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Iris

Summary:
I was laughing, harder and longer then I had in the longest of times. His body was so warm pressed against mine and the splash from the water cooled me down. My cheeks were flushed, that is what he did to me. How insane the feelings were that I would get around him, like nothing I had ever felt. He had even convinced me to climb up on to this cliff to dive into the freezing water. These feelings I had for him would be the death of me.


Notes:
I do not own Jacob Black sadly or any other Twilight/New Moon/Eclipse/Breaking Dawn characters. Also I do not own the lyrics to Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls, though it is a great song so you should all listen to it.


1. And I would give up Forever to touch you

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I was laughing, harder and longer then I had in the longest of times. His body was so warm pressed against mine and the splash from the water cooled me down. My cheeks were flushed, that is what he did to me. How insane the feelings were that I would get around him, like nothing I had ever felt. He had even convinced me to climb up on to this cliff to dive into the freezing water. These feelings I had for him would be the death of me.

He wrapped his arms around my waist tighter and spread his hands across my stomach. The butterflies tripled in numbers and beat faster inside me. My whole body was on fire, from him and the adrenalin. We took a few steps closer to the edge and flew off without once looking down. He never let go of me not once, then the water hit us hard. It splashed us and tossed us around. He let go and I couldn't get back up, everything going fast around me but I couldn't move. All I could do was watch the sun slowly sink away.

I jumped up out of bed, cold sweat pouring down my face. As if I had run a marathon my breath was labored. That dream that horrible dream, it just kept coming every night. You could already see the toll it had on me, the huge bags under my eyes, and the lack of control over my body. I needed to stop thinking about him. It wasn't worth all of this pain over some boy. I highly doubt he even remembers who I am after these long years. And yet he never leaves the dark edges of my mind.

I growled softly at my clock as it blinked the neon green letters telling me it was way too early to be awake. But at this point there was no way I could sleep again. I slipped out of bed, cringing at the cold wood floor. Who needs wood floor anyway? It is cold and boring and kills trees! I trudged through my morning routine my body demanding more sleep that I couldn't allow it. I almost fell walking down stairs hitting the wall with a thud. I really shouldn't be allowed to live alone.

I not so gracefully reached the living room looking around I felt as if I had seen the room for the first ever time. Noting really screamed Anna but yet that had never fazed me before. The walls a dull white with dark wood floors, all the furniture perfect and untouched as if no one had ever lived there before. Yet here I was on my fifth year here, in this white prison cell. I ran my fingers across the soft fabric of the couch. Maybe I should go visit and then these dreams would stop coming.

I sighed and groaned at the same time. I can't even imagine how horrible the reunion would be for me, all of the strange looks and glares. I did after all abandon La 'Push but could they really blame me? Yes they could, they really could. I knew I hurt all of them but yet I knew it would hurt more for me to stay. I couldn't live like that off of old stories and judgments. They never even knew the people they judged. I couldn’t stand it anymore so I flew away.

More like ran away. Could I dare to run back to them? I wonder how things have changed, if Sam ever found anyone good enough for him, or how Quil and Seth had grown up. And how he was. Oh Jacob Black, how I missed him the most. I growled and punched the wall next to me. We had perfection everything was just right with me and him. Then he had to go and wreck it all on me! My hand stung but my eyes stung worse. I have to go, I need to see them.

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I hate planes; I mean they are metal things flying in the sky where storms happen. And they have those wing things that look like they could just blow off. They are lucky I missed them this much or I would never be on a plane. My seat was squishy though, and I had caught up on most of my reading. The only reason I knew the plane was landing was because the creepy pilot said so. As I got off the plain I looked around. Everything was already bleak.

I rented a small truck and started to drive. I looked around as I drove closer and closer to forks. Everything was slowly getting wetter and greener. Soon the sun could not be seen at all. Miles of dark colors, nothing warm in sight. Yup I am in the right place. I slowly drove through town, getting odd stares from boring passers. Soon I could see the entrance to my old home, and just about turned back around. What was I thinking coming here, it was all a mistake!

I kept going in anyway, ignoring my brain like normal. Everything still looked the same. And the people still looked calm and content. Yet this just unsettled me even more, what if I was wrecking something? I soon pulled up to my Aunt's place and softly stepped out. I slid on a few rocks sending a dust storm all over my black shoes. Figures. The door opened fast, hitting the wall hard leaving a dent.

"Billy you are insane! I mean thinking that will help! It will only make everything wo- Anna?" Aunt Jeanie stared at me as if I were some align being she had never seen before. Was I really all that different? Billy just stared at my blank faced. Well so far no one had shot me or shoved me away. This was going way better then planed.

"Hi Auntie." Just with those words I was suddenly tackled, by my sixty year old Aunt. She kept kissing my cheek and mumbling something I couldn't understand. I giggled and wormed my way out. I stood and brushed myself off.

"Come in Anna please! We have loads to talk about; you have been gone so long! Oh oh how long will you be staying dear? When did you get so short? Have you lost weight? You have been eating good enough right?" She rushed into the house and kept asking questions unaware that I didn't fallow her. I looked over at Billy.

"Do you think I should run now? Or after she feeds me?" He cracked a smile and pretended to think about it.

"I say after kiddo, she makes a mean burger." I smiled and walked into her home, with Billy fallowing close behind. I noticed something as I walked into the kitchen part, a small vase with six irises sitting in water. I softly touched the petals.

"One for every year you were gone dear. I remember they were your favorite flower way back when." I nodded and kept staring; maybe this wouldn't be so hard after all.