And Baby Makes Three
Bella has a "normal" pregnancy.
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It's been two days and I'm going crazy. Edward is ineffectively trying to act like everything is normal. He doesn't want to do or say anything until we're completely sure. That means an ultrasound. We can't exactly go to a regular doctor so we had no choice but to talk to Carlisle. He quietly ordered an ultrasound machine and we've been waiting for it to come in. Alice is chomping at the bit, but to her credit she's done extraordinarily well at pretending that everything is peachy keen. Although I wouldn't be surprised if she already designed the baby's whole nursery in her mind. Thank God we have a spare bedroom.
We're sitting in my living room watching TV and chatting aimlessly. Edward is hunting with the rest of the family and I'm glad for the separation. I'm glad to be with the one person who's just as happy as I am.
“Alice, do you think everything is going to be okay? With the baby I mean?”
“Everything is going to be perfect.” She states as if it's totally obvious.
“Seriously.” I plead. “I need to know.”
“Do you honestly think I would keep that kind of information to myself? Do you even believe it's possible? You know how transparent I am. Especially with you.”
“Bella,” she sighs, “You have to promise me something.”
“You have to promise me that you'll at least try to relax and not freak out about this.”
“I love my brother, I really do.” She continued as if she hadn't heard me. “But Edward is an overprotective whack job who freaks out if you get a mosquito bite. Never mind the fact that you are now carrying another person inside your body. The more nervous you are, the more nervous he is. The more nervous he is the more time he's going to spend annoying me. And let me tell you, it's really hard to make out with your husband while your brother is sifting through your thoughts looking for information.”
I had to laugh. She was right. “I promise.”
“Everything's going to be perfect.” She states again “And I promise you, Edward is going to love this child more then anything. I know. I can see it already. He's just scared and he gets stupid when he's scared.”
“I'm so excited.” I whisper.
“Me too.” She titters. “Are we past the gloomy part?”
“No more gloominess.” I laugh.
“Good. Then let's move on to more important things.” She pulls a magazine out of the stack she brought over and shows it to me. It's a catalog for Babies R Us. “We have some planning to do!”
I leave behind my favorite sister just in time to see my favorite brother come up the walk. I try to block him, I do. But my brain is filled with fabric samples and wall paper patterns. We lock eyes and he knows.
“Alice..” he starts.
I wave my hand to cut him off. “Don't even ask. She already asked me and I already told her. Everything is going to be fine.”
“Are you sure?” He whines, “You have to be absolutely honest with me so Bella and I can make a game plan.”
“The game plan Edward, is that you and your wife are going to have a baby.”
“This is serious, Alice.” He's begging now. I'd feel sorry for him if I wasn't so annoyed. “This is my whole life we're talking about here. My whole world.” His eyes are burning with intense fear. I've seen him lose his mind over Bella before but this is on a whole new level.
“Boy, you really can be dense, can't you?” I say losing all patience. “Do you think we just tolerate Bella to appease you? Do you really think you're the only one who loves her? We're all invested in this. If it goes wrong we're ALL going to be in pain.”
“I know that Alice. I know how you feel about her. But...”
“Edward!” I cut him off before he has a chance to lose all control. When I see I have his attention I start more softly. “Edward you're wife is pregnant and she's scared. But more then that, she's happy. And she wants you to be happy too. So if you're scared or if you're unhappy then the least you can do is pretend for your wife's sake.”
“Pretend?” He looks at me like I shot him. Not that it would do any harm. “You really think I'm unhappy about this? I want this baby more then anything, Alice.” His voice is so soft that without heightened senses I would have never been able to hear him.
“Then don't stand here telling me, Edward. Go inside and tell your wife.”
He nods his head slowly. And as I go to move past him I give him a quick kiss on the cheek. “Congratulations.”
“Thank you, Alice. Thank you for loving us so much.”
I take the short walk home at human pace. In my mind I see a flash of the vision I've been seeing for days now. I can see Carlisle delivering Bella's baby as Edward holds her close and whispers words of love in her ear. I hear the baby cry and both parents are sobbing with joy. Everything is going to be perfect. I can see it.
I try to organize my thoughts as best I can before I open the door. When I do I'm in awe of what I see. My wife, my precious love standing in front of the stove, hands on her stomach, whispering sweet words to our baby. She looks up when she sees me and smiles a bright smile. It really is true what they say. Pregnant women do glow.
I can smell the eggs frying in the pan as I approach her. I move behind her and place my hands over hers. For the first time in days I feel myself relax and I realize how big a fool I've been. I've taken something so beautiful and painted it ugly out of my own insecurities.
“Love, can we talk?” I whisper in her ear.
“Sure.” Her voice is calm but I can feel her nerves jumping. She finishes cooking as I wait for her on the couch. After she's eaten and her food has settled she snuggles up next to me. “What's on your mind?”
“I want to apologize to you. To him.” I say placing my palm under her shirt on her abdomen. “I've been a fool.”
“No, Edward. You've been scared. It's natural.”
“No, Bella. I've been self depreciating. You see.” I take a deep breath and try to form the words the same way I've practiced in my head. “When I became a Vampire I knew that any chance of me living a normal life was over. I hoped that one day I would find someone to love me, maybe get married. But never in my life did I ever think that having a baby was possible. I thought..” I gulped audibly, “I thought that was my punishment for being what I am. Now it's happened. I'm going to be a daddy and it's turned my perception of my life upside down.”
She smiled softly and a few tears rolled down her cheeks. “You're not being punished, Edward. You may not be human, but you're a person just the same. People have the right to live full and happy lives.”
I nod. “I want you to know that I'm scared and I don't know what to do or how to act. But I DO want this baby. I want him so badly, Bella. I'm just so afraid that it'll be taken away from me that I'm acting all crazy. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry if I ever made you feel like you did anything wrong.”
She's crying now and I kiss her softly on both cheeks. “I just want you to be happy.” She whispers.
“I am happy.” I assure her. “I'm happier then I've ever been, and it's all because of you. Thank you for loving me so much. For giving me such a wonderful life.”
We kiss more passionately this time. Secure in the knowledge that we're both happily looking forward at the birth of our child.