Torn Between Two
Renesmee and Brandon have been together for almost a year, but it seems Jacob is constantly getting in the way. When is forced with the decision of who she should be with, she has to decide whats best for her. Can she find a way to keep both in her life, or will she lose one forever?
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The beginning of the end
Chapter 1: Stop fighting!
It was all crashing down before me, and i felt as is there was nothing I could do about it. I felt like I didn't have control over my life anymore. It scared me to think I could be losing everything and that I would never get any of it back. Nothing felt right anymore,and everything was out of place. With Brandon and Jacob, I knew who I wanted, but I was so unsure of the choice I made. My heart wanted them both, and my mind was screaming at me to just leave. To just walk away and never look back, and as much as I wanted to listen to my mind, my heart wouldn't allow me to. I was so scared about what would happen, and my stomach was flipping and turning so much that I felt like I would collapse any moment. My world was spinning so fast, and I didn't see it slowing down anytime soon. As Brandon yelled at Jacob, all i could do was stand there and scream for them to stop as the tears fell, but I couldn't. My voice wouldn't work. And as the hit came, my heart broke. I never saw any of this coming, and I wished I could change it all. I ran to his side and looked up at him. I realized, here, right now, I had to make a decision that would change everything.
Chapter 1: Stop fighting!
It took everything I had not to just walk over to Jacob and rip his head off. How could he say that about Brandon? It was uncalled for, and very untrue. Brandon cared. I know he did. I just sat there, jaw dropped as the realization hit Jacob that he was way out of line.
"I'm sorry, Ness. I shouldn't have said that." he said with his head down, knowing he was wrong.
"Jacob, you may be my best friend, but sometimes I really don't understand some of the things you say. Do you not realize Brandon is the best thing that's happened to me in a really long time?" I asked.
"Ness," he sighed, "I'm sorry. I don't even know why I say some of the shit I do, I just don't wanna see you hurt, and you know just as well as I do that it won't take long before he leaves and you'll come crawling to me saying 'You were right, I'm sorry', and when that happens, I just want you to know, I'll be here, and I'll regret the fact that it came true. I really hope it doesn't, but I know it will. And I'm sorry, but it's true. I can't stand by and watch, and I'm sorry for that as well. You'll know where to find me if you need me. I love you, Ness." Jacob said as he stood up from the table and walked out the doors.
All I could do was sit there, motionless. I felt like I had just lost him completely, even though I knew Jacob could never leave completely. I felt a tear slip down my cheek as the door bell rang. Brandon. I smiled, knowing the second I looked in his eyes, things would be perfect again.
I wiped my face and then ran to the door. When I opened the door, I felt as if it had been years since I had last saw him. He hugged me and picked me up. When he sat me back down he kissed me and asked if I was ready. I went to tell my mom I was leaving and grabbed a jacket after hugging her and my aunt Alice.
When we made it to the car he opened the door for me and I waited for him to make his way around to his side.
"I've missed you." I said as he got in and started the car.
"Not near as much as I've missed you." he replied as he held my hand up to his lips to kiss it.
"So, what are the plans for today?" I asked as we started driving into town.
"I figured we would go eat, then head to the beach for a bit." He said, which sounded perfect to me.
We ate at Perkin's, a family owned sea food restaurant, and then went to the beach at about seven and it was just getting dark. We were walking down the shore and we had taken our shoes off and rolled the end of our pants up so the water wouldn't get them wet. It was perfect. I looked up at him and he seemed to be deep in thought.
"What are you thinking?" I questioned.
He looked over at me, and he seemed kinda distant. He looked like he was in a complete other world. "I've felt like lately you've been keeping something from me." he said as he looked straight ahead. "It's been worrying me."
"What has?" I asked as I reached over to hold his hand.
"What's the deal with Jacob?" he asked quietly.
"He's just a friend. He's been my friend since we were little." I said.
"Do you like him?"
"Of course, but only as a friend. I've never thought of him as more. I never will. It's not like that with me and him." I said.
"I see the way he looks at you, Ness. The other day when we were at your house and your grandma cooked dinner for me you and him, and you didn't eat much, he looked at you like he could tell something was wrong, and when he asked you about it and you said nothing, I could even tell it was a lie, only he said something about it. I know he likes you more then just a friend." he said.
"Brandon, you have to understand. I don't like him like that. I really don't. He's just always been there, and he knows me better then I know myself, the same way you do. And when you and I got together, I had to choice between you and him because he told me he liked me, but I chose you." I said as I gave his hand a tiny squeeze.
"That would explain why he hates me." He laughed. "Ness, I love you, you know that right?"
I smiled as I answered, "I love you, too. I always will."
"Promise me something?"
"Of course." I answered.
"Promise me that no matter what you'll always love me." he said.
"I'll never stop loving you, ever. You know that."
I went to sleep that night, and I woke up screaming from a dream I had. Uncle Jasper woke me up and asked what I was dreaming about.
