Another Word for Lonely
Thank you to Oh Mike, How will I go on for the amazing Banner!!! Go read her stories :) Bella's a half Vampire and half human, daughter of Aro, a secret that is to be kept at all costs. She moves away, disgusted from her life in Volterra, to Forks to start fresh. There, she runs into the Cullen's, who don't have any idea what she is, or who she's the daughter of. What happens when she falls for Edward, and Edward for her? And what will happen when Aro summons her back home? Who is in danger, Bella or the Cullens? AU Slightly OOC BxE
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"Alice is this really necessary?" I asked.
"Bella, we can do this hard way or the easy way, which is it going to be?" She said sternly, scaring me a little bit.
"Fine, the easy way. But just so you know, these sessions of Bella-Barbie are going to stop..soon." I complained, crossing my arms across my chest as she piled my curled hair into a messy side swept bun. I had wanted to have my hair down, but Alice wouldn't have it.
"Your dress would look much better with your hair up Bella." She explained.
"Whatever." I mumbled.
"So do you and Edward have plans for the dance?" She asked.
"You already know the answer, so why are you asking?"
"Because Esme and Rose are listening in downstairs and they want to know." She said, earning a chuckle from me.
"Oh, I get it. Well, he's over at my place making me dinner first, then we're going to the dance and do what typical teenagers do....and that is dance." I said.
"What about after?"
"He's taking me home, and I'm falling to sleep...alone." I said loudly. I could hear Emmett snickering.
"No late night activities?" Alice asked casually.
"Alice! I can't believe you asked that, and there will not be late night activities for your information." I said defensively.
"Sorry, jeeze. I couldn't see so I thought I'd ask." She shrugged her shoulders. "All done."
"Yep, check out your amazing hair, courtesy a la Alice." She said excitedly. I stood from my chair and slowly walked over to the mirror, making sure not to make eye contact until I was really close. I looked up and the sight took my breath away.
"Alice, what did you do?" I asked, shocked to see the stranger in the mirror.
"Well, I added some eyeliner and a smokey eye, plus some bronzer, and I piled your hair in a pretty bun. Don't you like it?" She asked.
"Like it... I love it. I look...pretty." I said, turning a bit so that I could see by hair better. I had never been one to wear make up, but Alice had applied just enough to make my cheeks glow, my eyes pop, and my lips blush. I looked pretty, and I liked it. "Thank you Alice! Now where is my dress, because Edward is going to kill me if I'm late." I said, hurriedly looking for my dress in the clutter of outfits layered on her bed.
"Found it." She chimed.
"You're a life saver!" I said, snatching the dress and throwing it on. I found my shoes under her bed and slipped those on as well, throwing my old clothes in my bag and started for the door.
"Hey wait!" She called, amazingly already in her own dress.
"Good luck tonight!" She winked and went to her bathroom.
"Thanks." I said, walking down the stairs to see the rest of the family, sans Edward, sitting on the sofas looking at me. "What?" I asked, worried that something was out of place in my haste to get dressed. Esme was the first to stand up and come over to me. She pulled me closed and hugged me, whispering in my ear, "You look stunning. Have fun tonight. You make him happy Bella." She pulled away and smiled warmly. Next Emmett was there already pulling me in a huge bear hug.
"Awwww, Bells is all grown up now. See ya at the dance." He said, running up the stairs to his and Rose's room. Rosalie just nodded her head and quietly mumbled what I thought to be a 'you look nice, see you at the dance' comment.
"Bella, you and Edward have fun tonight, don't get into too much trouble." Carlisle joked as I blushed.
"See you at the dance Bella." Jasper said, walking past me to get himself ready.
I had finally made it back to my car and was on my way to my house. I was nervous for tonight, butterflies flying like crazy in my belly. I pulled into my driveway, looking through the car window to see the kitchen light on, and a faint shadow moving around inside. This was it, the start of our very first date. I opened the door, and stepped out. I smoothed my dress and slowly began the walk up to the door. I wasn't sure whether to knock or just let myself in. Before I had to make a decision, he had already opened the door for me. He stood still, his eyes taking me in. I blushed under his gaze, feeling it all over my body. A crooked smile crept to his lips, causing a smile of my own to appear.
"Bella, you look beautiful." He said, taking my hand and kissing it.
"Thank you, you look pretty handsome yourself." I commented, taking in his fitted expensive grey slacks and black buttoned up dress shirt rolled at the sleeves.
