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Stop and Think

Summary:
Millions of thoughts were rushing through my head all at once. The most important was telling me, “Don’t do it Jasper! Think of the family!” but there was a part of me that was thinking of the warm liquid sensation of her blood slithering down my eagerly awaiting throat, and hearing her shrill scream drown out all other sound as I bit into her neck… It was very tempting. Create your own banner at mybannermaker.com!


Notes:
Jasper point of view. One shot.


1. Stop and Think, Jasper

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Jasper POV

I was at school waiting for Alice out in the halls, I decided that once I saw her we would leave and go hunting because I was far to thirsty to be here, surrounded by humans. I only had to wait just another minute, but that wasn’t quick enough for me. A freshman girl slowly walked past me, she had blond hair and blue eyes. She was very pale of face and short, but more importantly, I absolutely craved her.

Millions of thoughts were rushing through my head all at once. The most important was telling me, “Don’t do it Jasper! Think of the family!” but there was a part of me that was thinking of the warm liquid sensation of her blood slithering down my eagerly awaiting throat, and hearing her shrill scream drown out all other sound as I bit into her neck… It was very tempting.

“Jasper, I know what your thinking, and I believe its not worth it. I think it’s time we pay Carlisle a visit.” Said Edward from behind me reading my thoughts. He was feeling very disturbed and disappointed in me, that I was sure of.

“Edward, I’m sorry I lost control! You know that I would never have-”

“Yes, Jasper you would. Which is why you need to speak with Carlisle. He needs to tell you the same thing he told me 80 years ago, only then will you understand…” he cut me off.

So with that, we led ourselves out to the parking lot and into his silver Volvo. The drive was awkward, silent, and felt longer then it was. Finally, after what felt like hours we were outside of the, “Cullen mansion.” as some people call it.

Once we reached Carlisle’s study Edward jumped into his story.

“I was walking down the hall to history, when suddenly I heard Jaspers thoughts about a young girl, and how much he wanted to… eat her. Carlisle, I think its time you told him what you told me, about why we don’t kill humans.” Edward said in a rush.

“Yes, I think your right. Edward go back to school, Jasper, you stay here. We need to talk.” Edward nodded and then headed out the door, only seconds later I heard the start of an engine, and then it grew quieter as he drove down the road.

“Jasper, do you know what gives us the will power not to kill humans?”

“Because its morally wrong.” I just told him what he wanted to hear, keeping my true feelings hidden behind my mask so to speak.

“Yes, and now I have a bit of a bigger question for you. Why do you want to kill them?”

“I don’t.” I lied.

“Jasper, the truth please.”

It all came out then, like a dam taken away from a river and the water pouring out into a lake.

“It just.. Tastes amazing, and it feels natural. Vampires are meant to kill humans and I don’t see the sense in going against what nature intended. Humans eat cows don’t they? What’s the big difference?”

“Jasper, I need you to stop and think. Just for a moment, I need you to imagine one person you’ve killed.” I could see the disappointment in his eyes.

I did what I was told, and thought back to a 14 year old girl that I had killed 30 years ago at a public park. I told him who it was, and he launched into his rant.

“Think about how her family must have felt once she was gone, and how hurt and sad they must have been to hear of there daughters death, or there sisters, or cousins, or best friend, niece, or girl friend. Just imagine what was going through there mind when they knew they would never see her smiling face again.”

I thought about this for a while. I could almost taste the hurt that a bestowed on them that day.

“Now, imagine what her childhood may have been like. Her happiness on Christmas morning’s, or when she was a baby and how proud her parents must have been of there new little girl. Think about all you took from her, the life she could have had. One day she could have grown up to be a doctor, or a lawyer, or maybe even a teacher. She could have grown up, gotten married and had children of her own, but you took all of that away from her.”

My memories of that afternoon came flooding to my mind.

I was sitting on a park bench, looking out over a lake, just because it kept me calm. Behind me I saw a birthday party going on for a girl who had just turned 14. They all looked so happy. But then, there dog ran off and the birthday girl ran after there basset hound. It was then that I smelled the delicious perfume or her blood.

“Little girl, I think your dog ran off over there, into the bushes. I’ll help you find him.” I told her.

“Thank you sir, I really appreciate it.” so we went into the bush, even though I knew her dog wasn’t in there…

“I think he went that way.” I said pointing the opposite direction.

The moment she turned around I went in for the kill. My lips came in contact with her neck, and I bit in lightly, and her blood poured out into my mouth. Oh the sweet, warm sensation trickling down my throat was nearly intoxicating. Once I had sucked her dry I took her out to a near by water canal and dumped her body in there.

I waited for days at the edge for someone to find her. Finally, a search party came around and I remained hidden. It was her mother who saw her first…

“Is that Emily?” she said as they all ran up to the limp body on the floor.

“Oh my god. Emily!” Her mother screamed as she saw her baby girls lifeless body on the floor. Every one there except for authorities broke down into hysterics. The police just stood there, looking very sympathetic toward the family.

I couldn’t take it anymore, the memory was overwhelming. Just thinking about what I had taken from those people that day flooded my heart with guilt. I choked a sob, and Carlisle spoke up.

“Do you see now Jasper, why we don’t kill? It’s not the same as a human eating a cow, or a lion attacking a gazelle. Its much more then that.”

I understood completely, and from that point on I would never even think of killing another human being…