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Scars Of A Torn heart

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The Cullens are in Australia when a new influenza out brake strikes. Carlisle asked Edward to help him with a patient that has been through so much in her life; and will change Edward forever. The trauma of slavery affected Isabella greatly but can Edward be able to help her, not only in her battle with the influenza but also the battle that goes on in her mind? What will happen to the two lonely souls? Will they find happiness? Will they find Love? Or will they force each other apart because of their pasts? And will they finally find their Happy Ending? Edward/Bella

its my first Fanfic. so be kind. i don't own any of the twilight charters SM owns all.

13. Chapter 13: Saying Ones Good Byes

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Chapter13: Saying Ones Good Byes

Today was the day that she was going for her learners test to get her L's and I was taking her into the RTA. As we entered and the assistant led her to a computer to do the test wile I sat in one of the chairs out front to wait for her to finish. In no time she finished the question and came out smiling.

"I go it and I got hundred percent," she said smiling even brighter.

"Well done. I'm proud of you my love. I knew you could do it," I said smiling in return.

The assistant came up to her and directed her to the area where she would get her photo taken. So we moved over there and soon she had her driver's license in hand walking out of the RTA.

"Do you want to start today?" I asked

"Ok. I guess so," she said, nervous.

"Don't worry you'll do fine."

We got into my car and I drove a secluded area outside of Dungog. I turned off the engine and got out and she got into the driver's seat and I in the passenger's seat after Bella had put on her L plats on the car.

"All right put the car in neutral and push in the clutch then turn the ignition on," she followed my instructions and the car revved to life. "Ok. Slowly take the clutch off while pressing down on the accelerator; slowly..."

It went on like this for a few hours and soon she was able to drive a short distance without the car stalling. When we had a few hours of driving I took her bake home and she wrote in her driving book.

We walked into the house and the first person to greet us was Emmett, "BELLA! DID YOU GET IT?"

"Yep I got it and then I went on my first drive with Edward," Bella said smiling up at me.

"WHAT! But what about me?"

"Em, I don't think making her feel embarrassed when you laugh at her when she makes a little mistake on her first drive is going to help anything."

"I would only laugh when it was funny."

"How about next time you can come with us when I go driving? Does that sound reasonable?" Bella asked.

"OK! Well congratulations Bella! Now we got to find you a car! Yeah!"

"Tomorrow we can drive into Newcastle and look at some cars."

"I'm coming!" Emmett said.

"I thought you would say that but please Emmett it is my decision not yours," Bella said in a firm voice to Emmett. "That goes for you to Edward," she said poking me in the side smiling.

"Of course my love."

And so that is what we did the next morning we drove into Newcastle in Emmett's jeep because Jasper came too. We decided... well Bella decided that she did not what something too expensive but still something that look nice so we went to a few of the car dealerships in Newcastle: Ford, Mitsubishi, Nissan, and Holden. We convinced her to look at some of the more expensive brands like Audi, BMW, and Mercedes Benz but finally she decided on Mitsubishi—aMitsubishiLancerEvolution to be exacted.

We all liked the car and we were going to order some parts for the car to make it go faster and get her a body kit among other things for the car. She just rolled her eyes and laughed at our excitement over 'soaping up' her car as she put it. When we went to agree on a price with the car sales man we all filled into his office and I must say he was slightly shaking out of unknowingly being in close proximity with four vampires in a small room yet he had no idea why he was so fearful.

I smirked when Jasper was deciding what would happen if he lifted the level of the poor human's anxiety and even Bella thought about it and she looked into the future and found that the man would faint from fear. So she said so that the human did not hear to not do it because the poor guy would just faint and there would be no fun. Bella calmed the guy down enough so that he was able to work yet still feared us slightly. 'Fear is healthy it can save us from danger,' she had said in her mind.

So we sorted all the financial side of the car out then we agreed on a date that the car would be delivered to our house. Then we walked out happy with the agreement and drove home.

The car came to the house a week later and all the parts for the car were ready too. Rose showed Bella the different parts of the car and they were getting alone fine for the moment. Rose was pleased that Bella wanted to learn new things and seeing as cars was a passion of hers she was happy to teach, at least rose was not giving her the cold shoulder. She did everything that rose told her to do and rose was pleased with that.

