Another Word for Lonely
Thank you to Oh Mike, How will I go on for the amazing Banner!!! Go read her stories :) Bella's a half Vampire and half human, daughter of Aro, a secret that is to be kept at all costs. She moves away, disgusted from her life in Volterra, to Forks to start fresh. There, she runs into the Cullen's, who don't have any idea what she is, or who she's the daughter of. What happens when she falls for Edward, and Edward for her? And what will happen when Aro summons her back home? Who is in danger, Bella or the Cullens? AU Slightly OOC BxE
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No!...Stop, please stop! Don't hurt him, I'll do anything...ANYTHING! Just please stop, have some compassion... You're hurting him!...Please...I...I Love you......STOP!
I bolted upright in my bed, coated in a layer of sweat. I was panting, the effects of my nightmare taking it's toll. I tried to calm my breathing, taking slow breaths. My dream had left me terrified, terrified that it could possible come true. I was back in Volterra, Aro finding out about my new relationship with the Cullen's, and he was torturing Edward. I don't know why he was torturing him in my dream, but it was happening, Edward was on the floor, writhering in pain, as I was being held back by Felix and Demetri, unable to do anything. It scared me and sent chills through my body. If anything ever happened to them, I would blame only myself.
It had been one month since I had moved here and been accepted by the Cullen's, four bliss filled weeks. In that short time, I had been able to feel the love and support only a family could grant. They had willingly and unconditionally accepted me into their family, and I had happily agreed. This was the first nightmare to marr my happiness. It was quite possibly a possibility that Aro could find out my attachment ot them and have them killed, but I was being selfish and wanted to feel like I belonged for a little while more.
Esme had adopted me as her new daughter, cooking for me, teaching me things only a woman could. It had been beyond anything I could imagine to have a mother for at least this short amount of time, she had changed me so much with her tender love and support. Carlisle had been more of a grandfather type with me, caring and fatherly, yet more doting and less restrictive. He gave me trust, trust that I had not earned, yet I would do my best to uphold. Rosalie still had yet to warm to me dramatically, but she had at least made some conversation when I had let her take a look at what was under the hood of my car. Emmett, was the opposite of the coolness his wife gave me, he had become my big brother, constantly picking on me, betting with me, playing pranks; he and I had become partners in crime. Alice was instantly my best friend and sister, we had done everything together, and she was the one I went to for everything now. I still had not spent too much time with Jasper, but when we were in the same room, he at least usually had a good laugh. I would often say inappropriate things to Edward in my mind, which would usually case an awkward array of feelings for Jasper to pick up on, and he would usually look at Edward's uncomfortable demeanor, then look at a mischievous smiling me, and he would soon crack up. He had asked me once, what it was I would tell Edward, and I would usually say, 'I'm sure tehir no different than the things Alice says to you Jasper'. He would then laugh and comment on how the lord should have mercy on Edward.
Edward. Edward, Edward, Edward... My relationship with him was different from all the others. We had a connection that could not be described or defined, we were like magnets, always drawn to each other. Aside from that one kiss we had shared in the forest the day we met, we hadn't kissed since. There was always sexual tension in the air when it was just us, but neither one of had acted on it. When our skin would touch even the slightest of touches, if was as if I were being electrocuted, my body would feel a current shock me. It was as if my body were only alive with him near. My breathing would accelerate, as would my heart. But we were also friends. I could talk to him about music, books, movies, and he would get it. I sometimes didn't even need to explain fully because he would just...know. I always kept my mental shield up around him, not because I wanted to, but because it took too much concentration to keep it up. Sometimes I would lift it to ask him a question no one else could hear, or to tease him secretly, only a couple times had I done it to make him uncomfortable. He would usually nod or shake his head in answer to what I would ask. I remember it had once been at his home, and we were all in the living room, Rosalie watching the boys play wii, Carlisle reading a book, Alice designing her own fashion line, and I had been helping Esme with a flower arrangement. I had opened my mind and had decided to see just how uncomfortable I could make him. He didn't have to know I had a bet with Emmett to see how long Edward could take it before he left the room. So I started out innocently...
These flowers are pretty, what do you think Edward? He quickly glanced, and shot me a smirk with a nod, then resumed his attention back to the game.
Hmm, do you think Rosalie is pretty, her name is rose, like these flowers. He scrunched up his nose and shook his head to the side. I wanted to laugh.
Do you think I'm pretty? He paused, stiffening slightly. Then slowly, he nodded, still looking at the game.
