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Meant To Be

Summary:
Bella's life has known great pain. But as her twin brother, Emmett, comes home and brings his roommate, Edward with him. Can Bella let go of her tragic past and find love and trust in another? AH Lemons and mature themes, Cannon Couples.


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5. Chapter 5: You Found Me

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You Found Me lyrics by: Kelly Clarkson
Songwriters: Shanks, John; Dioguardi, Kara

Is this a dream?
If it is please, don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb, until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like when everything's right, I can't believe

You found me when no one else was looking'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion
The ups and the downs and you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me, you found me

So, here we are and that's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back, I'm fading out, all that has faded me within
You're by my side, now everything's fine, I can't believe

You found me when no one else was looking'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion
The ups and the downs and you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me, you found me

And I was hiding 'til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me when no one else was looking'
How did you know? How did you know?

You found me when no one else was looking'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion
The ups and the downs and you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me, you found me

You broke through all of my confusion
The ups and the downs and you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad and the things in between
You found me, you found me

Chapter 5: You Found Me

Edward

Bella cried in my arms for most of the night till I finally got her to let us both up and change clothes, only to lie back down again and her fall asleep in my arms. It was hard for me to lay with her like this and yet there was nowhere else I rather be. I longed to be close to her but had decided that I was going to let her run the show where our physical limits were concerned. I wanted her so badly but, I knew she was not where I was as far as physical relationships were concerned. I wasn't sure if she had pushed that boundary at all, a thought that made me both ecstatic and frightened at the same time. I had never been someone first and had never had to walk someone through to steps. While I was not overly experienced I was definitely more versed than Bella. But I wasn't going to push I could see her fighting it sometimes, she would snuggle into me in bed, rub up against me and when my reaction to her body was felt by her she would blush and pull away. I knew we needed to take this at her pace and I always let her know that we were in no hurry, I would wait forever for her, if that's what she needed, we hadn't really talked about our relationship as far as that was concerned, not as far as are boundaries and what to expect. I knew we would get there, and that it needed to discussed in detail, but, we were taking our time. I was perfectly secure with that. I pushed all the images I had of Bella lying naked and under me out of my head and tried to calm myself. So as I watched her sleep in my arms as I thought about the past couple of days with her.

She had been so open with me, so honest and I had done the same and we were still here, together. We weren't running from our love, from our past, or each other anymore. We had found on another and we dealing and healing from our past, from our mothers, Jake, Rachel, my past girlfriends, all of it, Bella had brought new life and hope into my once dark world. I kissed her temple as I thought over the conversation that she had had with her mother.

I had never heard anyone talk so demeaning to someone, I had been floored that a mother could treat her child that way, especially someone like, Bella who was sweet and innocent and kind. It took all I had to not say anything but I knew that was not what she needed right then. Renee came off as petty and spiteful to me, someone so other worldy compared to Bella, a strange a awful opposite, with the way she had made my Bella cry I didn't know if I could sit quietly through the next encounter with Renee.

When Bella had got off the phone I had made sure that she knew none of it mattered to me, that she was all I cared about and that nothing her mother said or did would ever drive me away. That seemed to soothe her and allowed her to fall into a dreamy sleep. Over the past days I had gotten into a habit of watching Bella sleep and waiting for her to talk in her sleep. Her nightmares had stopped but had now been replaced with new dreams, dreams of me. I knew they were of me because she would call my name in them and tell me she loved me. I felt my eyes to begin to droop and flutter shut when Bella squirmed against me causing me to moan into her hair. I wondered what she could possibly be dreaming of to make her move like that. I didn't have to what long for my answer.

"Edward" She moaned and scooted closer into me. I think if she could have crawled inside of me she would have. I tried to still her movements against me but when I finally stilled her movements hear words hit me to the core.

"Edward, please… touch me"

I gasped and pulled her closer I wasn't sure what her dream looked like but it had me and her in positions I was sure that I wanted to explore. But we couldn't start this part of our relationship this way. I laid there for another moment while she moaned and hummed against me. I regretful unwrapped my arms around her and slipped from the bed. I tucked the covers around her and went to the en suite bathroom in my room to relieve to pressure building in my groin from her dreams. After I had taken a shower, I crawled into bed and had my own dreams of Bella and me.

I woke the next morning to sun filtering in through the window. I got ready for the day and made my way down stairs to the kitchen. Bella, Rose, and Emmett were all down stairs eating breakfast. Bella looked up from her cereal bowl, when she saw me her face broke into a heartbreaking smile. My face couldn't help but do the same.

"Good morning"

"Morning" I said smiling down at her.

"Sleep well?" she asked, I bent down to her ear and whispered into it. "No, not really, I missed you but, your dreams were driving me crazy"

She turned around to look at me then and I saw the blush creeping across her features I stood back up and headed to get me a bowl of cereal.

"Damn, Bells what did he say to you to make a blush like that, Even I can't do that" Emmett said laughing.

