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Searching for You

Searching For You Banner Edward left Bella almost a year ago. Alice sees Bella in a video that was clearly shot in the Cullen’s home in Forks. OH MY! What will Edward say when he sees her playing his piano, sparkling and who’s the mysterious man?


1. Searching

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Chapter 1: Searching for You


“Edward!” I hear Alice’s voice loud and clear. “Get down here!” I groan and turn over allowing the darkness to surround me. Purposefully, I ignore her.

I know now why I stayed away and I’m having a hard time remembering why I let her talk me into coming home.

However, Alice knows me better than anyone and knows exactly what to do to get my attention. My minds bombarded with an image of a brunette in a meadow. I growl and appear downstairs in a flash.

“Alice! I thought we discussed this! I promised to come to Chicago and you promised never to look for her. You know I can’t handle it. Why are you doing this to me? I’ve been back stateside for what two whole days and you’re already flashing images of her in your mind. If is the way things are gonna be then I’m outta here!”

The little pixie is blocking me before I can even turn around. The next thing I know I hear five voices all screaming, yes screaming! “Edward LOOK at the TV!”Spinning on my heels, I find myself unable to breath. Oh, how can this be?Not possible! Not her! It’s been almost a year since I’ve even allowed myself to think about her. It can’t be her. Wait a minute…I know that place!

Alice whispers softly, “Edward I think you need to see this.” She places her hand on my shoulder and tries to push me to take a seat. Holding the remote she presses the play button. There’s not a thought in the room. Here I am surrounded by everyone in my entire family and for the first time ever I hear silence.

There on the screen before me is the backside of brunette sitting in the middle of a place I know all too well. Our meadow! How? Why? She’s the only one who knows about our meadow. I can’t see her face clearly but every fiber within my being knows without a doubt it’s My Bella.

I hear a piano playing softly in the background while she sits thoughtful taking in her surroundings. Clad in a pair of blue jeans and a simple white tee with the wind playing through her mahogany hair. Her skin is shimmering and sparkles…Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Sparkling? What. Please tell me my eyes are playing tricks on me. There’s NO way she could be sparkling in the sun. It’s NOT possible. That’s the reason I left her so she could enjoy the sun and a normal human life. WHY IN THE HELL IS SHE SPARKLING?

From what I can see it’s almost as if she’s expecting, looking for someone. Then I hear the most amazing voice begin to sing just above a whisper.

“I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone”

All I can see is the side of her face as she makes her way to her feet and slowly gazes out to the edge of the meadow. Slowly she approaches as if she’s cautious almost afraid. My mouth drops open and I feel my stomach twist in agony as she reaches out towards a transparent male figure. He in turn reaches to greet her. As soon as she gets close enough to touch he strolls off into the forest. She follows looking, searching for him. Who is that and why is she reaching for him? Perhaps she did move on like I wanted her to.

“These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase”

What? Wait! She’s roaming around the forest. How many times have I told her how dangerous that is? I know she’s not alone because obviously someone had to shoot the video. He appears again just for a few minutes to make sure she’s following him. I am shocked to my very core at what l see before me. Alice hits the pause button just in time to freeze the frame.

OH.NO. He’s tall and lean with bronze like messy hair. We all sit in silence and stare at each other not knowing what to say.

“Edward that dude looks just like YOU!” Emmett’s booming voice ricochets cutting through the silence. “Only he’s not a dude. He’s more of a ghost! Has Bella completely gone INSANE?”

I just glare at him as a growl erupts from my chest. Carlisle asks Alice to continue. The video soft piano music grows louder. She begins to walk following this ghost version of me through the forest. Her voice begins to rise…

“When I’d cry, you’d wipe away all of my tears… When I’d scream, you’d fight away all of my fears…And I’d hold your hand through all of these years…But you still have……… all… of… me!

