Torn Between Two
Renesmee and Brandon have been together for almost a year, but it seems Jacob is constantly getting in the way. When is forced with the decision of who she should be with, she has to decide whats best for her. Can she find a way to keep both in her life, or will she lose one forever?
2. Chapter 2
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I looked at him, wondering what he meant by "It's time you know the truth." I was confused about a lot right now, but I waited for him to explain.
"You have heard the stories of my tribe, about the imprints, correct?" He asked.
"Yes, almost everyone in the pack has imprinted but you and Leah, right?"
"Well, almost. Leah is the only one who hasn't." He paused for a second, trying to find the right words to say. "I imprinted eight years ago."
"Oh, well, why do you never talk about your imprint or see her?"
"Believe me, I talk about her all the time, and see her just about every day."
"Why do I never hear you talk about her, or know her?" I was so confused about this that I couldn't wrap my head around it.
"I talk about her all the time to you. She's all I can talk about to you, and you know her better then everyone else does, because my imprint is you." He said as he held my hand and kissed the top of it. A smile spread across his face and he seemed so happy to finally get the truth out.
"Are you serious? You imprinted on me?"
"I hated the idea that your mom was having a baby that could have possibly killed her if your father and I hadn't been there to save her. The moment I saw you in Rosalie's arms, my thoughts about you changed instantly. You put your hand up to her cheek and showed her an image of me, the first one you had was of me smiling at you with a smile that my face had never known. She handed you over to me, and you laughed for the first time and smiled bigger then ever. Suddenly, I didn't feel gravity holding me to that floor, I felt your eyes and smile holding me. I loved you from that moment on. But at first, I didn't love you the way I do now. I loved you as a little sister. I wanted to protect you from everything that could cause you harm. As you grew older, I started to love you like a best friend, because that was what you wanted me to be. I made sure we did everything we could to be sure you got every exprience best friends did. But now, I love you. I really love you. If you don't feel the same though, then I will be whatever you wish me to be."
I looked up at him, fully understanding now. I didn't know what to do, so I stayed completely still and didn't move at all. I saw him start to move closer towards me, and wasn't for sure what he was about to do. He put his hand on my cheek and gently laid his lips upon mine. He kissed me with so much force, and I wasn't for sure what to do about it at first, but eventually, I kissed him back. Before I knew it, his tounge was in my mouth and we were making out. It all seemed so great, but then I felt my phone buzzing in my pocket.
Jacob sighed, but didn't stop the kiss. He put his hand behind my neck to hold me there. I kept kissing him again, knowing that whoever the call was from would either call back or text me soon. I felt the buzzing stop, and right about then, Jacob put more into the kiss. He picked me up so that I was stradling my legs on each side of him. I pulled on his short black hair, and he pushed me to a tree so that my back was against it. I was even with his level, which made the kiss so much better.
I felt his hand start to move from the tree to my side, and he moved his hand from the top of my side, all the way down to my hip. He moaned in my mouth, and it simply drove me crazy. Jacob and I had kissed before, but nothing ever like this. I was getting so turned on just from the kiss, that it was unreal. Brandon and I had never even kissed like this.
He gently bit my buttom lip, and it made me moan. I was glad there was no one within a three hundred mile radius from us or I would have been embarrased. He bit my lip again, which caused me to buck my hips, and when I did that, I felt how turned on he was as well. He seemed to like the way I felt leaning against him because he moaned and it made me go crazy. I dropped from around his waist and pulled him down to my level.
Before I knew it, we were laying on the ground. I pulled him down on top of me, and I could feel him between my legs. He moved the hand that was on my hip to the bottom of my shirt. His hand started to move up and down my stomach, stopping a little higher each time, and before I knew it, he was holding my breast. He slid his hand under my bra, and the warm feeling of his skin on mine felt so good that it made me arch my back, and when I did so, I felt him touch me. It made me moan.