"Ease up on her Ed" Rose said passing by me. "She has done nothing but talk about you all morning and she has a surprise for you today, I would be nice to her, if I were you" Rose went to get her a glass of juice and she turned to smile at me. "I'm so glad you're happy, I've never seen you so… blissful. You're perfect for each other."

I stood there a little stunned, Rose and I had always gotten along but I figured that because we stayed out of each other's way. Rose was raised as a socialite and ran in a big circle back in Chicago, I knew her before she started dating Emmett but, I always thought she was a snob. Our families ran in similar circles, although my parents didn't really care about all of that as much as her parents did. When Emmett brought Rose home I didn't think it would last and I knew for sure she would drive me crazy. But, Rose had surprised me; she loved to work on cars and was the best mechanic I ever knew. I trusted her fully even with my car, which I think she liked to drive more than me. But, when it came to Emmett he calmed her high strung tendencies' down and she was known to just barge in and grab a beer, sit down and watch sports with us, something she never would have done before. In Rose's time dating Emmett, Rose and I had grown close, she always gave her advice whether I wanted it or not and she never approved of anyone I dated. She was like an extremely opinionated, stubborn, and loyal friend, someone I thought of as a sister. Over the years I had grown to recognize Rose as someone who would do anything for her family and she considered me that, and Bella would be her family one day I was sure of that. So when Rose had basically given her approval to Bella and my relationship I knew that not only had I found something precious and slightly fragile but this further instilled that Bella and I were on the right path.

I smiled back at Rose and nodded to her my thanks. Knowing she would take the gesture as I meant it without drawing Bella's attention to our covert conversation. Thinking about Roses comments I knew I needed to place a couple of calls today back to Chicago. I wanted to check in on my parents and Tanya and the girls. I missed them but I was going very fond of Forks and Washington. I think that had a lot to do with the beautiful brown eyed girl looking at me from the stool she was sitting in, with a look of complete love on her face.

I went to sit beside her with my breakfast in hand. "So, what are we doing today?" I said looking at her.

"Well, I need to get some work done, but I thought I would finish the chapter I'm working on editing in the manuscript I'm working on and then I was wondering if you would be up for my sightseeing?"

"I would love that" I said leaning over to kiss her temple.

"Hey Ed, why don't you spend the day with Bells, but let's all got out tonight the six of us ok? Hit the bar in Port Angeles? That ok with you Bells?"

"Yeah that's fine with me; we really haven't all gone out together. I need to call Levi and check to make sure we can go next weekend to the hot springs, make sure the cabins are available."

"I can't wait, I hope there available I really want to do that" Rose said, looking at Emmett with a gooey look on her face.

Bella and I both tried to ignore it, but I couldn't help but lean over and whispered in her ear. "I'm looking forward to you showing me the places you love so much" I said taking her ear lobe into my mouth. I heard a slight moan escape her lip as I heard Emmett and Rose leave the kitchen but, I didn't look up from Bella's eyes to confirm it. Bella must have heard then leave to because she was off her stool and standing between my legs in a flash.

She was worrying her bottom lip when she stopped and took my face in both her hands. "Why did you leave last night? What did you mean about my dreams?" She asked with a slight pink hue to her cheeks.

"Do you remember your dream Bella?" I asked wondering if I could find out what she was thinking and dreaming about. "Would you tell me your dreams?" I hoped she would tell me everything like she had already begun to over the past several days.

"I was dreaming about us" she whispered so quietly that if she hadn't been standing right in front of me I would have never heard her.

"I know love, what about us?"

"Us, together… Edward I never felt something like this. I always thought I would know when it was right and just go with it. I thought that Jacob would be my first… but… I have to admit that if this is the feeling, if my every thought is consumed by you, if this is love, which all those things are true, then I never loved Jacob. I want to give you everything, all of me… completely… I've never been able to talk to someone like this to… be this open. There's a freedom with it, my dream was of us… together… intimately… you were touching me…"

I was in awe of this woman her thoughts and feelings were my own and I understood her I thought I had loved Victoria and Lauren but, after feeling this connection, after finding this breathtakingly stunning woman and know knowing it was my arms she wanted, my touch she craved when she couldn't even stand to have any other man touch her. I was struck dumb and humbled. She had literally stumbled into my arms days before and I knew I wanted to shout from the world that she was my girl, my love, my life. I would do anything for her and wanted her so badly.

Bella and I must have been thinking the same thing because at that moment she jumped on the counter top in front of me and I stood she wrapped her legs around my waist and tugged me closer. Her hands finding their way into my hair and massaging my scalp. I wrapped a hand around her hip and scooted her closer to me so our bodies were completely touching she molded to me perfectly, like we were made for each other, my perfect match. I took my other hand to her cheek and lightly rubbed my cheek across her cheek bone. We both moaned at the contact as our lips touched in the most passionate kiss.

She pulled my top lip in as I pulled her bottom lip into my mouth, after a moment she released her hold on my lip and ran her tongue on my bottom lip asking for permission, to which I happily granted, when out tongues touched we moaned again and I pulled her closer to me, we were pressed so firmly against each other that I could feel her curves and the panting in her chest. I released her mouth so we could both breathe and made my way done her neck with sweet open mouthed kisses.

