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Forget Me Not

Summary:
The Cullens have left Forks, leaving Bella broken hearted and alone until a near-fatal car accident temporarily erases her memories. What happens when the one person she finds comfort with happens to be the brother of the man she can't remember? Will she regain her memories of Edward or will she find a new love with Jasper?


Notes:
This story starts around the beginning of New Moon. Rated NR-17. B/E and B/J. DISCLAIMER: All characters are the sole property of Stephanie Meyers but the story is my own.


14. Acceptance

Rating 3.5/5   Word Count 3102   Review this Chapter

Bella’s POV

The school week had passed quickly and before I knew it, Friday was here at last! Jasper was outside waiting to take me to school like he had done all week. I went downstairs to find Charlie sitting at the kitchen table, sipping a cup of coffee before he headed off to work.

“You heading to school?” he asked, almost in a daze.

“Yes, Jasper is outside waiting for me.”

“I’m sure he won’t mind waiting a little longer. Have a seat, Bella.” He pushed the empty chair across the table out with his foot. I dropped my book bag at the front door and noticed a suitcase was already sitting there. I went back into the kitchen and sat down nervously.

“What’s the suitcase for?” I asked.

“I have to go out of town today and won’t be back until Monday afternoon. As you know, I don’t like the idea of leaving you here alone so I have arranged it with Dr. Cullen and his wife. You will be staying with them until I get back.”

“That was nice of them,” I said, trying to hide my enthusiasm.

“Yeah, just make sure you get to school on time on Monday.” Charlie frowned as he gazed down at the table. It really annoyed me when he acted this way about the Cullens but I certainly wasn’t going to say anything that might ruin my chance to spend the weekend with Jasper.

“I promise I won’t be late for school.”

“Alright. Well, you better get going. I’ll see you Monday.”

“Okay. Have a safe trip,” I said and quickly headed for the front door before he could lay down a few ground rules regarding my sleeping arrangements while he was away. I didn’t want to have to make any promises that I couldn’t keep.

When I got outside Jasper was waiting by Carlisle’s car with a huge grin stretched across his face. He obviously knew about Charlie’s plans for me to spend the weekend at his house over the weekend. I waited until we were away from the house before expressing my excitement about the weekend together.

“It’s going to be so nice not having to say goodbye to you for a few days!” I laughed.

“That will definitely be nice. Although, I have to say, I am more looking forward to not having to sneak through a window just to spend the night with you.”

“I suppose I will have to sleep in Alice’s room, huh?” I pouted playfully.

“Only if you choose to. I was hoping you would want to sleep in my room with me.” He winked at me as he flicked the toothpick in his mouth. I could feel the urge to ravage him course through my body as I watched his lips move innocently around the toothpick.

“I don’t think Carlisle will be okay with me sleeping in your room.”

Jasper shook his head as he chuckled at my concern for the opinions of his family.

“Carlisle is fine with it. In fact, he and Esme have already gone through my closet to make space for your clothes.” He reached over and gave my knee a gentle squeeze, making it more difficult for me to ignore my rapidly growing sexual frustration.

When we pulled into the school parking lot I felt his hand tighten around my knee. There, at the far end of the lot, was Edward’s Volvo. My stomach twisted into a knot as Jasper whisked the car into the empty space next to Edward’s car. I knew what was coming; another heated argument between the two of them. Ever since Edward came back from London it had been a non-stop battle between them and I was tired of watching them fight. At times, I found myself wishing that Edward would just give up and go back to London. Jasper always tried his best to avoid any confrontations with him but Edward was relentless at pointing out Jasper’s flaws and always used them to stir up an argument.

“Wait here,” Jasper growled as he watched Edward climb out of the Volvo.

“No.”

“What?”

“No, Jasper! I have had enough of this.” I grabbed my book bag out of the backseat and pushed the car door open.

Edward stared at me in amusement as he leaned against the back of his car. I could feel my blood boil as he watched me with a smug look on his face.

“Someone looks a bit cranky this morning,” he laughed, shifting his books in his hands.

“Why are you here, Edward?” I hissed.

“I’m here to get my education, just like you. Since I moved back to Forks I have to finish school here or Carlisle will get into trouble.”

“How convenient! I suppose you will be in all of my classes.”

“Don’t flatter yourself, Bella. I did my best to avoid your schedule. Unfortunately, we will be taking English together but don’t worry, I will be sure to sit as far away from you as possible,” he growled, inches from my face.

Alice climbed out of the Volvo the same time Jasper got out of Carlisle’s car. She kept her distance as she scanned the parking lot for any onlookers that might take an interest in our debate. Jasper stepped between me and Edward, easing me out of the way.

“If you want to get in someone’s face…get in mine!” he growled

“Always the knight-in-shining-armor, aren’t you, Jasper?” Edward snapped back.

“I’m done fighting with you, Edward. But, I promise you this; if you ever speak to Bella like that again, I will tear your throat out.”