I wanted his shirt off right then, so I pulled it off of him as quick as I could. My next step was the pants. I started to unbutton them as his lips made their way to my neck to kiss and nibble. I had just got his pants down and started on his boxers when my phone started buzzing again, and we both sighed, finally giving up.
I reached into my pocket to retrieve my phone to see that it was Brandon. Shit! I had forgot that we had a date tonight! Dammit! I was so screwed. He was going to hate me if he found out what I was doing. I couldn't answer the phone right now. Not here with Jacob, while I was doing this. Shit what had gotten into me?!
I buckled my bra and then put my phone back into my pocket and started walking out of the woods. I needed to get home, and fast. I had to think of something to tell Brandon, but all I could think about was what I had just done. Jacob started running after me, and turned me around when he had reached me.
"Wait, so that's it. You make out with me and shit and then you just run back to him?" He asked.
"Jacob, that was really irressponsible of both of us. I'm with Brandon, and nothing will change that." I said.
"You can't tell me that you didn't feel something back there. Something he never makes you feel. I love you, Ness. He doesn't."
"Don't you ever say that, Jacob! He does love me! He does!" I screamed.
"And I love you. There's always one that loves more then the other, and between the two of us, it's me! I've been here longer, I know you better, Ness. You can't do this. You can't say that you don't love me too. If you tell me that you don't, then I'll understand, I'll accept the lose. But you have to. I can see it in your eyes. You love me." He pleaded.
"I do, Jacob, I do. But I love him more."
"I don't believe that. If you loved him more, then you wouldn't have done that!"
"I didn't know what I was doing. I was incoherent of the situation. I got caught up in the moment. That's all. That doesn't mean that I don't love him though." I said.
"Ness, that's not true. You love me. Right? You love me?"
"I do, but it's not enough. I'm sorry, Jacob. I understand if you don't want to see me again. I'm sorry." I ran off to the woods, and made it to my house faster then ever. I reached for my phone and called Brandon back, and told him I was in the shower when he called and that I would be ready in half an hour.
I got in the shower, put my clothes on, had my make-up and hair done, and was down the stairs just as he arrived. I had to tell him about the kiss between Jacob and I but I didn't know how or when I would. I opened the door and ran through the rain to Brandon's car. I shut the door and leaned over to kiss him.
"So what's the plans for today?" I asked as we started driving off. We drove down the winding road from the main house to the highway, going into Forks.
"We, my dear, are going to eat with my grandma today, and then I have to play with Chase like I promised him. After that, the evening is ours." He said as he smiled.
He and I had ate dinner with his grandma so many times, that by now, she knew all of my favorite foods. I never had to pretend to eat anymore. When we arrived at her house, I could smell chicken and rice from the car before I had even opened my door. I looked up to the yellow, two story house with white window shutters to find his grandma sitting on the porch swing while his three year old brother was playing with his racecars at the other end.
Chase threw the cars down as he raced towards Brandon, jumping into his arms. Chase was all Brandon had besides his Mom and grandma since his father bailed on them after Chase's birth. His grandma stood from the swing, automatically giving Brandon hell.
"Did you just make Nessie open her own door? Your gentlemen side is slipping these days I see. Come on in now, Chase. Supper should be done in a few. We could all sit at the table while we wait." His grandmother said as she ushered us all in.
His grandma had always been polite, and talked as if she had forgotten the centery had changed at times. She reminded me a lot of Esme with how well she treated her guests, even if they were family, she always made sure they were more comfortable here then they were at their own home.
I enjoyed the many dinner's Brandon and I had with her, and the play times we had with Chase afterwards. They were memories I would always hold dear. As much as it was on my mind, I couldn't tell him that night. I tried many times to get the courage to do so, but everytime, the words caught in my throat behind the lump that would bring tears if I dared try to pass it.
