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Breaking Impulse

Elizabeth, Renesmee, and Ryan are siblings but they have no idea. Elizabeth is Edward's child and Ryan and Renesmee are Isabella's twins – a boy and a girl. During high school, Edward and Bella could not stand each other. Bella was the quiet girl where Edward was popular. While out celebrating her twentieth birthday, Bella got drunk with Edward, and she conceived Edward's children. Elizabeth is Edward's biological child, too, her mother being a former girlfriend of Edward's. What happens when Edward finds out about his twins with Bella?


2. Everything is full of surprises.

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I looked at Carlisle when he came back into the office and I smiled at him. I still could not believe that this was the same man that raised Edward, the jerk that had kicked me out the bed after we had sex. It kind of made me wonder what made Edward be the insensible prick that he had become in high school. Emmett had told Jasper that Edward had changed, but I wasn't sure if that was the truth or not.

"I'm sorry about that. I just had to sign a few things," Carlisle said to me with a smile, looking down at my resume before looking back at me. "So… you have two children of your own? And, twins, no less!"

"Yes, I do," I said with a smile, thinking about my two little troublemakers. "Renesmee and Ryan Swan are my pride and joy. I don't know what I would do without them."

"That's interesting. I have two boys of my own, you know. How old are yours, if you don't mind me asking?"

"Oh, they are four, but they'll be five next month," I said with a smile as I looked over at him.

"What day would that be? I'll get someone to cover for you on that day, Bella."

I was in shock as I looked at him. He was hiring me?

"You honestly didn't think I wasn't going to hire you, did you?" Carlisle asked with a charming smile on his handsome face when he looked over at me. "I really need a physician assistant, Bella, and you are more than qualified."

"Oh wow, Dr. – uh, I mean, Carlisle, thank you so much."

Carlisle stood up from the desk edge where he had been leaning and I stood up after him, shaking his hand when he extended it. "The pleasure is all mine, Isabella. Now, how about I show you around? I can introduce you to a few doctors that you will be dealing with."


I couldn't help but wonder when my father was going to be done. It had about been a hour or so since I had been at the hospital. One of my father's co-workers, who didn't like me and didn't bother to hide that fact, spitefully told me that Carlisle was interviewing 'some woman' for the assistant position. I could hear the jealousy in his voice. The fact that Carlisle was getting an assistant meant that subordinate doctors would have to deal with the assistant first instead of being able to to straight to Carlisle. This spiteful doctor did not sound happy that Carlisle was that important that he rated having a personal assistant. Then again, Dr. Andrew Baker had always been jealous of my father because of the many awards Carlisle had received as a doctor. It really was not my fault that my father was the best surgeon around, was it? And I knew Dr. Baker would just hate having to deal with a 'female', the misogynistic old fart.

"So, if you need anything, just ask Nurse Young. She's a doll."

"All right, she seems quite the lovely lady, anyway. Thank you again, Dr. Cullen. I won't let you down."

I knew that voice. There was no way that my mind was playing games with me, was there? No, it wasn't. As I turned around, I saw her at the nurses station with my father, and I grumbled, running a hand over the back of my neck. I really wasn't expecting to see Bella here but there was no way I would be able to avoid her right now. I really was not expecting to see her so soon, either. This was my sanctuary, and the last place I really expected to see her and I wondered how she found out about my father needing an assistant.

"Oh, there's my son, Bella."

I saw her face pale when her eyes met mine and I watched as she bit her lip. Bella obviously felt very uncomfortable, and honestly, I didn't blame her. The last time I had seen her in school, I had been a complete asshole towards her, but I hoped that she wouldn't tell my father that.

"We've already met before."

"Oh, that's right. You two went to high school together. Don't mind me and my old age."

"Dr. Cullen, you're not old. You actually look good for your forties," Bella said with a wink as she looked at my father, giving her an excuse to turn away from me.

"You are quite the wonderful young lady," replied my father as he looked at her and he smiled. "So, do you think that you can start tomorrow? I have back-to-back surgeries and I have a lot of things that need to be done before then."

"It would be my honor, Dr. Cullen."


Suddenly, my cell phone went off, and I mouthed an apology as I pulled out my phone. When I saw the number, I frowned, flipping it open.

"Rosalie, what's wrong?"

"It's Nessie… she's freaking out. We were coloring and things were fine… but, well...here, Nessie, it's your mommy."

"Mommy, is that you?"

"Baby, what's wrong?"

"I can't find my teddy bear, mama."

I sighed as I ran a tired hand over the side of my face. "Nessie, you told me you didn't want it last night. I put a couple of your dolls in the side pocket of your bag."


"Is that it?"

"Mama, I love you, and Ryan does too…"

I laughed softly as I shook my head. Renesmee was the one that always depended on me for everything and always got anxious when I wasn't within eyesight. It was Ryan who didn't mind being alone. Actually, he preferred it.