How pretty? He looked at me, the golden color of his eyes darkening slowly.
That pretty huh? You know, I was thinking about wearing the boots tomorrow, what do you think? If I had thought his eyes were dark before, they were black now. I heard Emmett complain that Edward wasn't paying attention, so he quickly turned his gaze back to the tv, his posture still tense.
Maybe after school, you can help me take them off?...That did it. All I heard was a crunch and I looked up to see the controller was in bits in his hand. I couldn't stifle my laughter, and neither could Emmett upon realizing what I was up to. Jasper slowly started to realize what had happened, and we had all started cracking up. Edward looked to me, then to Emmett, and I'm sure found the truth in the bet in Emmett's head, and stormed off to the forest. I managed to call out 'Sorry' but it was slightly incoherent with all the giggles. He didn't talk to me for 2 days, days that felt like forever. He did, however, smirk when he noticed I wore the boots the next day anyway.
But aside from that, we hadn't discussed any of the tension growing between us. I knew he wanted to talk about it, he even tried to kiss me again a few times, but I was the one holding back. I knew that getting involved with him could only bring us all danger in the event that Aro found out. I hoped that if I kept a distance, then he wouldn't get too attached and just move on. Unfortunately, my heart was already on the line, and I do believe Edward Adonis Cullen already owned it. But I could suffer if it meant that he never got hurt.
We had started a routine, he would arrive at my house in the morning, and we would take my car to school, he would always drive. Then after school, we would leave separately, but he would always arrive about an hour later, and we would do our homework, read, talk, listen to music, whatever. Usually I would go to their home for dinner, Esme, Edward, and even Alice taking turns to cook. I would always try to help, but they would never let me touch a dish. I had stopped taking blood from the blood bank, and decided to hunt animals now. So my eyes had started to change to a deep brown, with shades of gold rather than Burgundy.
I looked at the clock this morning, finally calm after my nightmare, and it was only 4 am. I sighed, sleep would not come again tonight. I threw off my covers and turned on my bedside lamp. I heard a crash to my left and quickly crouched, surprised at who was in my room. It was Edward, attempting to leave, and in the process knocking over a chair. I stood up, grabbing at my robe and throwing it on. I had only bothered to wear a tank top and boyshorts to bed and I was slightly embarrased that he saw.
"Edward? What are you doing here... in my room?" I asked, perplexed.
"I...um...I was just leaving." He said, jumping out the window. I ran over to it and in a harsh town called out, "Not so fast, get back here if you know what's good for you!"
He stopped, dropping his head like a child being reprimanded, and climbed back up my tree to my window. He stood before me, running a hand through his hair.
"Why were you in my room?" I asked, slightly angry that he had tried to run.
"I...I like watching you sleep." He confessed.
"You watch me sleep? How long?"
"About 3 and half weeks now." He said quietly.
"3 and half weeks! You are a stalker!" I said, throwing my arms in the air and walking to my bathroom. I left the door open, intending only to brush my teeth.
"I'm sorry Bella. I know it sounds weird, but you fascinate me. You know, you talk in your sleep." He pointed out. I rinsed out my mouth.
"I what!?" I talked in my sleep?? Oh my god.
"You talk." He said nervously.
"What did you hear?" I was anxious now.
"Nothing much really. You mumble mostly. You were upset tonight though, I wanted to wake you up, but you woke up on your own. Did you have a nightmare?" He asked, concern lacing his voice.
"Yea, but it was nothing really. It was just scary, that's all." I said walking towards the stairs. "So...does the rest of your family know you watch me sleep?" I poured myself some cereal and began to eat.
"Yes, they think it's romantic." He said, attempting to lighten the mood.
"Romantic? Is it romantic to you?" I asked truly curious.
"No, it's more...interesting. As you know, we don't sleep, so it's interesting to watch you sleep. And then you mumble, and sometimes its humorous, other times its just mumbling. You're so...vulnerable when you're sleep, I feel like I need to protect you." He admitted. Wow, that wasn't a half bad answer.
"Well, I really don't like for you to sit in a chair and watch me sleep, that kind of creeps me out. But if you ask nicely, maybe you can stay with me until I fall asleep, at which point either you go home, read a book in the living room, or pretend to be asleep too. Just don't sit in a chair and stare." I said smiling. He smiled back.
"I really thought you would over react when you found out." He said.
"Oddly enough, I normally would have. But is it strange if I say that somewhere inside me, I like knowing you you were there? Please don't judge me." I said laughing.
"I promise I won't say a word." He smirked back.