Jasper turned to me and grabbed my hand. We started to walk away but Edward made sure he got the last word.

“Hey Whitlock, my memory of the fairytale is a bit foggy. Maybe you can help me out…at what point does the knight try to kill the princess?”

My heart nearly stopped when I heard his sarcastic remark. Jasper cringed beside me but continued to escort me to class without saying another word to Edward.

“Jasper, what did he mean by that?” I asked, afraid to hear his explanation.

“Did you finish reading my letter yet?”

“Not yet, why?”

“Finish it and if you want to ask me any questions we can go somewhere and talk.”

The pain in his voice made me feel nauseous. I was suddenly afraid that he was going to disappear and that I would never see him again.

“Will you be here to pick me up after school?”

“Of course…I love you, Bella. Never forget that.” He placed a single kiss on my forehead and ran back to the car.

I ducked into my classroom just as the bell rang. Jessica glared at me from her seat but didn’t say a word when I sat at the desk beside hers. I decided to ignore her for the time being, I had enough problems without adding her drama to the list.

Science class was easy enough but today we were being forced to sit through a lecture on drug awareness so I decided to take advantage of the opportunity to read Jasper’s letter. I reached into my bag and pulled out the folded document, being careful not to draw any attention to myself. After scanning over the familiar introduction, I continued where I had left off.

My past is full of moments that I wish I could erase, but I know that is an impossible dream. I have learned to accept my mistakes and ensure that they are never repeated. One mistake, however, continues to torment me on a daily basis. Bella, there was an incident last year where I almost hurt you. You have no memory of it right now and it would be a lie for me to say I am not thankful for that. Although you forgave me when it happened, I need to know that your forgiveness hasn’t faded. The day will come when you will remember everything and, if on that day, you can honestly tell me that nothing has changed…I will bury that mistake with the others from my past.

I love you more than I could ever express to you. Being with you has awakened my dead soul and for that, I will be forever grateful. I know that you held onto your love for Edward until the day that emotion was stolen from your memory. It pains me to think that those feelings might someday resurface and your heart may return to him. Despite the heartache it will bring me, I love you enough to let you follow your heart to happiness, even if that means that I will lose you. My love for you will never change, no matter what the future holds for us. Whatever choice you make, I will never leave you unless you ask me to. I will be a part of your life in any way that you want me to be and I give you my word that I will never guilt you for any decision you make.

Darlin’, you and I are alike in so many ways. We both feel inadequate in comparison to those around us. I saw your intimidation when you were with Edward and I see it at times when we are together. If you only ever believe one thing I say, let it be this: You will never know true beauty until you have seen yourself through my eyes.

I love you, Isabella Swan and I hope to be the man that you choose to be by your side throughout your lifetime. There is nothing I wouldn’t give to be with you, even if the price is the loss of a brother. You are my eternity, now and forever.

Faithfully Yours,

Jasper Whitlock Hale

I stared at the words, unable to catch my breath. Jasper’s pain and desperate love for me bled through the dried ink imprinted on the pages of his letter. I could feel the aching of his heart in each word that I read and reread. A new determination surged through me and finally, I knew what I had to do.

Once lunch time came, I sought out Edward and Alice. They were sitting alone at a table by the window, staring off into space while their food remained untouched. I took a deep breath and made my way over to them. Alice saw me coming and perked up with excitement.

“I’ll see you later, Alice,” Edward mumbled, grabbing his tray as he rose from his seat.

“Please…don’t go,” I pleaded, setting my tray on the table. He dropped back down into his chair and folded his arms across his chest.

“I’ll give you your privacy,” Alice offered.

“No, you don’t have to leave.” I couldn’t help but smile at her enthusiasm to be included in the conversation. Somehow I doubt that she really had any intention of leaving, but I played along with her charade.

“If you have come to yell at me, you’re wasting your time. Alice has been giving me an ear-full all morning,” Edward stated, nudging Alice playfully with his elbow.

“I’m not going to yell at you, but we do need to talk.”

“I’m listening.”

“I want to apologize to both of you for not taking your feelings into consideration when it comes to my relationship with Jasper. I never wanted to hurt either of you…but I have. My relationship with Jasper obviously hurts you, Edward. So, I am afraid there is only one solution to this problem…”

“You’re going to leave Jasper?” Edward leaned forward with a faint glint of hope in his eyes. Alice remained still, fully aware of my decision thanks to her special ability to see the future. I slowly shook my head, saddened by the sudden fear in Edward’s eyes.

“I love him too much to give him up.”

“Then what is your solution? Are you going to leave?” he asked sarcastically but quickly became concerned when I didn’t respond. “Bella, tell me you aren’t planning on leaving.”

I choked back the tears, hoping no one was watching our conversation. My heart was breaking at the thought of never seeing the Cullens again and leaving Forks for good.

“I don’t want to be the reason that your family falls apart. I can finish the school year in Phoenix and Jasper can come with me. I can’t see any other way to stop the destruction that our relationship is bringing to your family.”