"Go back to Aunt Rose, I mean 'Ms. Hale', Renesmee. I'll see you at lunch time, okay? Love you."

"Okay, love you, too, mama. Bye."

I groaned as I hung up my cell phone and Carlisle chuckled the slightest bit.

"I am really sorry. I thought I had turned off my phone but I guess I hadn't and my daughter –"

"Bella, don't worry about it. Kids need their parents. It's a fact of life!" Carlisle said with a smile in my direction before noticing the look on Edward's face. "Son, are you all right?"

"Uh… yeah, I gotta go," Edward said as he waved us both off before he walked in the other direction.

"Hm, I've never seen Edward that way before…"

"What do you mean?" I asked with curiosity, pushing my phone back into the pocket of my pants.

"I don't know," Carlisle shrugged as he looked back at me. "I'll see you tomorrow morning around nine, Bella. Welcome to Forks Hospital as my personal assistant."


"Emmett, I'm a fuckup," I sighed as I ran my hand over the back of my neck as I walked out of the kitchen and sat down beside him with my cereal in my lap.

Emmett narrowed his gaze towards me. "Yeah, I know. What else is new? I saw Bella run out of here like a bat out of hell. What the fuck did you to do her this time?"

"I made her feel like a cheap slut, Emmett. I basically told her that the only thing she was good for was fucking and that I wasn't in the mood…"

"You did WHAT?"

I sighed. "I did and I feel like shit, man. Thank you very much."

"Don't expect me to feel sorry for you because I… well, I don't," he said as he pressed the pause button on the remote control before looking over at me. "I just don't understand you, Edward. You like the girl and yet you act like a complete asshole. You need to apologize to her and quick. Girls like Bella don't stay around."

I thought back to the flashback with my brother and I frowned. I had royally fucked up. However, if I hadn't fucked up, I wouldn't have my precious Elizabeth, who was my world, and I was pretty much thankful to Tanya for that. I just needed to make things right. I just didn't know where to start.

The one thing I needed to know was if those two beautiful children were mine. With everything that I had done, I needed to explain myself to Bella, but… honestly, she just might push me away from her.


"It's not funny, Jasper," I rolled my eyes while watching Jasper's body shake with laughter.

"Oh, please, it is funny. Well, to me it is hilarious. How are you going to handle working for Carlisle when that means you are going to have to see Edward practically everyday?" Jasper grinned as he stared at me with his olive green eyes. "I'm really not trying to be an asshole, Bella."

I huffed as I crossed my arms over my chest after setting my cup of coffee down on the Starbucks table. "Yeah, right, Jasper. You are being an inconsiderate pain in my ass!"

Jasper's eyes softened as he looked at me. "I'm sorry. Forgive me?"

I laughed because I could never ever stay mad at Jasper for too long. "Fine, I will. Moving on...what do you think we should do for the twins' birthday this year?"

"Well, we cannot do Chuck-E-Cheese again. That big mouse scared the shit out of Ryan last year," Jasper chuckled as he shook his head, obviously remembering all the drama. "Speaking of that gray mouse, I don't blame Ryan for that. I mean, seriously… a mouse for Chuck-E-Cheese?"

I rolled my eyes as I stared at him. "You're crazy, Jasper. What else would they have as a cheese-eating mascot? No, don't bother answering that. OK, then. What if we have the party at your house?"

"Sure, that's fine by me. What should the theme be?"

"Well, they're both into Dora and Diego," I said with a shrug of my shoulders. "Or we can do something like the lion and lamb theme…"

"What in the world is that?"

"You need to explore more, Jasper," I laughed as I shook my head and I looked at my watch. "I'll explain more later to you, Jazz. I need to pick up my precious babies."

"They're not that precious, especially your daughter. Nessie… she knows exactly what to say or do to get you to do anything and to freak out," Jasper called out as I walked out the door.

I just shook my head at his antics. I was so lucky to have Jasper in my life. He was such a good friend, and had helped me so much over the years, especially the past five. I don't know how I would have made it without him.


I ended up standing next to Bella as we entered Rosalie's classroom. The children were just waking up from their naps and were drinking the apple juice and graham crackers that Rosalie provided for them. Rosalie left the room for a few moments later to take a call. Judging from the look on her face, I figured it was most likely Emmett.


Bella turned her head when she was knocked down by her little boy who ran to her with a grin on his face, his green eyes sparkling.

"I sorry, mama."

Bella laughed. "I'm fine, sweetie, but why are you so excited?"

"My birthday…"

"Yeah, and? It's not for another week, Ryan."

"I know, but still. I gonna be five, mama."

"Yes… yes, you will. What's your sister doing?"

"Her and that girl, Lizzie, are playing with dolls," Ryan said, making a face. "I don't like dolls, mama. I like my soldier figures, mama. Boys don't play with dolls…"

I laughed. "Yeah, I guess you're right, sweetheart."