"I don't remember, I just know that I was upset and was screaming at someone to stop." I said.
"I kept feeling you were scared, upset, scared, worried, upset again, and then broken. It had me worried because I didn't know you were asleep. I'm sorry for waking you. I'll let you get your rest. Goodnight Renesmee." He said as he existed my room.
Uncle Jasper was always so caring about me, and he was one of the few that still called me by my full name rather then Nessie or Ness. His southern gentlemen habit had never left, and I liked that about him. I tried to go back to sleep after he left, but failed.
I checked my phone and had a message from Brandon, so I answered it and then went to take a shower to wake myself up. It was about six thirty when I got out, and I had school so I got dressed and then went downstairs to eat.
"Did you have another one of your dreams, dear?" My mother asked me as she placed a bowl of captain crunch in front of me with a glass of orange juice.
"Yeah, I still don't remember what it was about though. Is it bad I've been having dreams like that lately?" I asked before I took a bite of the cereal.
"I assume you got them from me. When I was stressed or upset about something, I would have nightmare's so bad I would wake up crying or screaming and all sweaty, and sometimes I would remember the dream I had, and other times I wouldn't. I think it would be a good idea if you maybe went out with Alice to the spa for a relaxing day." she said, and the moment the words were out of her mouth, we both regretted it.
"Yay! It will be so much fun! We can get massages and mani-pedies and then get our hair done! OH, I can't wait!" Aunt Alice squealed as she came running up to me.
"Yay." I said sarcastically with a mouth full of cereal.
"We need to hurry or we are going to be late for school." Dad said as he walked in and kissed my mom on the cheek.
At school, Bella and I are twins, Jasper and Rosalie are twins, Alice and Emmett are one year apart, and Edward's brother, Jacob goes to La push school because he chose to stay with their uncle. Bella, Edward, Alice and I are 17, while Jasper, Rosalie, and Emmett are 18. We were all adopted by the Cullens, and some of us kept our family names, while some took the Cullen's name.
Bella and I kept the last name Swan, Edward adapted Cullen, as did Emmett and Alice, while Jasper and Rosalie kept Hale for theirs. It's really the only way that we can blend in to be a normal family in Forks.
Brandon isn't allowed to know my family's secret, but I wish I could tell him every day what I really am or that he could guess it like my mom did with my father. When I got to school, Brandon was waiting for me by my locker, but his face wasn't the same. He seemed distant again.
"Hey." I said as he leaned down to kiss me. I could see in his eyes he was thinking something, and I could also see he wasn't going to tell me even if I asked.
A sophomore walked by and whistled at me, and the second he did, Brandon stood up straight to glare at the kid, who quickly walked away with his friends.
"I love it when you get jealous so easily." I said with a smile.
"I don't like the way other guys look at you." he said. "You're my girlfriend and everyone in this school knows that we've been together for six months. You would think they would have it through they're heads we aren't going to break up any time soon. Stupid little kids." He said with a huff.
I just shook my head and smiled as I said, "Let's get to class. Mr. White's going to kill us if we are late again."
I'm sorry for what I said the other day. You know I didn't mean it. Please forgive me?
I read the text from Jacob time and time again, unsure of what to say back to it. I finally replied telling him I was sorry for getting so upset about it and that I would like it if he would come over tomorrow after I got back from dinner with Brandon. I hadn't seen Jacob since our fight three days ago, and it felt like a really time since he and I had watched a movie and talked about what the pack had been doing lately. It had been even longer since I had been to the reservation.
When Brandon and I started dating, I realized I hadn't done much but spend every day with him, and one day a week I would hang out with Jacob,and one day a week I would hang out with Olivia and Anna. I had felt bad about it, but at the same time, I knew they all understood.
When Jacob came over, I hugged him and asked him if we could go to Emily's.
"I think she would like that. She's been asking when you were going to come visit." Jacob said with a smile. "I think she is cooking pasta tonight."
"Will Paul be there?" I asked, knowing that it would be hard to act okay around him after what he said to my father about Brandon and Jacob.
"He won't say anything, Sam's already talked to him about it, and He knows that if he says anything he won't have it easy." Jacob said.
I looked down, unsure if it was a good idea to go now. "Are you sure it's okay that I be there?"
"Look, Ness, even if Paul was right, or even if he was wrong, it doesn't change the way the rest of us feel about you. We all love you, and you know good and well that you are always welcome there. What Paul said doesn't change that. Nothing ever will." Jacob said as he pushed my bangs out of my face.
I smiled and Jacob opened the car door for me to get in. On the ride there, Paul's words kept ringing in my ear. It was like a replay in my head of the night he and my dad talked.
I was sleeping in my father's room at the Cullen house when I heard a loud bang and then Paul called my father's name. I guess that Paul didn't know I was awake, and that my dad wasn't paying attention to my thoughts. My father greeted Paul, but Paul wasn't interested in just talking.