"I hope you like Coq Au Vin." He said, leading me through the living room towards the dining table. He had presented it with candlesticks, a lace table cloth, and a bouquet of red tulips.
"Edward, this is incredible." I gasped, squeezing his hand to show him that I meant it.
"I'm happy you like it." He said throwing me that amazing smile once again. We sat and I couldn't help but dig into the food he had prepared.
"Oh my god Edward, this is delicious! How did you learn to make this?" I asked, suspicious for a moment that he couldn't have made such an amazing meal and had probably ordered it in from Seattle.
"Would you be mad if I said that I copied Rachel Ray on one of her shows?" He laughed, and I couldn't help but laugh too.
"No, but I am surprised you admitted it. So I was hoping to ask you something..." I said, looking down to my plate.
"Yes?" He asked, lifting a finger and tilting my head up so that I could look him in the eyes.
"Your family seems to believe that we're going to...uh... consummate our relationship...tonight." I said blushing.
"Oh." Was all he said. What kind of response was 'oh' in a moment like this?
"Since we both agreed we're not ready for that yet, I would rather your family not think that was what we were up to. I know this is horrible timing, but I'm afraid I won't have will power later if I wait," I said quickly, taking a breath before I continued, "Would it be okay if I came home alone after the dance? That includes you staying at your house for the night." I asked.
I felt horrible for asking him this, but I knew that if he stayed over, everyone would assume something happened, and I for one did not want that so soon in our relationship. I looked at his face and felt even worse. He had a mixture of confusion, understanding, and then anger all in one.
"I think you're right, it would be best if I stayed home. I can't believe my family. They pestered you all evening, didn't they?" He asked, still upset.
"Alice and Esme may have mentioned it...a few times." I said embarrassed.
"Oh god, I'm so sorry Bella. I didn't know they would do that to you. If that's what you want, I'll stay home tonight." He said, smiling and kissing my cheek.
"Thanks." I said, smiling back. "Okay, I'm done with my dinner. You ready to go?" I asked.
"Yep, I hired a cleaning crew to fix up this mess while we're gone." He said, motioning to the table.
"You really didn't have to, I could have done it later." I said.
"I don't think that a girl that goes to a school dance normally has to come home and clean afterwards." He pointed out.
"I don't think a normal girl would go with a vampire to her first school dance, but who am I to judge." I said, walking towards his car. He decided it was time for his Vanquish to take a drive. He opened the door for me, allowing me to climb in. In milliseconds, he was already starting the car and we were on our way to a tacky gymnasium filled with inebriated teenagers.
We arrived at Forks High and made our way, hand in hand, to the entrance of the gym. The decor did not disappoint. As expected, it looked like a bad Prom from the 80's threw up in here. We both could already smell the excess of alcohol floating around in the room, and the scent of the typical horny teenager. We both wrinkled our noses at the same time.
"Gross." I whispered.
"My thoughts exactly." He said. "Come on, lets find my siblings." He said, leading me through the crowd.
I noticed how the crowd had separated, leaving a hole in the center. It made me wonder what was going on that caused the crowd to open like that. It wasn't until we were on the edges of the crowd that I realised it was because the Cullen's were dancing.
They looked like ballroom dancers in the center, moving gracefully and eloquently, far from in sync with the music, but probably perfectly in tune with the music in their head.
"Why are they dancing like they should be on dancing with the stars, rather than like everyone else?" I asked Edward.
"Despite that fact that they won't admit it, I think they like the attention." He said, rolling his eyes.
When the song was over, they came over to us and we exchanged our greetings.
"So Bella, what do you think of your first high school dance?" Alice beamed.
"Well, aside from the lovely shades of pastel colored streamers and deflating balloons, I feel slightly left out that I'm not drunk like the rest of them." I mock pouted.
"We could arrange that." Emmett said, pulling out a flask from his jacket pocket.
"What the... Emmett, did you really bring a flask of alcohol...alcohol that you can't drink?" I asked, contemplating the irony.
"Who do you think spiked the punch? It's no fun when these kids are sober and socially awkward. I wanted to liven the place up." He said, dodging a slap in the head from Rosalie. "Sorry Babe."
"Idiot." Edward and Rosalie muttered together.
Alice, Jasper and I only convulsed with laughter. His logic was not sound, but it was hilarious and it would certainly prove to be entertaining.