"No, I am very right, mama. Hey, mama? Nessie asked that girl to come to our birthday party, too."

My eyes followed his to where Elizabeth and Nessie were giggling and playing together. Usually, Elizabeth was so shy, but right now she was giggling and laughing. She saw me watching her and jumped up, running to me.

"Daddy, you're here!"

"Of course I'm here, pumpkin. You'd rather have me pick you up instead of Grandma, right?"

"Yesh," Elizabeth said with a huge grin then turned to look at Bella. "Hi. I'm Elizabeth. You're very pretty."

Bella looked wide-eyed from me to Elizabeth before smiling at my daughter. "Why, thank you, Elizabeth. I'm Bella and you're just as pretty."

Elisabeth giggled as she looked Bella in the eyes. "Thank you."

Bella's daughter - Nessie, was it? - came over and hugged Bella's leg. "Mama, I invited her to Ryan and my birthday party. Is that okay?" she asked shyly as she looked up at Bella with a little smile.

Bella gave me a tentative look before replying. "As long as it's fine with her parents, I guess that's all right."

"It's fine by me, Bella. Just tell me when and where."

I helped Elizabeth slide her coat on and I gave Bella a smile. Ignoring me completely, Bella grabbed her children's hands. "Go say goodbye to Aunt Rose. We have to get going."

I tried once more. "See you tomorrow, Bella," making it more of a question than a fact. Still not looking at me, she muttered something under her breath. I wasn't so sure I wanted to know what she said.


"So, you saw him?" Alice asked with a grin on her face as she looked over at me as Ryan and Nessie sat in the grass in the park. "Does he know about them?"

Well, he knows they're mine, but I'm sure he has no clue that they're his." I sighed, closing my eyes for a moment before looking down at the ground. I crossed one leg over the other then I looked at Alice. "I don't even know how I am going to tell him, Alice. There are so many questions that keep running through my head and I don't have the vaguest idea of how I would even bring it up. I mean, he has a daughter already…"

"Oh, wow," Alice said with a gasp, looking worriedly at me, obviously wondering how I was dealing with this piece of news. "So, he's married?"

"How the hell am I suppose to know?"

Alice laughed at me as she shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know. I just thought that you would know. I mean, did you check for a ring?"

"No, I was too busy trying to avoid him to notice his hands," I huffed as I looked over at Alice again. I took a bite of the ice cream from the plastic spoon before continuing. "He is coming to their birthday party, though."

"Wait… what the hell? How did that happen? I thought he didn't know that they were his."

"He doesn't know. Well," I began as I took another bite of the ice cream from the cup. "His daughter, Elizabeth, and Ryan and Renesmee go to daycare together. Can you believe that? Well, Nessie asked Elizabeth to come to the birthday party, and he said it was alright and he would bring her. I can just see him sticking around…"

Alice snickered. "Well, well, well, what a small world this is. Jasper was right."

I bit back a chuckle at her words. Alice and Jasper liked each other, but both of them were shy when it came to admitting it. I would teased them nonstop about it when the other one was not around. I knew they were perfect for each other, and I knew the two would be together - eventually. I didn't even want to think what kind of damage that would cause when they both ganged up on me as a team.

"So, besides him being your babies' daddy...," she laughed at the words that left her lips before continuing. "I was wondering… does he still look as good as he did back in school, Bella?"

I frowned at Alice's words. "You're so fucking impossible, but if you must know, yes. Edward Cullen definitely looks good… really, really good."

Alice laughed. "I guess I'm not surprised. He seemed like the type to age nicely. I may work for Esme but I don't really see her husband or her sons, well, other than the occasional glimpse of Emmett when he's following Rosalie around…"

"You need to get out of that office more. You are going to make yourself wallow in imagined misery and start going crazy."

Alice just laughed as she stood up to play with her 'adopted' niece and nephew.

I knew that Alice had a knack for designing and fashion, which was why she she was so excited about working for Esme, who was lauded as one of the city's best interior designers. With Alice's sense of style, owners would be very pleased with her handiwork. Yeah, they definitely would, and it made me smile. Alice's demeanor lately had been filled with such hope and she hadn't even been as bossy as she usually was. No, she was better – far better, that was for sure.

I watched them play and I bit my lip, running my hand over my temple after I threw away my ice cream. I pulled out a wipe from my purse, wiping my sticky fingers, and I sighed. It was times like these that I wished that I had someone in my life, a father-figure to help me with Renesmee and Ryan. Jasper was great, but it wasn't the same. In the beginning, after they were just born, it was all I could do not to fall apart. Honestly, I didn't think I would make it as a mother. I had only been twenty and I didn't think that my children loved me because all they did was cry, cry, and then cry some more.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I stared at the two babies in the separate cribs, watching while they grabbed at the air, trying to reach me. It killed me to see them both crying. Renesmee was the louder one, and when she didn't get what she wanted, she would cry harder and louder. If she didn't stop, it would trigger Ryan's cries. He was usually a calm baby, but when his sister's cries set him off, he would cry in sympathy. It always sounded like his heart was breaking.