I was in my room reading when Bella came up to me slightly hesitant but her mind was giving nothing away just more questions,'come on I can do this... Just got to ask him... That's all...'

"What's wrong Bella?"

"Hum...can you hum...," 'come with me to say good to my parents?'

"Of course Bella; I will come with you."

"I just don't want to be alone."

"I know. I needed the same thing when mine past away and Carlisle was there for me."

"Thank you. I just really need to say good bye once and for all before I forget more about them..."

"Come on how about we go now?"

"Yeah that sounds like a good idea I guess"

I was raining outside probably because of Bella's emotions and her sadness was showing in the crying sky above us as we sped forth through the forest in the direction of the cemetery.

Bella stopped at the edge and grasped my stone hand in hers and we walked forward slowly through the grave yard. Many new graves were placed in the cemetery, some old and some young and most from the desice that had almost taken away my Bella away too.

Soon we found our way to were Mr. and Mrs. Swan were placed in their deaths, side by side for all time. Bella moved to sit in front her parent's grave and brushed her hand over the smoothed rock.

"I'm sorry that I could not be there at you funerals. I'm sorry for every thing that I've missed with you both in my life. So many things just went so very wrong in my human live and I could not spending these past few years with you and I miss you both so much.

So much has changed since you two past away and it's been hard but I'm not alone and I'm happy... I found some one that is always there for me no matter what. His suffered my little tantrums, and my self-doubt but he is still there for me. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm sure you both would really love him.

I have a big family now all seven of them. You'd love them there all so fun to be around. Cause there's Carlisle or Dr Cullen; he adopted me in to his family and he is like a second father to me, and then there's Esme, Carlisle's wife, and my second mother. They are really wonderful people.

Then there are the kids. There's Emmett he is really big but on the inside his just a big teddy bear, you cannot help but laugh when he is around and then there's Jasper and he can be very serious when he needs to be but then he can be really playful like Emmett. They are extremely competitive and it's quite funny when they get started but I love them there like the brothers that I never had.

There's Alice who is also married to Jasper but don't worry their not related. Alice is extraordinarily hypoactive and she can't sit still for a second sometimes but if you have a problem she will always be there for you when you need it. She loves shopping and it's her obsession. Then there is Rosalie she's really amazing with cars she can fix anything. We might not be very close but we are getting there though; I hope. They're both like sisters to me.

And last but not least there is Edward... He is the best friend that anyone could ever have. I love him dearly but more than just my friend he is what vampires call mates. I don't know what I'd do without him because he's the one. The one that I will love for all eternity and beyond that no matter what happens...

Well that's my adopted family for you. I also got my license and I also got a car too and I helped rose add the parts to it that the boys ordered...," she went silent for a while. Not moving just simply sitting.

I came and sat beside her and pulled her into my lap. In circling her in my protective embrace, "I miss them so much," Bella whispered

"I know Bella. I know," I said.

"Sing to me... please?"

"Of course, my love..." So I began to hum to her, her lullaby. As the rain lightened to just a sprinkle my love fell asleep in my arms as I slowly rocked and hummed her into the safety of dreamless sleep. Nothing can hurt you when are wrapped in the safe darkness of slumber. Sleep is such a wonderful thing really. A thing that humans take for granted so very easily.

The ability fall into oneself to come to be in a place were on one has to worry about the outside world that threatens to destroy us. To retreat into the safety of dreamless sleep; to not have to listen to any thoughts that are not my own. To simply shut every thing out just for a few hours would be a blessing. But I know that that could never happen. The girl in my arms only sleeps because of a miracle. Everything about her is a miracle.

Something so very impossible yet so very really and possible; that is what I hold in my arms now and I never want to let her go, for she is my heart, my very soul. I lost my soul when I was changed but then brought it back and it is her to keep. For she is the keeper of my soul and my once lonely heart that now has a reason to exist no to live because it is not just existing with Bella it is truly living. In a way my life only started when she came to be in it and like I say so many time as long as she wishes to be with me then I will be joyful. No matter what I will be there by her side till she sends me away.

And if that day comes it will be the death of me; for I cannot live without my soul. I will exist for my family but I could never live without my love, my life, my soul, my Bella.