"Bella, before I completely lose you to the dark side, may I have this dance?" Edward asked me, taking my hand and leading me towards the dance floor.
I wrapped my arms around his shoulders as he placed his hands on my hips. We swayed to the music, letting it flow through us. We didn't speak, we just danced. The words of the song flowed through my head as Edward and I glided around the dance floor.
It was Breathe Me by Sia, a favorite of mine since it had been released, and I softly sang the song as we danced.
"I'm glad you like the song I requested." Edward whispered.
"You requested this?" I asked.
"I wanted to express to you how much I needed you without coming off too needy." He chuckled, but his eyes holding the seriousness of what he was saying.
"Thank you Edward...I feel the same way." I whispered, bringing myself closer to him so that I could rest my head on his chest. "I love you." I whispered.
"As I love you." He said, kissing the top of my head.
He and I danced for the rest of the night, neither one of us ever wanting to let go. This night was perfect, nothing could ruin it. It was as a dream, all fitting together perfectly. I was almost half expecting that something would go wrong, but it was all perfect. Even the immaturity of the drunken teenagers and the irritated adults present could not squash the perfection of this night. This was by far the best dance in the existence of dances! Well...probably not, but it was to me.
I had successfully avoided Mike Newton and his quest from searching me out for a dance. Thankfully Jessica was persistent in her own quest to make sure she left the dance with him or else I may have had to wave the white flag and just get it over with. However, in the midst of Jessica's thoughtless actions, that meant that Angela no longer had a ride home. I had found Angela wandering aimlessly around the dance, calling out for Jessica. After some searching, we both realised she had left with Mike about 20 minutes before. I had felt sorry that Angela had been put int his current situation, she was far too nice to deserve this. But unfortunately for the both of us, she had been an unknowing victim of the spiked punch, so both of our nights were cut short so that I could drive her safely home.
"Edward, can I have your keys?" I asked, leading a very drunk Angela towards him.
"What happened?" He asked, concern on his face.
"It seems someone had alittle too much punch, and her ride was Jessica, and she's left with Mike Freaking Newton." I explained.
"Let's get her to the car." He said, trying to take her arm.
"I got her, it's okay. Besides, I really don't wasn't your family to see us leave together. I'll just drop your car off tomorrow." I offered.
"We shouldn't have to care waht my family thinks Bella." He muttered.
"I know, but I do. Besides, I have some emails to catch up on and some girly things I really don't want you around to witness." I said, trying to make sure he got the hint to stay away tonight. As much as I liked him around, I also liked my space. Besides, I had to make a call to Volterra to check in, I had become quite irregular with my updates and I'm sure someone was beginning to wonder why.
"Okay Love, here." He said, handing me his keys and kissing my cheek. "I'll see you tomorrow then."
"Okay Edward, love you too and I' promise I'll be over as soon as I can tomorrow." I said smiling at him as I helped Angela out to his car.
I had helped her in to the passenger seat, and strapped in the seat-belt, making sure she was secure. I walked around to the drivers seat, feeling my stomach turn. That was odd, why was I feeling so weird all of a sudden? I climbed in to the car and quickly began the short journey to her home.
"You and Edward Cullen love each other?" She blurted out, still looking out the window.
"Umm...yea." I answered, wondering if she would remember this tomorrow.
"Wow... your so lucky." She sighed.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, that Edward loves you too. If only Ben felt that way for me." She said.
"Ben? Ben Cheney from English?" I asked.
"Yea, I've had a crush on him since 5th grade." She said quietly.
"Why don't you tell him about it."
"Are you nuts? What if he doesn't like me at all?"
"I find that highly doubtful Angela. You obviously didn't notice how he was looking at you tonight." I said.
"You're lying!" She said blushing.
"No, I'm not. You should tell him how you feel." I said, putting the car in park. We had arrived at her house.
"I don't know...Thanks for the ride Bella. Sorry about this, I didn't know the Jess had left me. See you at school." She said, climbing out of the car.
"It's okay Angela, Good luck with Ben." I said, making sure she got in safely and started back towards my house.
I sat in the car in my driveway for a few minutes, just taking a break from the night. It had not been ideal, but it was perfect none the less. I went to a high school dance with my boyfriend, danced all night, had an amazing home cooked meal, and found a new friend in Angela Webber. Before tonight, she had only been an acquaintance, but now she and I had a confidence in each other, one I doubted she shared with Jessica or anyone else. I smiled, stepping out of Edwards car and closed the door behind me.