I was relieved when my best friend entered the room, his arm sliding around my shoulders.

"I can't do this, Jasper," I cried into his chest when he moved to stand next to me. "It's SO hard…"

"I know, Bells, but…I'm here for you. Whatever you need, you have me. I'll help you however I can."

"Thank you, Jasper. I don't know how I'd get through this without you. I love my babies so much, but I just don't know how to be a mother!"

"I know," he said as he moved past me towards Nessie, who stopped crying as he picked her up. "It'll come to you, Bella. Being a mother is instinctive. You're a good person, you'll have no problem being a good mother."

I frowned as I slid my finger across Ryan's cheek, who closed his eyes. "She likes you so much better than me. I am horrible at being her mother."

"You're not horrible," Jasper said as he pushed my chin up, offering me a smile. "She can sense how scared you are, Bells. Renesmee loves you so much. Don't you remember her kicking all the time, trying to get your attention?"

I sighed as I looked down at my sleeping daughter in Jasper's arms. "She likes you more, though."

Jasper chuckled lightly as he placed Nessie back in her crib before moving back to me and leading me out of the room. "I think that you're a wonderful mother, Bella. Soon you'll see that for yourself. Just you wait."

I had finally gotten over my fears and bonded with my children. It had been hard, especially since I never had a mother myself, to emulate. My mother had left me with my father one day not long after I was born, after deciding I wasn't even worth hanging around for. When I was eighteen, she returned, but I didn't return her love. She was one crazy bitch that was on drugs and that was just something that I couldn't even handle. I would never let my children meet that woman. Why would I even want her in my life - the one woman that never even wanted me to begin with?

No! They would never meet her or her new husband. Renee had married some man, who seemed nice himself, but I really wasn't interested. Even with as many times Renee tried to send me money, I would only rip the check. Money wasn't the answer to everything. Renee had the nerve to call me an ungrateful bitch. Well… she hadn't seen anything just yet.

"C'mon, kids, we got to go," I said after I heard the thunder in the sky. "It's about to rain. We don't need you two getting sick any time soon."

"But I still hungry, mama," Ryan pouted as he slid on his coat with Alice's help, while I helped Renesmee with hers.

"Oh! Can we get Mickey D's?"

I laughed when Renesmee suggested McDonalds. They loved McDonalds because of the play area.

"I'd love to join you three but I really need to get some sleep. Beauty this natural doesn't just happen, you know."

"Oh, geez, you sound like Rose," I said with a roll of my eyes as I kissed Alice's cheek. "I'll call you tomorrow after my shift is over."

"I think that sounds good to me, Bella. I am so happy for you. You deserve this job," Alice said as she hugged me and then bent down and kissed both Nessie's and Ryan's cheeks. "Be good for your mother, you two."

"We will, Aunt Ali," they replied in unision as they watched Alice leave and then they grabbed my hands.

"After we go to McDonalds, we're going home," I told them with a shake of my head as these two had me wrapped around their little fingers.

"Aw!" they whined.

"Or… we could go home right now. It's your decision, you two. What's it going to be?"

"No! We'll be good. Please can we go to Mickey D's?"

I laughed as I led the way to McDonalds to get my two little devils something to eat and a chance for them to work off some of their energy in the play area, while giving me a chance to sit and process all that had happened today.


I watched Elizabeth as she dipped her chicken nugget in the barbecue sauce. It always amazed me how clean she stayed when she ate. I hadn't even been close to being like that when I was her age, and I smiled as I remembered how frustrated my mother would get trying to clean up my messes. I looked at Elizabeth and smiled. She was so beautiful and she looked just like me with her bright green eyes and bronze colored hair. Honestly, I don't know what quality she got from Tanya because I just didn't see any. Maybe the nose… nah, not that either.

"So, I get to go to the birthday party, Daddy?"

I chuckled softly, nodding my head. "Yes, baby. You get to go to the birthday party. Do you know what you want to get them?"

"She likes Dora and her brother likes Diego. But… I think he likes boy dollies, Daddy…"

I laughed softly as she nodded. "All right. If we can't find a suitable Diego doll, we can get him a G.I. Joe or something."

Before she had a chance to say anything, I heard the tinkle of the bell announcing the arrival of a new customer, and I instinctively turned my head. There they were, with their mother. Bella was helping Renesmee and Ryan take off their coats before getting into the line.

I just… couldn't get away from her. Honestly, though, that didn't seem to bother me one bit. I think I was looking forward to re-acquainting myself with Bella Swan.