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The Power of Love

Summary:
Exactly how strong is the bond that Edward and Bella share? Join Bella and Edward as they embark on a journey where their love is challenged. Watch as Bella and Edwards' roads cross and divide. Can they each handle their mistakes? Will Edward abandon Bella or will their love survive the hardships life has to offer? This is set right after Edward leaves Bella in New Moon and begins with Bella in a deep depression.


Notes:
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters in this story. This story is written for fun. I am an enthusiast and a fanatic of the lovely Stephenie Meyers. Also please be patient. This story is already written. The first 5 chapters are short; they are glimpses that help set up the story. As the story progressed it seems that the chapters get longer and longer. Also this story is told from various points of view. Each view will be posted to avoid confusion.


12. Jake & Me

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Jake and me...

I sat in the comfort of Jacob's embrace until the dawn of the following morning arose. His arms radiated a warmth that stung my ivory skin. It burned an imprint into the white of my forearm, leaving me feeling secure and snug inside. At some point in the midst of the night Jacob's eyes began to droop and eventually he fell asleep with me safely listening on his chest watching it rise and fall. His hot breath on my ice cold neck tickled me as each steamy wave that came from his nostrils blew softly onto me caressing my bare jawline. I began to drift off thinking about the turn my existence had taken.

My thoughts turned to my Jacob.

Jake who has always been there for me.

Jake who found me when I was lost.

I had searched in the darkness for my love and instead I found my friend.

My Jake.

Loneliness is difficult to survive. As lost as I was the moments before Jacob reappeared into my life, I know that it was only the beginning of a path leading to the center of the pits of despair. Without Jake, I would have fallen for sure deep into an agonizing abyss. Jacob, always there to protect; as once a man claimed he would always do for me. However as much as I long for a man I can't have, he still doesn't appear.

Now here I lay in pure peace. Can this work? He makes me feel better. It seems like the holes in my chest are temporarily plugged up for now. But the holes still exist, and the aching inside my dead heart radiates heat waves outward towards my finger tips. A dizzying sensation overwhelms me as the last thought filters through my mind.

But oh where art though my Romeo?

Will Jacob suffice?

I carefully repositioned myself and looked up at him. His bronzed skin darkened in contrast to my paste colored finger tips. I caressed his cheek, tugging on a long strand of hair that had escaped his pony tail. I tinkered with his locks and eventually joined the lonely strand back to the glossy mass that was pulled back on his head. I patted his head and brought my arm back down to his chest. The sound of his heart beating steadily, always on time, always reliable reminded me of the stability that I could have if I chose to be with Jake.

The stability I should have with him.

I traced the outline of the contours of his chest. My pinky finger gently caressing in and out of every groove. Jacob had really grown up into a man over the past year. He no longer appeared to be the lanky, oversized boy with round cheeks that he once was.

He's beautiful.

But that was absolutely preposterous. I couldn't and wouldn't cross that line with Jake. Here we lay collided, the darkness and the light. As broken as I was I longed for the companionship that a relationship would bring.

But what of my promise to myself? What of my mission?

Before I had changed I had demanded answers. So many questions without their counterpart responses. I wanted to know and understand why Edward did what he did. As much as I once loved him and probably still do, Edward had hurt me. In order for me to move on I had to come to terms with my past. Edward was definitely part of the past.

Would he be part of my future?

I shuddered at the thought of an eternity without Edward. I couldn't bear to fathom it.

Jacob began to stir. I looked down at him again and watched his eyes flutter open. He stared at me for a moment before a huge grin appeared on his face. He pulled his arms from around me and stretched them both in opposite directions. He slowly sat up, twisted his back making it crack and then stood up causing his neck to pop. His eyes widened as a thought sparked into his head.

"What's for breakfast?" Jacob all animated began to squirm around hunting for breakfast.

"Oh good idea I want a young succulent lioness."

Jacob stared at me with his mouth dropped open. He politely ignored my comment and brought his arms back down to his sides, lingering his fingertips on my forearms, lightly brushing me with burning hands. The wind picked up just then and my hair began to flow freely to the beat of the breeze. Jake's eyes twinkled and he raised his wrist to my face, turning the back of his hand to face my cheeks. He gently stroked my forehead and trailed two fingers down my nose and around towards my cheek. Jacob took a step closer as I began to tense up and his fingers outlined my jaw. Slowly he raised his other arm and met his hand, cupping my chin, taking one final step towards me. He lifted me up to meet his eyes so full of wonder and hope. He leaned down to meet my lips as I realized that he had been ever so smoothly attempting to kiss me. Just as he met my lips I turned away and he kissed my cheek hard, passionately.

