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Moved On... Almost!

Summary:
This story starts in ch.18 from New Moon. What if the phone didn't interrupet Jacob and Bella? what if they did kiss? What would happen next? would Edward ever come back? What happens when Bella and Jacob become more friends? Who will she choose? A new Ch is up!!! Ch. 24- What is the next step before Bella is changed? What is Bella's request?I HAVE EDITED THE FIRST FOURTEEN CH. SO IF YOU COME AND READ THEM, THEY ARE MUCH, MUCH BETTER!!! ESPECIALLY CH.4 - THEY ARE NOT PERFECT, BUT SO MUCH BETTER ! THANKS!


Notes:
This takes place right after Bella thought Jacob had left. (In my version Jacob had tried to kiss Bella earlier, after she jumped off the cliff.)


14. Explanations

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Recap: “so… should I begin my very long explanation about why I left, and what happened while I was gone or should you begin first?” “You first.” I pushed my back up against his chest and laid my head in the curve of his neck. “Ok… well…”

Ok…well… first of all I left you because I wanted you to live a normal life, without any mythical creatures interrupting it. I wanted you to not be in danger with my world anymore. I left while loving you, because I loved you.

What I said that day in the forest. When I said that I didn’t want you it was the blackest kind of blasphemy. I lied, and I’m so sorry-sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort. I lied to save you and It didn’t work. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every moment I was away.”

“Edward…” I started. He cut me off before I even could finish stating his name.

“Please, let me finish.”

I nodded and he continued. “I sat and did nothing for months. I tried to stay around my brothers and sisters, but I couldn’t be around all the love and happiness. Then they would pity me and try to help me, but it only made it worse. I wouldn’t hunt so they would always go without me and bring me a deer or an elk back. They would stick it in my room and wouldn’t leave till I drank it. Eventually I left them. I couldn’t take it anymore. Every thought, every one of their thoughts brought me to think of you. I tried not to because it hurt severely, but it was impossible. Knowing that I hurt you, that I lied to you. I kept repeating it over and over in my head. I remember the look on your face when I told you I didn’t love you anymore, the tears streaming down your face. It torn me apart. I hoped that I wouldn’t be able to go through with it, that you wouldn’t believe me. But you immediately believed me. I sat there day after day, minute after minute fighting with myself. Part of me was raging me to go back to you, to call you up, to take the first flight back to Forks. The other part constantly reminded me of why I left you, that I couldn’t go back to you after what I did. You see which side won. I couldn’t take it anymore. I finally called you; I had to hear your voice. When you started yelling at me… cursing at me”

I blushed scarlet as he spoke remembering my yelling fit.

“I thought you would never forgive me. But then Alice answered and told me about you jumping off a cliff and getting saved by a friend. It made me jealous in a way. Knowing that you were probably more than friends. I hated the idea. Then she said that… you needed me and I needed you. I broke right then. I decide I would beg you back if I had to. I didn’t matter how long it took, I vowed to myself that I would no matter what. I took the first flight back to Forks. I stayed at the house and watched you by day. I spied on you at school, listened to people’s thoughts, and watched you walk to classes. Every night I would watch you sleep…”

“You were there… with Jacob there… at the same time… watching me sleep?” I couldn’t’ really make out what I was trying to say. I mean those were nights that I wished he would just climb in my window and watch me sleep, but I didn’t think that he was really there. I mean I had dreams about him. OH NO! What did I say while he was there? The question bubbled to my lips.

“What did I say?” he laughed lightly at that. I felt the gentle rhythm of his chest against my back. It was comforting, that and his breath on my neck.

“You said mostly the same things. You said my name, and…Jacobs and the first night you said you loved me. I knew I had t get you back at all costs then. I was ready to fight. I made plans for the dance. Alice helped and they met me before they went to your house to help you get ready. Alice attacked me when she saw me. It was quite funny… well now it is. Jasper left later to meet me. Alice had already gotten me a tux. I was prepared to win your heart back, I was ready for every reaction you threw at me, well expect the one you actually did. I still can’t believe you passed out on me, but you were always unpredictable. When I saw you in his arms it made me even madder. But I have won you back and here you are safe in my arms just like I have dreamed.”

“I don’t… know how to really respond to that.” I replied simply.

“Well, why don’t you tell me what you did? I mean I heard that you were into extreme sports or something like that while I was gone. Why don’t you elaborate off that?”

“OK…when you left me in the woods I tried to follow you. You left no trail or footprints, but I tried. I walked for what felt like hours. Finally I tripped over something and I just curled up in a ball on the forest floor. Eventually I feel asleep. I was woken up by different voices and that’s when Sam Uley appeared. He carried me to Charlie and the house. There was a huge group looking for me, apparently I was missing for a while. After that I was a zombie. The first week I did nothing; I didn’t eat, drink, or move. Months passed and nothing changed. I went back to school, I ate, and I did what I was supposed to do. I didn’t talk to anyone unless spoken to. I was lifeless. One day I saw a for sale sign for two motorcycles. I wanted to break my promise, because you had broken yours. I took them to Jacob to help repair and teach me how to ride them. I started coming over everyday, expect the times when I had work or school. He finished the bikes after a while and taught me how to ride it. The first time I rode it, I heard your voice in my head. You told me to go back to Charlie. After that I did things that would trigger that your voice in my head. Then Alice came back and well you pretty much know every thing from there.”

“Ok I have a few questions…where in that story did Jacob become a werewolf?”

Opps I forgot that part. “He became a werewolf about a month ago.”

“So he’s a very young werewolf.”

“Yah… do you have any other questions?”

“Yes actually, how did he get you to go to the dance?”

“I got him to go and it’s a long story.”

“I’m listening.”

“It’s Mike’s fault… see he asked me to go and I didn’t want to just say no, so I said that someone already asked me. It was my only idea at the time. So I asked Jacob if he would go with me. I really didn’t want to go, but I had to. But Mike couldn’t let it go so he was harassing me the rest of the day. While I was waiting for Jacob one day Mike went a little too far. Jacob ended up throwing him against a wall and threatening him.”

To my surprise he busted out laughing. “What is so funny?”

“Someone finally gave it to Mike. I getting to not mind him to much, expect for the part of him being in love with you and the fact that he is a werewolf.”

“Ok… you done yet?”

“No, last one. Why were you risking your life to hear me?”

“I don’t really know how to put it into words. It was all I had of you. It was so clear. And it didn’t hurt me like it did when I thought about you. I was being stupid, but at the time all I cared about was to hear your voice.”

“I… can’t… what were you thinking?”

“I just told you. Are you done?”

“Ya, you should probably go to sleep. You look like you could collapse right now. But don’t think that this conversation is over.”

“Ok…I am pretty tired.” I yawned as I spoke. “Do you promise to be here when I wake up?”

“I promise... I missed watching you sleep. I‘ll be here all night.”

“You better be.” I yawned again. He chuckled.

“Go to sleep.” He began humming my lullaby to me. I pushed myself as close as I could be against his chest.

I couldn’t believe that my angel was back… here…and mine. I have dreamed about this and I just hope I don’t wake up and figure out it was all a dream. I slowly dozed off and darkness over came me.