[banner removed by admin - please keep banners within 300px by 150px] I found a secret hiding in the Alaskan wilderness while on summer vacation. Now I need to keep that secret safe and protected. But what affect will it have on me? What will happen if its exposed? What will I sacrifice to keep it safe? AU,REG PAIRS
5. Chapter 5
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Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer's owns twilight and I am just a dreamer.
"Bella are you sleeping in today or what?" What is that wonderful smell?
"Humm yeah I'm up. Were you just cooking? It smells great in here." It made me hungry.
"Yes, I was making you breakfast. Do you like pancakes?" Really?
"Yes I do, but you didn't have to do that." He's so nice.
"Bella we went through this yesterday, I am only doing it because I want to. Now come
on they are getting cold." We wouldn't want that to happen.
"Well, thank you for making them for me."
"The pleasure was all mine." Why?
The pancakes were delicious and the company was too beautiful for words. That was until I could smell my dad and Dr. Cullen coming. OH MY GOD! Why are they here? I was so tense; I would have broken in half if even the littlest bit of a breeze hit me. Would they make him leave so soon?
"Bella I need you to tell me, do you want me leave?" His voice was pleading.
"No, I don't." I whispered afraid it was not the answer he wanted to hear.
"Okay because I don't want to leave either." I couldn't help but smile, it brought me hope.
"Let's go say 'Hi' shall we." Can't we just run for it?
I thought my heart would burst the moment he took my hand. God the way he affects me! It was hard to breathe and I noticed he forgot to breathe too.
"Bella relax. Please?" I'm trying!
"I'm scared. Why are they here?
"I don't know." I really wished he did.
"Hello Carlisle, Eleazar. It's nice to see you both again."
"Edward, Bella how are you both?"
"We're fine Carlisle thanks." All I could do was nod stupidly.
"Well your probably wondering why we're here. So Bella, it's that time of year again." I knew what that meant.
"Edward walk with me will you? Let's give Carlisle and Bella their time for his visit with her." ggrrhhh
"Edward you'll still be here when he's done right?" He squeezed my hand, hopefully that
"What exactly are you going to do to her?" Edward growled out.
"Relax Edward, I promise son, I won't hurt her." He never does.
He left after nodding to me. I missed him before I even went inside with Carlisle. I always hated doing this every year, but my dad would not hear of it not being done. He said I had to be careful with my health since I was unique. It was all the usual stuff height and weight accompanied by all the usual questions. I found I could not hold back my questions, which were unusual; I did not really ever ask any questions in an attempt to end it quickly.
"Carlisle why doesn't Edward have a mate?" I wanted to add and why can't it be me?
"Well that's a question for him to answer. I guess he hasn't found the one yet." Right I should have guessed that.
"Oh right, do his brothers always try to find him one like Tanya?" I was praying to God he said no.
"Unfortunately yes, they won't leave him alone about it and Tanya has always had a thing for him." Of course, my dearest aunt from hell would sink her claws into him.
"Yeah she's beautiful even for a vampire." God I wanted to be sick just thinking about her touching Edward.
"Bella can you lift your shirt so I can listen to your heart, then we'll be done for another year."
"Yeah okay?" Why not, it is not like there is a line forming to see me naked.
I could hear Edward and my dad approaching. I found myself wishing Carlisle would hurry up. I didn't want them to see me like this. It was embarrassing to say the least. However, he was not fast enough; there I was with my shirt in the air and Carlisle with his stethoscope on my chest. I leapt 5 feet away and realized my shirt was still up. OH MY GOD! Could I be anymore embarrassed? I don't know why I felt so dirty, but I did. Edward could see I was embarrassed, but I don't think he fully understood. The look on his face screamed that he was grossed out by seeing me partially naked.
"I'm sorry Bella; I jumped to the wrong conclusion. Please forgive me?" For what? It's my body that is making you feel ill.
"I'm just sorry you had to see that." I really was.
"Don't be." Why not?