As the piano solo rolls throughout the room she continues to follow Him into a clearing. Finally for the first time the camera focuses on her face, but her eyes are closed. Please just open your eyes. I just need to see your eyes. When she begins to sing the next verse we’re able to see her follow him up to…OH MY….NO.NO.NO.! Alice stills the video again.

Rosalie yells out, “Do you think she was really there?” “Of all the places, why would she go there? Who does she think she is?” I can’t form an answer. I can’t even blink. Alice simply replies “I don’t know.”

I sit unmoving at in the vision before my eyes willing myself that this is just a dream. I’m going to wake up any minute. Uh…wait I don’t sleep. This can’t be a dream. But there HE is leading her under the massive trees that crowds around OUR home in Forks. Why does the camera seem to be following her giving only a profile view of her face? DAMNIT I WANNA SEE HER EYES!

She suddenly stops stares at the massive house before her almost in disbelief. She continues thoughtfully as she sings…

“You used to captivate me by your resonating light…Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind…Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams…Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.”

She trails a few steps slowly leading to the front door. It’s cracked open and you can see him move it aside to usher her in.

“These wounds won't seem to heal; this pain is just too real.
There’s just too much that time cannot erase”

Glancing around every corner expecting to see someone she knows isn’t there, she makes her way up the stairs. He breezes ahead of her as she begins to take caution as her voice rings out…

“When I’d cry, you’d wipe away all of my tears… When I’d scream, you’d fight away all of my fears…And I’d hold your hand through all of these years…But you still have……… All…Of...Me!

Both fist clamp onto the sofa, my muscles clinch, and my feet planted themselves so firmly I thought I heard the floor crack. She’s striding towards my room. The door opens before her and there HE stands. She reaches to feel his face and her finger slip right through. The glass window on the far wall burst open with force as the sheet breezes off my grand piano. Bella glides her fingers over the spines of MY books, down the side of MY bed, a single tear trails down her cheek. The side of her face glistens as the moon begins to rise. My body snaps still as I realize…It’s Twilight. She stands in the center of my room passionately singing with everything within her…

“I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone”

Hesitantly she gazes upon my piano. Closing her eyes, she graces the bench and as she begins to play HE appears next to her. The tears roll silently down her face as she sings to him. Everything within me is screaming “EDWARD SHE IS SINGING THIS TO YOU!”

“I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me, I'VE BEEN ALONE ALL ALONG!”

Wow! I had no idea she could sing like that. I’ve heard her in the shower and knew she had a beautiful voice. But never in my years had I ever heard a voice so clear, pure, and so vibrant. Her fingers worked the keys with such passion. She was in her own world surrounded by memories of me. When I told her it would be as if I never existed, she found a way to make sure to remind herself that I DID EXIST! Only Bella…BeautifulBella…MY BELLA!

The melody began to rise to a crescendo as her voice lifted just as high.

“When I’d cry, you’d wipe away all of my tears… When I’d scream, you’d fight away all of my fears…And I’d hold your hand through all of these years…”

Her head dropped looking away from him as her fingers slowed almost to a stop. She continued to play ever so softly. Rolling her head to face the camera with her eyes hidden, she softly sings the last notes of the song…

“But you still have……… All…Of...Me…ALL…OF…….ME!”

Her fingers hit the last few notes she opens her eyes and gazes right into the camera... “You still have all of me.”

Frozen time stood still as I closed my eyes and I released a breath I didn’t realize I was holding. Brown, deep chocolate brown. Her eyes were STILLbrown. When I brought myself to look back up, I was staring at her sitting at MY PIANO. She was in MY house, in MY room playing MY piano. Her face was slightly damp from the tears and her eyes were the saddest I have ever seen. They eyes held so much passion, longing, and heartbreak. So much loneliness, sadness, and fear, but what I saw above all else shook me to my very core…love. She still loved me.

No one dared to move, think or say anything out loud. My body leaped out of the position it was in, no longer frozen, no longer dead, no longer in agony. Everyone stared at me as I simply stated…”I have to leave.”