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Through The Open Door

Summary:
Characters/Pairing: Cullens - canon pairings
Rating: PG-13
Category: Drama, AU
Spoilers:Includes content from all 4 books + Midnight Sun
Summary: It was just a normal, stressful day. That is, until this Twilight fan walked through a door and ended up in the Twilight-verse. What would you do, if you ended up in Bella's life - if everyone in Forks thought you were Chief Swan's daughter - if nobody, not even the Cullens, knew the difference? How do you live someone else's life when you know what's going to happen - or, at least, what should happen?


Notes:
Summary: It was just a normal, stressful day. That is, until this Twilight fan walked through a door and ended up in the Twilight-verse. What would you do, if you ended up in Bella's life - if everyone in Forks thought you were Chief Swan's daughter - if nobody, not even the Cullens, knew the difference? How do you live someone else's life when you know what's going to happen - or, at least, what should happen?


2. Chapter 2

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My first set of classes flew by much too quickly. Everyone seemed to try very hard to be nice and catch my attention during the breaks in between classes. There was always someone to walk me to my next class, so I never had to worry about that stupid map.

I didn’t even try to remember all the names that were thrown at me, though. I had much more pressing concerns to concentrate on. Minor things, such as exactly how crazy was I and how the hell did I get out of this Twilight Zone. I let out a soft snort when I thought of that last one. Twilight Zone indeed.

The only people who managed to hold my attention for any extended period of time were the people whose names I already knew well. Angela, Eric, Jessica, Mike… Jessica seemed as fake as I’d expected her to be. Her mannerisms were a dead giveaway to the fact that she was only speaking to me because I was something new, something that was getting a lot of attention – attention she wanted to include herself in. All this seemed so transparently obvious to me, I had to wonder how the books hadn’t mentioned that Bella knew she wasn’t a true friend from the very beginning.

But, then again, Bella was perfect, wasn’t she? Not marred by the cynicism that I carried with me. Maybe she really did see nothing but the best in people. Not like me.

Another person who caught my attention was Mike. I could tell by the way they behaved that the other girls thought he was cute and I guess he did have a certain boyish charm about him. But, the puppydog eyes were a little too much for my taste. And then, when he proceeded to follow me around from class to class… Yes, very puppylike. Not really behavior that I found attractive.

I tried to keep my answers to everyone’s repetitive questions short and terse. I knew I was coming off as rude, but I couldn’t seem to care. Even if I hadn’t been in the middle of a freak out, these weren’t exactly people I wanted to befriend anyways.

The bell rang again and everyone sprung from their seats. “Lunch time,” Jessica sang beside me.

My stomach plummeted at that. Lunch was when Bella saw the Cullens. I hadn’t gotten that far in my thinking and planning this morning. I had no idea how I was going to behave in front of the Cullens.

I managed to stumble over a chair as I left the classroom. I tried to tell myself that I was just too absorbed in my fears over the Cullens to notice the chair, but a part of me wondered at this small occurrence. How much did I actually have in common with Bella here? I’d already noticed that my hair was it’s normal brownish amber. Bella’s was supposed to be all brown right? I hadn’t had a chance to look in a mirror yet, but I felt like I still looked like me. So, I wasn’t in Bella’s body, at least. Just her life. Did that mean that Edward could hear me? Did that mean I wouldn’t smell unbearable to him?

It was the curiosity behind those questions that had me forcing my hesitant feet towards the cafeteria. If she was annoyed by my slow pace, Jessica didn’t let on. She kept up a constant stream of chatter as we headed into the crowded room and got into line.

My eyes quickly scanned the room of their own accord. It didn’t take long to spot them, sitting at a table by the window, somehow distinctly separate from the rest of the students. They were more beautiful than anything I’d pictured in my head. Way hotter than the actors that played them, I thought wryly.

“That’s the Cullens,” Jessica said, having noticed that I was staring. Just then, Edward looked up, directly at us.

I froze like a deer in the headlights for a beat before my senses returned to me. Edward? I tried to call in my head as strong as I could. Edward can you hear me? Please - Please just nod and let me know if you can hear me? There was no response from him. He continued to stare at me blankly as I stared at him.

Jessica giggled next to me and he finally broke eye contact, looking back toward his siblings. He looked bored. Not at all like he was in a panic because he’d heard the new girl indicate she knew about his powers. So, maybe he really couldn’t hear me.

If I’d thought somewhere in the back of my mind that this would be a relief to me, I was wrong. My breath started coming faster as I realized they didn’t know who I was. They couldn’t just hear what was happening to me. They had no reason to seek me out – to help me. I realized then that I’d been counting on them already knowing that I wasn’t really Bella. I’d counted on them wanting to help me – wanting to get back the Bella that belonged with them. I was now terrified by the thought that I was utterly alone in this.

My breath came in faster and faster gasps. I could feel my grip on self control slipping. I looked away from Edward and focused on Jasper. Could he feel me spiraling out of control over here? He didn’t glance my way and neither did Alice sitting by his side. I was so utterly alone.

The walls closed in as a full fledged panic attack overtook me. “Excuse me,” I choked out and bolted for the door, not bothering a second glance to see Jessica’s reaction. I saw the girls’ bathroom right to the left as I exited into the hall and sprinted for the door.

I ran into the first stall and threw up the granola bar I’d had for breakfast before leaving for my test. Even with the tears streaming down my face now, I was able to laugh at that. I was in Forks throwing up food that I’d eaten in another world. A world where I wasn’t called Bella and life was boring. Boring and vampireless.

The tears came harder as I continued to think of the Cullens, who were completely oblivious to my situation. I sat there on the floor of the stall, crying silently and staring at the wall as if it would provide me answers, until the bell rang. I started getting up when I realized that my next period was biology. Biology with Edward.

Chicken through and through, I had no desire to go to class and find out if he wanted to kill me. I wondered if I could hide out here in the bathroom until the period was over, but doubted it. Everyone in school seemed distinctly aware of my presence. There was no way my absence would go unnoticed. Plus, didn’t teachers and such check the bathrooms periodically between periods? I was still too much of a goody-goody at heart to want to get in trouble – even in make-believe Cullen-land. But I was also too cowardly to go to class.

I also knew ditching was out of the question. People would spot me leaving. So, that left the nurse’s office. I quickly dried my eyes and splashed cold water on my face. The redness in my eyes didn’t go away, but that couldn’t be helped. At least my cheeks were no longer tearstained and I didn’t have any traces of vomit on my mouth. I kept my eyes downcast as I headed back towards the office.

No one stopped me, which I was extremely grateful for. I tried to focus on looking green so that the nurse would buy my story about being sick when I got there. It wasn’t very hard. I just had to think about trying to approach the Cullens and the bile flooded my mouth readily.

What was I going to do, I moaned to myself as I walked.