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Stay

Summary:
A New Moonish song. It's Stay by Safetysuit. Bella's reflection on New Moon.


Notes:


1. Stay

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Walking out the door this morning
Wondering what it is that's going on with you, on with you

I was worried. My horrible, disastrous party had been last night. Edward has been acting strange since then, and I was starting to get worried. What could possibly be going through his head right now?
Thinking of a way to say
I'm sorry for something that I'm not sure I do, sure I do

Should I apologize? I could always apologize for being a klutz. I could've prevented that paper cut. I had been too anxious to hurry up and get rid of the presents, and it caused a paper cut. A paper cut that caused Jasper to lose control. But how could I say I'm sorry? "I'm sorry that I got a paper cut," doesn't sound very convincing.

So come on baby let me in
And show me what this really is cuz
Something must've made you say that
What did I do to make you say
That to me?
Something must've made you so mad
What can I do
To make you say
And come back to me?

"You… don’t… want me?" What had I done? It had felt as if my heart had exploded out of my chest. He had been lying this entire time that he loved me. I don't blame him. Here he was looking like a Greek god, and I'm this stupid, plain human. It was good that he was getting out now before he was too late. I wanted him to live a better life, and even if I would collapse, he would be fine. Although I wish I could tell him to come back to me.

Hoping for a moment
That I turn around and you'll be coming
After me, after me
Cuz all I can say
It that it's obvious
It's obvious you're all I see

I started hearing Edward's voice. I sometimes wished that it really was him. Any time I see a Volvo, or a diamond, or even when Charlie is watching baseball, I think of him. I see him everywhere. I walk into my room, I see him on my bed. I go to school, and I see him get out of his car. Most people by now would've locked me in an insane asylum. Charlie tried to send me down to Jacksonville. I was hung up on the idea of waiting. Maybe he would come back.

So come on baby let me in
And show me what this really is about
Cuz I can't read you

I wish I had his power. I would've been able to see what was going on. I could read in his face that something was wrong. I wished he would've stayed, but I would've been selfish. He didn't love me, and he would've just hated this life.



So come on baby let me in
And show me what this really is cuz
Something must've made you say that
What did I do to make you say
That to me?
Something must've made you so mad
What can I do

To make you say
And come back to me?

My dreams involved the moment where he said he didn't love me. Sometimes, when I get my way, he stays with me. What I wouldn't give for those dreams to come true. I would give up my soul, the one thing he said his kind didn't have. I would sacrifice anything for him to come back.

And I'll be here in the morning if you say stay
If you say stay to me
(3x)

After I saved him from the Volturi, he said he would stay. The entire time I was worrying. What if he really didn't want me? What if he was telling me he would stay only to leave once I was asleep? He should, or else he will have to live with me. An idiotic human who is way different then him. I was causing him pain when he was with me.

So come on baby let me in
And show me what this really is cuz
Something must've made you say that
What did I do to make you say
That to me?
Something must've made you so mad
What can I do
To make you say
And come back to me?

A few months after he came back, I heard song. This song fit so perfectly with how I felt when I was gone. But I knew Edward loved me with all his soul, and he would forever stay with me.