“I’ll go back to London before I let you run away to Arizona,” Edward huffed.

“No, Edward. Your home is here with your family.”

“And your home is Forks. You can’t leave, Bella.”

“What do you want me to do? I can’t stay and watch you and Jasper constantly battle each other over this.”

Edward leaned back in his chair, pulling his hands through his hair in frustration. Alice scowled at him as he sat in silence for a minute.

“Okay,” he sighed.

“What?”

“I’ll back off. No more fighting, but you have to make me a promise.”

“What kind of promise?”

“WHEN you remember our past, let me know so I can defend myself fairy.”

“IF I remember our past, I promise I will talk to you about it.” I reached my hand across the table and waited for Edward to meet me halfway. When his fingers slid over mine, I gave a firm handshake to seal our agreement. He held onto my hand longer than I was comfortable with but didn’t pull away. If an extra moment of my touch was something that he needed to help keep his end of the deal, I wasn’t going to deny him of it. I owed him that much.

The last period of the day came and I rushed down the hall to my English class. Despite his previous statement, Edward sat beside me but maintained a safe, friendly distance. A crumpled piece of paper landed on my desk and when I looked up, I caught Jessica’s hateful stare. I straightened out the paper and read the barely legible words.

I see little Miss Popular wasn’t content with just one Cullen. Just keep in mind that, when they both get tired of pitying you, you will have no friends to come crying to.

I didn’t have a chance to react. Edward leaned over and grabbed the paper off my desk. He balled it up and carried it up to Jessica’s desk, dropping it in her hands.

“Jealous friends aren’t worth keeping,” he said, smirking down at her and then returned to his seat. Although I was grateful to him for standing up for me, I still felt horrible knowing that Jessica hated me.

Edward slid a fresh piece of paper onto my desk and winked at me.

‘She’ll get over it.’

‘I’m not sure she will.’ I wrote back.

‘Her loss then, certainly not yours.’

‘I’m sorry you had to read that.’

‘Don’t worry about it. Carlisle says you’ll be spending the weekend with us?’ He changed the subject, unfortunately not for the better.

‘Yeah, until Monday afternoon.’

‘Would you be willing to give me another shot at some quality time with you?’

I quickly slid my book over the paper when Mr. Brunton passed down the aisle. He lingered at the back of the room for a few minutes, rambling on with his prepared lesson before making his way back up to the front of the classroom.

‘I’ll talk to Jasper about it. Should be fine.’

‘Do you need his permission?’

‘No, just respect him enough to discuss it with him about it first.’

‘Fair enough.’

The bell rang, making me jump in my seat. Edward laughed and waited to walk me out to the parking lot. Alice met up with us and searched the parking lot with the same question on her mind that we had: Where was Jasper?

“I’ll give you a ride to your house,” Edward said as we walked over to his car. A jet black, Dodge Dakota Sport pulled up behind the Volvo and shifted into neutral. The windows were tinted too dark to make out the driver but, we weren’t kept in suspense for very long. Jasper jumped down from the driver’s side with a huge grin on his face.

“Sorry I’m late, Darlin’.”

“You bought a truck?” I asked in shock as my mouth fell open.

“Sure did! I got tired of borrowing Carlisle’s car and figured it was time I got my own vehicle.”

“It’s so cute!” Alice chirped, bouncing up and down while clapping her hands like an excited child on Christmas morning.

“It’s not supposed to be cute. And don’t even think about it…there is no way in hell I am letting you drive it!” Jasper laughed, ignoring Alice’s pouty face. I moved closer to him, watching Edward nervously.

“I like it, it suits you,” I said, peeking into the cab at all the features. Edward slowly approached Jasper with a stern look on his face. I held my breath and waited for the next round of hateful remarks that would surely start another fight.

“Nice wheels, Bro,” Edward said, extending his hand. Jasper glanced over at me in confusion and when I nodded, shook Edward’s hand.

“Thanks.”

“No problem. Alice and I are going to head home. We’ll see you guys there.” Edward eased his hand back and jumped into his Volvo. He had struggled at swallowing his pride and, though I’m sure it wasn’t a completely genuine offer of forgiveness, I was proud of his effort.

Jasper helped me into the truck and rushed around to the driver’s side. Edward revved his engine impatiently and once we were out of the way, he sped out of the parking lot.

“What was that all about?” Jasper asked, raising an eyebrow at me.

“We came to an understanding that I wasn’t going to stop loving you…no matter what the cost.”

Jasper slid his hand into mine as we headed to my house.

“I take it you read the letter?”

“Yes.”

“Do you want to talk about it?”

“No. I don’t care what happened in the past, Jasper. I want to focus on the present and, right now, I know that I love you and that is all that matters.”

A look of relief washed over his face. We both knew that there was sure to be a rough road ahead of us, but we didn’t care. We were in love and, as long as we had each other, we were happy.