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The Power of Love

Summary:
Exactly how strong is the bond that Edward and Bella share? Join Bella and Edward as they embark on a journey where their love is challenged. Watch as Bella and Edwards' roads cross and divide. Can they each handle their mistakes? Will Edward abandon Bella or will their love survive the hardships life has to offer? This is set right after Edward leaves Bella in New Moon and begins with Bella in a deep depression.


Notes:
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters in this story. This story is written for fun. I am an enthusiast and a fanatic of the lovely Stephenie Meyers. Also please be patient. This story is already written. The first 5 chapters are short; they are glimpses that help set up the story. As the story progressed it seems that the chapters get longer and longer. Also this story is told from various points of view. Each view will be posted to avoid confusion.


20. A final decision

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I didn't even realize that he was gone until the ecstasy from the last kill had ceased to course through my veins. I could still feel the good vibrations within me and I slowly began to realize that once again I was alone. The room had darkened and the remains of the bodies from last night's kill lay scattered in pieces on the floor. I had let their victim go.

I had also lost Edward.

He left me. I knew he would. I told him I was a monster, too terrible for even him to accept.

I gathered up enough energy, targeting my feelings in their lifeless direction. They would burn for their crimes. I had to be sure that they were dead. They were bad enough as humans. I couldn't fathom what they would be like as vampires. I couldn't risk it.

I was alone again.
I thought he understood.
He never said otherwise. I thought he loved me.

He left without a word.

We were never meant to be.

I don't understand what is going on. I feel driven to kill these people. I felt so ashamed in the beginning thinking I had no control, but when Edward was by my side, he made it alright. Suddenly, I understood that these people needed to die. I can't help it if I got high from their deaths. I could stop if I wanted to, I really could. But then those visions would haunt me. A sharp pain resonated in my chest. I'll never be the same. All he does is leave. I could feel the holes in my heart widen and my sad, dead, lifeless organ shatter.

He doesn't love me.

He never did.

I am so disgusting.

I am a monster.

What am I doing? When did I ever think that Edward would accept me taking human lives? No one will. Not even Jacob. That is why I asked him to leave. I didn't understand. I needed to stop those people. But do their evil deeds make it alright for me to perform my evil deed? I am so lost. On one hand there is this strong urge to do what I feel is right, what gratifies me when I am through, what ends the pain that others suffer. On the other hand there is Edward. I would do anything for Edward. But he isn't coming back.

What is the point of existing without him? He found me in the pits of despair and now has left me in hell.

I don't understand. Everyone I love leaves me.

Renee.

Edward .

The Cullens.

Jacob.

They don't really care about me. I am just a burden. I am a nuisance, a trouble maker. If Jacob found out what I was doing, he'd kill me. I should cease to exist. What is the point? If I went to Sam and told him what I was doing, he would have Jacob end my sad little existence. But could he do it?

Would I fight back? I certainly wouldn't want to hurt my dear Jacob. But what if I lost control? He was no match for my powers. I can't imagine wanting to destroy him. He's so special. No I can't go home.

But where can I go?

After many hours of morbid thinking, I remembered a conversation I had, had with Edward long before he left me the first time.

He said the only way for a vampire to commit suicide is to have the Volturi do it for you.

Who are these Volturi?

I remember in the Cullens home a picture of Carlisle with three other vampires. Their skin looked like onion peels. They were so transparent. Perhaps they have the answers. Edward had said that they were like the government for vampires. If I stood before them and told them of my crimes they would consequence me as I deserved. These Volturi might have answers for what is happening to me.

Maybe it isn't all so bad.

Maybe I'll have a home in Volterra.

But can I go on without my Edward?

I sat down and thought about Edward. His eyes now red because of me. He followed me, religiously without a doubt in his mind.

How did he find me?

I must have summoned him to me. There is no other way.

Edward I need you. Why did you leave me?

I collected all of my emotions and bundled them up. I thought even harder about Edward. I pictured his dirty blond locks, scattered in his eyes. And then I saw him, really saw him. He was sitting on a bed in what appeared to be a giant suite. He looked intensely focused on telling someone an important message. I concentrated harder and attempted to see what he was seeing. It was Carlisle. He was surrounded by his family. They were listening intently to Edward's words. I focused back on Edward and screamed in my mind.

How dare you leave me, Edward.

Now you've lost me forever.

I was so angry, here I was abandoned with nothing but ash surrounding me. Darkness clung to me and I had no way to escape it. He saw the horrors of my ways and fled. He didn't take a second look to help me out with him. And now here I am in the pits of hell, alone.

I'm glad you were able to save yourself, Edward. You are a coward.

I yelled at him as I focused even harder I saw that Edward had recognized my voice. He looked up from the bed he was sitting and his face winced in agony. He understood the pain in my voice and the venom in my heart. He screamed out, "Bella, I am so sorry".

All of sudden, he was sitting besides me. I hadn't moved. He knew I was still there. He could see the smoke filtering up from the remains of the bodies on the floor. He squinted as he glanced at me. He raised his hands to shield his face and said, "Bella, no more!"

He crumpled into a heap on the bed. He was no longer next to me. He couldn't take it. I was too much for him.

I still had a window from which to glimpse at him. His family had huddled around him and Carlisle began to talk real fast into his ear.

"Tell her we want to talk to her. Tell her we love her, Edward."

I closed my eyes. I wished for it to be gone.

I had caused my Edward so much pain. I had forced him to do unimaginable things. I didn't even mean for this happen. I just wanted to be with Edward. Now I was all alone. The overwhelming guilt I felt was unbearable.

I had to leave. I loved him too much. I can't bear to see him hurt the way he is hurting now.

I shall cease to exist.

I will go to the Volturi.

He'll never hear from me again.