your mother's ring. It's beautiful, I love it. The diamond, its breathtaking. It's so big, Edward."
"That's what she said." Emmett said quickly behind us.
"That's what your mom said." I shot back.
"Burn!" Jasper called.
"You need some aloe for that burn Emmett?" Alice cracked up next to me.
"Whatever. Hey Bella, have you bought your tickets yet?" Emmett genuinely asked. I thought quickly, trying to remember what I was supposed to buy tickets for. I looked to Edward for help, but I only saw his amazingly beautiful smirk on his face as he looked down at me.
"Umm, no. I forgot, what was I supposed to buy tickets for?" I asked finally, looking back at him.
"You were supposed to buy two tickets to the gun show!" He said as he lifted his sleeve and kissed his bicep.
"Really? Wow, Rosalie, you sure picked a winner." I laughed. She even managed to crack a smile at that one.
*** 2 Hours Later ***
"OH MY GOD!" Emmett said exasperatedly.
"That's what she said." Edward snickered.
"Ha Ha very funny Eddie. I'm so sick of sitting here!" Emmett complained.
"Hey, you guys.... You know what's worse than sitting on this plane??? Snakes on a plane." I giggled as everyone looked at me like I was crazy.
"I think she's had one too many cokes." Alice giggled.
"No I haven't, I'm just trying to look on the bright side." I smiled. "Hey guys, I have an announcement... I'm marrying Edward!"
"Yes, we knowww!" Emmett complained. "Hey... wait, I have an idea."
"No Emmett, don't. That is not a good idea." Edward warned.
"Come on, let him have his fun." Alice encouraged.
"Whats the plan Emmett?" Jasper asked, interested now.
"Follow my lead." Emmett said as he stood up, making sure people noticed him and came and stood right in front of me. "You never close your eyes anymore when I kiss your lips. And there's no tenderness like before in your fingertips. You're trying hard not to show it, baby. But baby, baby I know it!" At this point Jasper decided to join in and both he and Emmett were singing to me pretending to hold microphones and waving their free hands in the air. It was just like that scene in Top Gun where they sing to that girl in the bar. "You've lost that lovin' feelin', whoa, that lovin' feelin' You've lost that lovin' feelin'. Now it's gone, gone, gone, whoa."
"Ok guys, thanks but you can sit down now," I choked out, my cheeks blushing flame red at their display. I turned to Edward for help, but he shocked me by standing up and taking the next verse!
"Now there's no welcome look
In your eyes when I reach for you
And now you're starting to criticize everything I do
It makes me just feel like crying, baby
Cause baby, something beautiful's dyin'
You lost that lovin' feelin', whoa, that lovin' feelin'
You've lost that lovin' feelin'
Now it's gone, gone, gone, whoa
Baby, baby, I'd get down on my knees for you
If you would only love me like you used to do
We had a love, a love, a love you don't find every day
So don't, don't, don't, don't let it slip away
Baby (baby), baby (baby), I beg of you please, please
I need your love (I need your love)
I need your love (I need your love)
Just bring it on back (bring it on back)
Just bring it on back (bring it on back)
Bring back that lovin' feelin', whoa, that lovin' feelin'
Bring back that lovin' feelin'
Now it's gone, gone, gone, whoa
Bring back that lovin' feelin', whoa, that lovin' feelin'
Bring back that lovin' feelin',
Now it's gone, gone, gone
And I can't go on, whoa"
They had managed to gather all the men in first class and even a few stewards and the co-pilot! It was the single most embarrassing moment of my life.
But seeing Edward, let loose and sing like that in front of the entire first class.... I definitely had not lost that "'lovin' feelin.'" I just couldn't wait till we were home in my room to exact my revenge, and it would be sweet...
- The first day of my forever
- Mystery Man
- The invitation
- The Dinner
- Romeo has nothing on Edward Cullen
- Lunch Date
- What the hell?
- Can I stay the night?
- The Stink Eye
- Greatest Date Ever!
- Truth or Dare
- Dress Fittings and Awkward Conversations
- I wear my heart on my sleeve
- Revenge... Blair Waldorf Style
- Painfully Exquisite Pleasure
- Bon Fire Nights
- Forever & Epilogue
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