First Time: Lifehouse SongFic

Song Fic—Lifehouse: First Time

We're both looking for something

We've been afraid to find

I’ve been living for decades, but I’ve never loved. I was surrounded by couples who mean the world to each other, but I’ve never found my someone. It was hard being a vampire and all, hearing mortal girls’ toughts, and never relating to them.

It's easier to be broken

It's easier to hide

Instead I explored and just lost myself in my music, just wishing I had someone to sing about. Emmett and Jasper asked me about women, but I just shruged it off.

Looking at you, holding my breath

For once in my life I'm scared to death

Then Bella come’s into my life and knocks the wind out of me. She is a mystery, but one I would give anything to solve. I can’t stay away from her, and it kills me. I was so used to being in control, to having all the answers, but Bella turned my world right side up.

I'm taking a chance letting you inside

My pull towards her is overshadowing my bloodlust and my better judgement and my family. This could be a huge mistake or the best thing I’ve ever done.

I'm feeling alive all over again

As deep as a scar under my skin

Like being in love, she said, for the first time

My heats pounds, my pulse races, my nerves tingle, and I finally know what it is to be in love. This terrifies me, but I know I can’t let go.

Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right

Whenever I'm alone with you tonight

Like being in love with you for the first time

Everyone says to stop, but everytime I watch her sleep I see and angel who set my dead heart on fire. Can I afford to do this? Can I afford not to?

The world that I see inside you

Waiting to come to life

Waking me up to dreaming

Reality in your eyes

Now she knows my secret, and she still loves me. Bella is the one person I could see myself ever spending the rest of my life with, and I think I’m finally ready.

Looking at you, holding my breath

For once in my life I'm scared to death

I'm taking a chance letting you inside

She’s seen my home, my medow, my family, and my truth, but I’m still waiting for her to run. I can’t see how she can be ok with this. I can’t believe she can love me.

I'm feeling alive all over again

As deep as a scar under my skin

Like being in love, she said, for the first time

Her hair, her face, her eyes, her lips. I want to have the taste of her on my lips always. And for the first time I feel like a human man.

Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right

Whenever I'm alone with you tonight

Like being in love with you for the first time

We go to far sometimes and I am reminded once again of just what I could do to her if I was not careful. I kick myself every day, but I can’t leave.

We're crashing

Into the unknown

We're lost in this

But it feels like home

I don’t know what will happen, I am so not in control. All I know is I love Bella and for the first time that’s all I need.

Like being in love she said for the first time

Like being in love with you the first time

I’m in love. A vampire is in love with a human, and I’ve never been as happy.