I went to sleep that night crying, not sure if it was from fear of hurting Brandon, myself, or the fact that I had already hurt Jacob, even though it wasn't on purpose. When I awoke the next morning and analyzed my face in the mirror, I realized it was a good thing I had woken up early that morning, giving myself plenty of time to hide the evidence of any tears falling from my eyes the night before.
Make-up could cover up so much more then zits and pimples these days. I was glad I hadn't ran out of foundation to hide the deep black circles under each eye, clearly marking that there was something wrong inside. I put on the most perfect, "Everything in my life is perfect" mask for school, along with my best outfit before racing down the stairs to my morning breakfast Esme made me every school morning.
When I made it to school, I stepped out of my "brother" Edward's volvo to hear the screaming. The two voices instantly became formiliar, and I had to break through the already huge, but still forming crowd to get to them.
They kept throughing harsh and ugly words back and forth, and I knew instantly by the looks on their faces that my secret was no longer one. I tried to get them to stop, but they only ignored me. Bella tried to pull me away but it was no use. I wouldn't let them do this. I couldn't.
I tried multiple times to calm the two of them down, failing at every attempt. I was useless. I pleaded and begged, but neither acknowledged my presence. They continued to argue, and the further it went, the more I freaked out as the warm tears started to stream down my face. I felt my world jolt as the impact of what could happen hit me.
It was all crashing down before me, and i felt as is there was nothing I could do about it. I felt like I didn't have control over my life anymore. It scared me to think I could be losing everything and that I would never get any of it back. Nothing felt right anymore, and everything was out of place. With Brandon and Jacob, I knew who I wanted, but I was so unsure of the choice I made. My heart wanted them both, and my mind was screaming at me to just leave. To just walk away and never look back, and as much as I wanted to listen to my mind, my heart wouldn't allow me to. I was so scared about what would happen, and my stomach was flipping and turning so much that I felt like I would colapse any moment. My world was spinning so fast, and I didn't see it slowing down anytime soon. As Brandon yelled at Jacob, all i could do was stand there and scream for them to stop as the tears fell, but I couldn't. My voice wouldn't work. And as the hit came, my heart broke. I never saw any of this coming, and I wished I could change it all. I ran to his side and looked up at him. I realized, here, right now, I had to make a decision that would change everything.
The mummers of the crowd were all serious and worried. No one had seen this coming, especially not me. I knew he could get up at any point and be okay, but I wasn't for sure if he could move at the moment. There was no telling how hard his head had hit the ground.
The principle broke up the crowd and asked Edward to call his father right away, but we all knew there was no need for that, yet Edward procited to do so. I stayed by his side, waiting for a breath, a word, a blink of his eyes. I soothed his hair as I waited, quitely apologizing for all of this, knowing it was all of my fault. As the time went on that he was unresponsive, my heart seemed to break more. Finally, he regained his breath and spoke. "Stop crying. I promised you I'd never leave you, didn't I?" He smiled, and I threw my arms around him as I pressed my lips to his forcefully.
"I'm so so so sorry. I promise this will never happen again. I love you too much. Please forgive me."
"All is forgiven. Now, just let me up so I can finish what he started." He stood up and ran over to him, tapping him on the shoulder, and as he turned around, he nailed him in the face. Jacob fell to the ground, just to get back up and phase infront of the entire school, which caused my father to loss his cool, and bite into Jacob, clearly showing he was a vampire, and in less then five minutes, both of my loves were dead, and my family secret was exposed.
I heard a loud, blood curreling scream wake me from my dream, to find the scream had come from me. My mother came in, and I explained it was simply just a dream, and not to worry. As soon as she shut the door, I reached over to my bedside table to grab my phone. I ran through the contacts until I found the number I was searching for and hitting the call button. After three rings, he answered.
"Ness. What's wrong? It's three in the morning."
"Jacob, I know who I want to be with now. I'm sorry it took me this long to figure it out. I know no matter what I choose, someone gets hurt, but this way I don't have to hide anything. I can be myself." I said.
"Who is it, Ness? Who do you choose?"