Walking up the steps to my house, I inhaled th night air, wanting to smell the crisp clean air of the night. All that my senses received however was the heavy scent of Vampire.
I froze, uncertain of what to do. Who could be here in forks, and obviously in my home? Had Aro mentioned a visit recently? No, I hadn't thought so. I quickly contemplated the thought of running, but that would only lead to suspicion and ultimately the discovery of my relationship with the Cullen's. I exhaled, deciding to be brave and take what was coming. I slowly walked the steps of my porch, taking my time finding my house key and turning the lock. My insides all felt as if they were in a vice grip, they hurt and were tangled, and I felt as if I would throw up.
I turned the door knob, the anxiety only becoming worse. I stepped inside, my senses becoming assulted with the concentrated scent of whoever was in my home. It was not a scent I recognized yet it felt familiar, it was foreign to me and I felt as if I had known it before. I walked over to my light switch and flicked it on, surprised to see two figures seated on my couch before me.
"Hello Bella." A sickly sweet voice greeted me.
"Jane." I greeted coldly. "What brings you here with..."
"You remember Nikolai, do you not?"
"Faintly. But now I understand why he's here. You have the power to cloak those around you to prevent the ability to track and mentally read. Aro has used you numerous times to travel undetected." I answered.
"You are very good." He answered.
"I will not waste my time with pleasantries, so get on with it. I still have not received an answer as to why you are here Jane." I said, aiming my glare at her. I still held no patience for her and would not be able to refrain from harming her if she tempted me.
"Aro has become worried at your lack of updates. He wanted me to personally make sure his beloved Bella was safe and sound." She sneered.
"Well, you've seen what you've come to see, now you may leave." I said, pointing towards the door.
"My my Bella, what patience you have. Or rather, what nice dress you have. Where have you been gallivanting off to?" She asked.
"Bear in mind Jane that you are not my equal, so do not question me as one. Where I have been is not of your concern."
"What is that scent, it smells sweet and yet foul that the same time." She ignored me, crinkling her nose. Oh god, would she smell the Cullen's on me? I was surprised she had not smelled the scent of Edward lingering in the house, I certainly could.
"Ahhh.... I see. And what of the scent of Vampire that I have noticed around your house, it is not yours I presume?" Damn, she had noticed.
"No, it is not. And for the sake of ending this line of questioning right now, it was just a nomad, no one special. I have taken care of it." I assured her.
"Taken care of it? I hope you mean you have made ash of it." She quirked an eyebrow.
"Yes, no one knows the secret Jane, I can assure you. Now if you will send my regards to Aro..." I said, motioning to the door once more.
"Yes, well, I will let him know of your well being. Just one more question before I leave... How might the Cullen's be doing? Aro is so fond of them." She smiled devilishly.
"Wh...who?" I stuttered, the color leaving my face.
"The Cullen's, they live in the area. Carlisle, the leader, visited with Aro for sometime, but you were hidden away, so you could not have known him. I could smell him on your jacket, you've been to his home." She said.
"I...I have met them yes. I go to school with his children. They don't know Jane, they have no idea. There is no need to harm them." I tried to explain.
"Yes, I'm sure. Lucky for you, Aro cares for Carlisle deeply. This situation could have been quite ugly. Goodbye Bella. " She smiled, before walking out with Nikolai and disappearing in the woods.
I closed the door, shaking with the realization that Jane was just here and knew that I had come in contact with the Cullen's.I didn't know if that was good or bad. Why hadn't Alice come, she must have see them coming? Wait... Nikolai. His power was greater than just the ability to hide. I rememebr now that he was basically invisible if he so chose to be, or anyone he cloaked along with him. He couldn't be tracked, read, even seen in visions. He was invisible to everything. Damn it.
Should I warn the Cullen's of the danger that they could potentially be in and tell them my secret? But if I told them my secret and Aro had decided not to take action, then they would surely be hurt due to my hasty actions. No, I would not tell them. They did not need to fear or know the trouble they were in. I was certain I could handle it. I would do everything in my power to protect them if Aro found fault in Jane's review.
I slowly made it up the steps to my room, and collaspsed in my bed. I had nightmares through the night of Volterra, nightmares I never wanted to live through. I could only wait until Jane returned and told Aro of what she knew. I could only wait...
Be my friend
Wrap me up
I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me