"Edward, what Renesmee is doing to Jacob is wrong. She knows damn good and well that Jacob loves her, and she's playing him more then you play that damn piano of yours. You need to have a talk with her and set her straight. If you don't do it soon then I will. I'm not going to sit back and listen to how much seeing her with Brandon hurts Jake. He's a god damn human for crying out loud. You know it's not good for her to be with him. Why the hell are you allowing this?" Paul shouted.
"Paul, I think it would be best if you would lower your voice. I'm letting her be with Brandon because at the moment, it's what's best for her. He makes her happy, and even though that may not last forever, her happiness is what matters at the moment. Jacob understands this, and He has already said that he isn't okay with it, but he's accepted the fact, and has come to terms with it. I think it's best if you do the same and just let it be." My father said and then politely asked Paul to leave.
I sat up for about an hour wondering why Paul would say such things, and how he could hate someone so much. Jacob could tell I was thinking about it somehow because he reached over to hold my hand and said, "Ness, I promise Paul won't say anything. I'll talk to him when we get there and you can go in and hang with the girls." He said as we turned onto Sam's road.
Even though I knew things would be okay, I had a weird feeling in my stomach that something would go wrong. I waited for Jacob to come around and open the car door for me like he always does, and then I walked past the pack and answered all the "Hey's" I heard, before walking in the kitchen where Emily, Leah, and Claire were.
"Renesmee!" Claire yelled when she saw me.
"Hey, Claire." I said as I walked over to give her a hug. Ever since she had phased, she's stayed by my side as much as possible, and she never left Embry's, Quil's, or Jacob's. She had really grown up fast, and she's just a few inches shorter then me now. I was envious of her long, soft brown hair that hung down just above her waist.
Emily turned to greet me, and just as she did, we heard the yelling. I rand outside and was just about to run past the porch when Sam stopped me.
"Nessie, get back!" He yelled as he threw his arm in front of me.
"Paul just shut the fuck up! You have no right to say anything about it. It's her choice!" Jacob spat out from a clenched jaw.
"It is my business. When I have to listen to your thoughts about it twenty four seven it becomes my business. I'm not going to sit back and listen to anymore. Just tell her the god damn truth already." Paul said.
"Truth about what?" I asked, confused about he meant.
"God damn it Paul! I should rip your fucking head off!" Jacob said.
"Jake, calm down!" Sam said, but it was too late. Jacob phased at the same time Paul did.
Jacob jumped onto Paul's back and bit down on his neck and Paul slung Jacob off to a tree. Jacob jumped up just as quick and slashed Paul across the face. Paul yelped and slid on the ground. Jacob turned to look at Quil when he yelled something, and just when he did, Paul smashed into Jacob.
I couldn't just sit back and watch them hurt each other, so I ran around Sam and jumped between them. I grabbed onto Jacobs neck and begged him to stop. He looked at me, his eyes pleading with me to get out of the way, and he slung me on his back, but it wasn't fast enough. I felt a sharp sting as Paul's right paw scratched across my right arm and the blood came just as quick. Quil phased instantly and pulled Paul by the neck and dragged him to the woods.
Sam and Emily where by my side instantly and Jacob phased back in the woods and ran up with a pair of shorts on. He held up my arm to examine it and the apologizes came quick.
"Ness, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have acted the way I did. None of this would've happened if I hadn't. I'm sorry." He said with worry in his voice.
"Jacob, it's fine. It's already healing. I shouldn't have jumped in. I knew that something like this could happen. I just didn't want to see you hurt." I said as we all watched the scratches instantly heal into scars, and then the scars were gone even quicker.
"Emily, can you get her in and I'll go check on Paul?" Sam asked.
"No. I think it's best if I take Ness home now." Jacob said.
"I'm really sorry, Sam. I didn't mean for this to happen." I said.
Sam laughed as he said, "You sure are just like your mother. There's no need to apologize. You did nothing wrong. Paul will be the one apologizing when he learns his punishment. As for you Jacob, I think you've had enough punishment. Go on, and Ness, I hope you don't think this means you're not welcome here still. We would love to see you around more. Take care." Sam said just before he phased and ran to the woods.
Jacob and I said our goodbye's to the pack and the girls before we left, and the second we were on the road, I looked over at him and began to talk.
"I think it will be best if I'm the one that tells my dad. Show him what happened. So that he knows it was my fault I got hurt and not yours or Paul's." I said.
"It was Paul's fault though. He saw you there. You know he did." Jacob said as he tightened his grip on the wheel.
"Jacob, what did Paul mean when he said he was tired of standing by and watching me hurt you and you not say anything about it? I want the truth. Please, just tell me." I asked. I really wanted to know, because I didn't want to hurt him.
"Renesmee, I think it's time you knew the truth." Jacob said as he pulled over and got out of the car. I realized we were at the beach, and I knew then that he had something to tell me that just might change things between us, and I worried if that change was good or bad.