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The Power of Love

Exactly how strong is the bond that Edward and Bella share? Join Bella and Edward as they embark on a journey where their love is challenged. Watch as Bella and Edwards' roads cross and divide. Can they each handle their mistakes? Will Edward abandon Bella or will their love survive the hardships life has to offer? This is set right after Edward leaves Bella in New Moon and begins with Bella in a deep depression.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters in this story. This story is written for fun. I am an enthusiast and a fanatic of the lovely Stephenie Meyers. Also please be patient. This story is already written. The first 5 chapters are short; they are glimpses that help set up the story. As the story progressed it seems that the chapters get longer and longer. Also this story is told from various points of view. Each view will be posted to avoid confusion.

4. Giving Up

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Chapter 4: Giving Up
I curled up into a ball on the floor. I couldn't contain myself any longer. Alice's visions had become more frequent, more intense. The emotions that radiated from the scenes that played through her mind held all of yesterday's pain and all of today’s sorrows. I had to find her. The amount of hurt that radiated from those pictures in Alice's mind caused my heart to melt. I could here as Emmett entered the house. He gasped as he saw Jasper withered on the floor.

I had drowned out his constant rambling, "Edward, I am sorry, please stop. Please go to her. No one should feel this much pain."

I didn't care anymore. My brothers and sisters were in agony. Jasper could no longer turn off the sadness that secreted from every pore in my body. Alice was guilt stricken for throwing me into a frenzy of depressive episodes. Emmett couldn't fix what was wrong and did not know how or where to apply his strength. Admittedly defeated, he was too weak to help his family. Rosalie smug as ever no longer held her husband's attention. However she stood strongly by her last words. Bella is just a nuisance. Esme and Carlisle stood by in agony watching as their children cried dry tears for a sister that could never be.

They too cared for Bella but they could no longer stand my pain either. Carlisle and Esme had been the ones that most supported my decision to leave. They didn't necessarily agree that to leave was the best choice. They simply supported me as well as my love for Bella. They said they trusted that I would do what was best for her. However at this point in time, nothing could possibly be worse for her or for my family. It was time to go back.

Jasper had been the one to convince me to go back before. I hadn't even lasted a month without her before I attempted to return to her. I spent a month back in Forks to no avail. She was gone. They had left. No one knew to where. I looked for clues everywhere. I searched in every citizen’s mind. I even peeked at the dogs mind. I couldn't figure out why in the world they would know her whereabouts. Yet as I peered into that adolescent Black's mind I had fallen into a deeper depression as I discovered that Jacob was also in love with my Bella. He had had some sort of relationship with her. I couldn't get close enough to learn more. I had to honor the agreement, damn that stupid treaty. How I missed my Bella. Apparently Bella had been close to Jacob while I was away. He had tried to snap her out of her zombie like state. I saw some guilt in his thoughts. He had hurt her too.

My brother had convinced me that this was no way to exist. He spoke to me on a nightly basis about self-control and the importance of loving and accepting oneself before accepting the love a relationship as powerful as Bella and mine brings. Jasper understood my pain. First, he felt my suffering. Secondly he could empathize with me because he had thought of himself as weak and pitiful for having lived off human blood for so long. For a long time he did not think he was good enough for his Alice. For weeks he explained his journey to believing in himself. Jasper told me that the hardest thing in becoming a person was accepting you for you. Being ok with all the horrible things that I have done is so difficult. And now on my journey I am to forgive myself for what I had done to Bella? I understand full well that what I had done was wrong.
How could I just leave Bella? If she indeed meant so much to me then how could I just leave her, vulnerable and unprotected?
I was a fool. I may have lost her forever
. I just wanted to close my tired eyes, fall asleep forever and never wake up.

Alice had been having visions, everyday now, sometimes twice a day. It's funny that I found comfort in them at times. I believe that her recurring vision of Bella will happen soon. The vision becomes stronger at each occasion and they have been coming with more frequency. However as long as she keeps having visions, it means that it has not happened. What is driving me mad, is that I can't find my Bella to protect her from all that blood. I can't figure out where she is when she is so gruesomely attacked. Alice's vision is skewed, it is altered due to the over abundance of emotions it contains. It comes on incredibly strong; a burst of energy and feelings so intense and then it just ends as abruptly as it began.

Bella is alone in the woods. She is walking slowly, her body slumped, exhausted and drained of her beauty. She appears depleted of her life. Her energy force diminished to practically nothing. The sun is glistening through the tops of the trees. The vegetation shines green with vibrant colors emitting from the flowers on the ground. Bella stops, dead in her tracks. Her arm is above her face shielding her eyes from what comes. She squints her sad eyes and her face turns to stone. She freezes. Then a light so vibrant consumes her. It comes out of nowhere and flies at a speed faster than light. The scene turns obnoxiously bright as every color washes out. All is devoured by the strange glow. Then, as quickly as it came, engrossing all around, it disappears. All that is left when the light is extinguished is my Bella on the ground of the forest with blood surrounding her beautiful face. She gasps for air as her chest rises and falls each time with less force. Her eyes flutter open and she mumbles three words,

"I'm sorry Edward!"

Bella begins to shiver in the cold air and the fear rising from her is incredibly difficult to circumvent.

I hear howling in the distance as the sun settles in behind a cloud.

The aroma of her sweet scent rises and I can taste her sweet blood in my mouth.

Then it all ends. There is nothing but blackness. Alice at first thought it was me who attacks Bella. I don't understand the sensations that we both feel from this vision. It's surreal. It's as if I am somebody else present during Bella's slaughter.

The door burst open and a giant shadow is cast through the light radiating from the doorway.

"Get up. We're going to Jacksonville". My brother was relentless.

They had no idea that I had simply given up.

"You are not giving up on her. She is our sister and we will protect her even if you are too much of a coward to face her". Emmett bellowed from the hallway.

I peeked up at him from the floor and told him about Alice's new vision from the morning. This one had been different. It was only a glimpse. But it had been different.

Up above the canopy of the forest was Bella glowing and radiating in the sky. She looked amazing, recovered from the agony that had consumed her before. Her hair was alive in the wind, healthily blowing with the breeze. Her profound eyes sparkling a honey brown, vibrant with life. Her lips were full and complimented her pearl white face. Her body full and robust glowing in the day's eve. She looked glamorous and like never before. She smiled and looked at peace. That she looked amazing beyond belief, unlike the other vision where Bella appeared thin, scraggly and wasted was startling enough.

Emmett just stared at me. "What do you think it means?"

"I think she's dead now, it was a vision of my angel going to heaven."

Emmett ran in and attacked me. I didn't have the strength the fight him off. I simply plopped over like a rag doll as he shook me.

"You are a fool, Edward. It means she has been turned into a vampire. She's glowing and is in vampire form. You can't think straight, can you? When was the last time that you ate?" He inquired.

My eyes, like black coals glared at him. "Since I went back to Forks, 3 months ago."

"Fine. First we hunt, and then we go to Jacksonville to search for more clues. It's still not too late."

I couldn't object. I knew I couldn't be weak around Bella's mother. Emmett was right. I had to hunt. I had to be strong in order to protect my Bella. I can't give up.