"Well since I'm done here Edward, why don't we let Eleazar have a moment with Bella?"
The moment I knew he could not hear me I fell apart, practically falling down in the process. My dad had to catch me before I hit the floor. I couldn't stop it, when I fell for Edward, I fell hard. There was no stopping the tears rushing from my eyes. I was in the middle of a full-blown anxiety attack - vampire style. All I could see was Tanya wrapping herself around Edward while smiled at her lovingly. I wanted to pop my own eardrums to stop the loud buzzing sound that was echoing in them. I did not even hear when Edward came back, but could smell him the instant he came through the door. Unfortunately, I could not stop at that point, I was too far-gone.
"Eleazar, can I speak to Bella alone please?" I felt my dad when he kissed my head to say goodbye.
"Bella, please listen to me, I know what you think and your wrong. I love you more then you'll ever know." I could stop shaking my head. He had to be lying.
"No you don't, I saw your face when you looked at my body and you think I'm hideous!"
"No Bella! I thought he was touching you the way, I want to touch you. I want to be the only one who touches you!" No, that cannot be true.
I didn't want to look at him. I did not want to see the look on his face when he winced at how ugly I was. Nevertheless, he was not stopping his effort to lift my face to his, so I gave in and allowed him to lift my face up. And, when he put his lips to my never before kissed lips, there was jolt of electricity that ran through my body like a train wreck. I couldn't stop wanting more except, yeah I had to breathe.
"Do you believe me now?"
"Yes." I whispered back
God his kiss left me dazed literally. But the fact that he said he loved me, that had me over the moon. I just wanted to hear him say it again and again. However, it made me fearful, what about his family and would they try to take him away from me? What about Tanya? She would definitely try to. Aunt or not, she wouldn't want me to find any happiness with someone she desired. Then there was the little fact that he was due to leave in two months to go back to Forks, Washington. Carlisle had told me two years ago when they moved there. I knew my time with him would be short, but I decided I would take whatever I was granted and make the most of it before I sealed myself away in my cabin to slowly die of a broken heart.
"Bella what are you thinking about? You have the same look on your face as yesterday."
"It's nothing… I'm just tired I guess."
"Bella I may not be able to read your mind, but I can see your face. Please tell me what you're thinking about?"
"What do you mean you can't read my mind? Can you read the minds of others?"
"Yes Bella, I can read minds. But not yours, you're the first one that I can't read."
"Because I'm a shield?"
"Yes, it blocks me completely. That is why I did not know if you felt the same for me as I do you. So please tell me what that look means?"
"I was just thinking about all my unanswered questions. Like what if your brothers try to separate us before you have to leave? What will Tanya do to make you hers? How much will it hurt when you leave?"
"Bella hasn't your father explained what happens when a vampire falls in love?"
"No there's never been a need for that conversation."
"Bella there are only two times in the life of a vampire that we change, the first is when we find our mate and the second is when we lose our mates. I am too far in love with you to avoid the first, so unless you order me away, you are stuck with me for an eternity. And I will never allow that to happen." He sighed, running his hands through his hair.
"So no matter what you won't leave me?"
"Yes, we will be together no matter where we are. And as far as my family is concerned, I already told Carlisle how I feel about you. And last but not least, I have never wanted Tanya so the point is moot. The only reason I have not gone back and told my family is that I do not want them to ambush me before I can get the words out. Not to mention, I promised your father that I would not reveal you to anyone."
"Okay I can see his point, he has always been afraid the Volturi would find me. Edward can we finish this conversation tomorrow… I'm really tired."
"Of course, I'm not going anywhere. Let's get you to bed and Bella try not to worry, I really do love you with all my heart."
"I love you too Edward."
Getting into bed was easy, falling asleep not so much. I was trying, but my mind would not stop racing. It was not until I heard the humming coming from the couch before I felt myself relaxing enough for sleep to take me.
A/N okay so you know the drill tell me how you really feel.