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The Cullens are in Australia when a new influenza out brake strikes. Carlisle asked Edward to help him with a patient that has been through so much in her life; and will change Edward forever. The trauma of slavery affected Isabella greatly but can Edward be able to help her, not only in her battle with the influenza but also the battle that goes on in her mind? What will happen to the two lonely souls? Will they find happiness? Will they find Love? Or will they force each other apart because of their pasts? And will they finally find their Happy Ending? Edward/Bella

its my first Fanfic. so be kind. i don't own any of the twilight charters SM owns all.

16. Chapter 16: Memories of Bella part 1

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I opened my car door and got in and drove all the way back home. Leavening my car and then once more running into the Australian bush land to hunt. Then when I got home my eyes showing that I had hunted I walked into the living room where everyone was spread out some were in the room and said, "I ' m going to find her."

"Your what?" Rose hissed at me from her seat next to Emmett. Emmett was trying to calm her down but she shook him of and continued. "She left you! She doesn't't want you anymore."

"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS!" I growled making everyone flinch and tense up as I continued. "You don't really know her Rosalie. You weren't the one that she would come to with her problems, you weren't the one that she told her cruel past to, you weren't the one that held her when she cried because she had a nightmare, you weren't the one that would do anything for her, you weren't the one that she told all her secrets and feelings that were hidden deep down to, you weren't the one that could see though that tuff outer shell to see how truly how vulnerable she really was. Rosalie, you don't know."

"Then why is it that for months you thought that she did not love you if you know her soooo well?"

"Because I don't deserve her," I said simply looking her straight in the eye. She held my gaze for only moments before she turned her gaze away. She knew how I felt about myself; they all did and no one really like it when someone brought up the whole self loathing thing that at one point we all felt and some of us still feel that loathing and that's why she did not question me any further. I knew that she was against me running off to find Bella because she didn't want me to get hurt further then I all ready was. Though, she tried to not let anyone know such a thing.

The relationship between Rose and I is different than the others because even though the atmosphere can be tens around us we are still family and though we might want to yell and scream at each other -at any given moment- we will all ways be there for each other. We will all ways help each other even when we don't agree on what they want. We were all like that; we would do anything for each other even if it sound or even was; crazy and bizarre or just plain downright dangerous we would do it anyway because we are family and when one of us is in it then all of us is too.

"Fine! How is it going to work?" Rose asked looking around at every one then laying her eyes on Carlisle. Now all of us had our eye trained on Carlisle to find his answer.

All was quiet for a moment as Carlisle thought though a plane and then he spoke. "We'll split up. Alice, Jasper, Rose and Emmett you will be together and the Esme, Edward and I will be together." He turned to Alice. "Can you search her future and find what area she is in?"

Alice went motionless looking into Bella's future but her future seemed to keep changing. "All I know is that her future is changing from places in Europe and then as far as Asia. She's not really making any decisions but I know she's some were in Europe at the moment."

"Well Edward, Esme and I will first go to England and see were that takes us. Alice, Jasper, Rose and Em you start in Spain and then see were that takes you if it leads you to a dead end contact us and we will discuss what we will do next."

Every one nodded and went to get ready. Personally I would have left right now but Alice glared at me and dragged me up the winding stairs all the way up to my room and told me to "sit and be good," were her exact words because I went to help her but I was just putting clothes into the suit case not really caring want I had in my hands and then Alice ripped the pieces of clothing from my hands and took every thing I had put into the suit case out, so I sat on my lounge and watched as she zoomed around the room putting clothes among other things into a suit case, seeing as we were going to book into a hotel when we get to England and then leave out things there and travel around the country only coming back when we need to.

I watched as she pulled out random things from the draws and the wardrobe. As Alice pulled out my flip-flops from the cupboard I remembered the time were Bella was walking around looking for something and in her hand was one flip-flop. It was only a few weeks after Bella had been changed...

Her beautiful face was in a deep frown of frustration as she kept searching. Finally she huffed and came into the family room where Alice was on the couch flipping through a fashion magazine and I was on the other couch reading a book.

Bella came in and asked Alice. "Alice have you seen my other thong?"

Alice's eyebrows rose up nearly touching her hair line with her mouth slightly a jarred. "I didn't know you were into THAT type of thing Bella?" she chuckled.

Bella's frown deepened and she looked at Alice strangely like she was talking nonsense but I knew what Bella was talking about. The talent to read minds can be quite helpful but I kept my mouth shut and tried not to laugh. Bella filed through what Alice was thinking and she too raised her eyebrows higher and her eyes went wider as well and then she rolled her eyes, sighing.

"Alice I was talking about the other one of these," Bella said holding up her thong/flip-flop.

"Oh a flip-flop"

"A what?" Bella said raising an eyebrow at her.

"A. Flip. Flop" Alice said slowly like Bella did not understand a word of English.

"There thongs," Bella said a matter factually.

"Flip-flops," Alice persisted.

"Alice which country are you in?"

"Australia. Why?"

"Has an one maybe looked at you funny like they don't know what you are saying? You know when you go shopping or something?"

"Maybe..." Alice trailed off

"Well you'll have to learn the right names for things in Australia so people know what you want."

"What! Why? I..." she was about to continue when I interrupted.

"Why don't you both teach each other? I am sure that Bella will have to learn some of the differences between the American language and the Australian language when we go to America," I said and so that is what they did going around the house pulling out random thing and say the names and I would hear things such as...

"Rubber"..."Eraser," coming from the study

"Plain flour"... "All purpose flour" and "tomato sauce"..."ketchup," coming from the pantry cupboard in the kitchen

"Jam" ... "jelly" and "Jelly" ... "jello" coming from the fridge

"Rubbish bin" ... "garbage can," and among other things as they pranced around the house laughing as they went; teaching each other the different names for the same thing.

I came back to the present and Alice was still packing so I must have only phased out for only a moment.

Memories of her came once more as Alice pulled out different pieces of clothing. She pulled out a black hoody and I remembered the time when Bella and I had gone to our little spot by the cliffs. We had gone out the night be for and I held her as she slept under the stars. The great expanse of the bright lights that were skated across the blackened sky was beautifully breath tacking yet still paled in comparison to the angel that had slept in my undeserving arms. I watched the dying fire as the burning wood soon became hot coals. The light from the fire danced across Bella's beautiful pale face as she dreamed with a small smile across her lovely lips. I drew her in closer to me as she slept and as the night progress.

Her dreams were peacefully happy but it did not stay for long. A dark shadow crept around at the edges; darkening her dreams. I could not see the shadow's face and Bella was becoming tense. I was going to wake her when suddenly the shadow leapt towards her and the face was revealed...