If I were human I would have been beet red. Jake pulled back with his eyes hurt, no longer did they hold a sense of anticipation, wonder or exhilaration. After he realized that I noticed his reaction he pulled away and stared at the ground.

I moved quickly in front of him placing one hand on his shoulder and the other on the side of his face. I leaned forward and spoke in whispers into his ear as I slid my hand from around his shoulder down his back.

He wouldn't escape me now.

"Jake, this isn't right. I love you. You know that. You are a wonderful person who means the world to me. But doing this, moving to this level is wrong. You know that. I am hurt. Broken inside. I need you to know that."

I couldn't believe I was telling him my deepest, darkest worry. A secret I had hoped to never reveal.

"You are so important to me. Not just because you pick me up when I fall, but because you are a good person. I enjoy your company. But because of that I can't hold you here as a hostage with me. You and I can never be... for so many reasons."

Jake's piercing stare began to rhythmically quiver to the shiver that ran up and down his spine.

I had upset him.

"Jake, don't be mad or upset with me. Think about it. To be honest with you, as if it weren't totally obvious, I have not gotten over my loss. I am still in love with Edward. How would that be fair to you? Also, I am damaged goods now. I am a vampire! You are werewolf! We can never be together. And lastly I cannot and never will bear children, a tradition in your family for generations that I am sure you don't want to break simply because of your vampire girlfriend's dry womb."

Jake stopped shaking and came over to me, taking my hand and pulling me close into his arms. Again, I sat there feeling his warmth and I began to hum softly to the beat of his heart.

As the morning progressed, we made plans as to what to do. I wanted to find Edward. There would be no closure if I didn't. Jacob had not spoken to me since the attempted kiss. He no longer appeared mad or upset, he seemed lost in thought. Perhaps what I had said made sense. I don't deserve some one like Jake. I peeked out of the corner of my eye at him. He was busy making a fire in order to cook the rabbit that he had caught and skinned. His hair was no longer pulled back as it flowed wildly in the cool air. His muscles ripped out of his sleeveless shirt. His long legs, angled as he crouched down to add more fuel to the fire. He was a gorgeous being. I was preparing to go to deeper into the forest to find some prey for myself as well. Jacob wanted to come with me. I told him that I would rather go alone.

He probably didn't trust me and figured I'd doubledback towards that town and eat that little girl. The monster in me roared at the thought.

On my walk back, happily satiated, I began to think about Edward. I wanted him to know my feelings every step of the way.

I believed that if I tried hard enough I would find him and show him my pain.

What would he do with that?

After feeding, Jake and I made concrete plans. I wanted to find HIM. Jacob agreed that this was important. At least for me it was. I wasn't sure if I should continue to head towards Jacksonville or if I should make an alternate stop. I wasn't sure if Edward would even bother to look for me.

Would he find the clues that I had left for him and would he follow me?

Did he still love me?

Edward where are you? A dizzying intense wave passed through me at that thought. And all of a sudden I could see thin lines forming in the sky. I could see A faint picture appear and Edward curled up in a ball, in the backseat of car. It looked sunny outside but it was hard to tell due to the darkened windows.

Edward are you coming? Will you meet me in Jacksonville?

I must be losing my mind sending secret messages to my love.

I glanced back at Jake and twirled around quickly to face him. He was trying to sneak up on me. He actually got close enough where he could do some real damage. I punched him in the shoulder and his smile widened.

"Delicate little Bella" He teased.

"I wouldn't call myself delicate anymore, Jac-"

Thud! At that moment Jake jumped up in the air shooting his legs out in front of him aiming at my torso. He knocks me down attempting to secure me with his legs so that his arms were free. He takes my face once more in his hands and places a kiss smack on my lips. He pulls back a smirk on his face, laughing at the look on my face.

Why that little cheat!

That was it! I took my free arms and jabbed them into Jake's chest kicking my feet up from behind I hooked my knees over his shoulder and pulled him off of me. I jumped up at an alarming speed, soaring several feet into the air, surprising Jake with my ability.

"Oh two can play at this game." I scowled.

Jacob grinned and launched at me with an excited expression. I braced myself for the impact and laughed as he once again succeeded in knocking me to the ground.

The rest of the day was spent wrestling and discussing the probabilities of life.