"I love you" I said my own panting breath giving away to my passion for this woman. Bella moaned at this statement and rolled her hips into me causing the sweetest of friction to occur as she grazed up against my erection. Her movements stilled when she felt how hard I was for her and she pulled back and looked at me.

"I love you too" She panted "I'm sorry Edward… I…"

I looked into my loves eyes and saw embarrassment and love. Had I pushed her too far? What had caused this look in her eyes? I should have stopped this before it got to this point. I should know to take things slow with her. But she had looked like she had wanted this too. Had wanted me.

"Bella… what's wrong love?"

"I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, to make you…" her blush began to deepen as I realized what was going on in her head. Before I could confirm my thoughts Bella spoke in a whisper "Is that why you got out of my bed last night? Because I couldn't control my dreams… I'm so sorry… I made you…"

"Yes I got out of bed last night to give you privacy for your dreams and to find some… re… release of my own. You dream quite vivid, but Bella I shouldn't have gotten carried away your not ready for this yet, I should have stopped it I'm so sorry"

She pulled my face to her and kissed me again. When she pulled back from the kiss she had a smile on her face that light up the room "I'm glad I can do that to you, I want to explore this with you, for us, I'm ready, you have broke down all of my defenses and ever since you have found me I can't get the thoughts out of my head I want to know everything about be complete with you… be a part of you. Your right, maybe we need to take this slow, gradually, but, next time stay with me, I want to know what I do to make you feel the way you do. I love you and want to be with you… in every way, don't doubt that never doubt that... I just don't know how you're going to have to show me" she said the last words looking down at her hands. Then she looked back to me, with a question in her eyes. "Do you want me that way?"

I laughed at that. "Love, I think it's obvious that I want you, but slow is key." I said, taking a deep breath I thought it best to change the subject. "Now what do you have planned for us today?"

"I want to show you some things and I have a surprise for you. I need to call my dad's friend Levi about the springs and all Alice about tonight and get dressed. I will meet you back down here in an hour or so ok?" She said scampering off only to turn around and come back to face me. Leaned up on her toes and pressed a sweet kiss to my lips. "I love you, go get ready ok?"

"Ok love, I meet you down here when I'm done"

Picking up my phone and heading downstairs to the front porch I sat in the swing and scroll down on the screen to find my parents house number. As the dial tone turned to a ring I took a deep breath I never thought I would have this much to share with my parents on days into being here. I was worried how they would take to the fact that in just a matter of a week I had fallen in love with an amazing woman who loved me just as much as I did her.

"Hello" my mom answered knowing it was almost lunch time back in Chicago.

"Hey mom it's me" I said smiling

"Oh honey, how is it? How Em and Rose? Is his family still putting you up or did you find a place yet? How are Port Angeles and the hospital? Tell me everything"

"Geez mom one question at a time" I took a deep breath and answered her questions. "It's wonderful here the climates nice, the people are wonderful we are getting out today seeing more of the little town that Em's dad lives in. Em and Rose are great head over heels as always. I'm still at Charlie's I really love it there. I haven't gone to the hospital next week that and finding an apartment are on the list next week." I went on and on about Alice and Jasper, how great Charlie was the places in the town I had already that I really enjoyed. I talked and she listened. I hadn't mentioned Bella yet. But my mom knew me better than almost anyone else could tell I was withholding information.

"You're leaving something out Edward, I can tell. Everything sounds wonderful we will have to come for a visit. But what aren't you telling me?"

"Well… I met someone, someone very special to me." It felt better to say it out loud. In reality I wanted to shout to the world that Bella was mine and that she loved me. But, I wasn't sure how mom was going to take that news. She was an even tempered, gentle, and kind woman but she like all the other women in my life absolutely despised my past girlfriends.

"Edward… you didn't take Lauren back did you? I mean she called here looking for you the other day but I didn't tell her anything."

That shocked me Lauren had called my parents house looking for me? Why?

"No, mom it's not Lauren, you all were right about her I want nothing to do with her. But why would she call your house and not my cell?"

"I don't know honey she just said that she tried to call you to apologize and the line would never connect she figured you blocked her number or something. But I didn't tell her anything. Tell me about this new special person in your life Edward."

"Bella" I said breathing her name and feeling complete peace "She is Emmett's twin sister I know you've heard him talk about her. She is amazing and wonderful and absolutely stunning mom. She is coming home with me when I visit at the end of the summer before I start at the hospital. I think you will really like her mom. I can't wait for you and dad to meet her, Tanya and the girls too." I said in a rush hoping that if I got it all out she wouldn't sidetrack me in my thoughts.

My mom was silent for a minute. I was worried. Did I throw too much on her? Would she discredit Bella before even meeting her? Surely not, Esme Cullen didn't have a bad bone in her body as long as you didn't hurt her children, if you made that mistake well... you were on your own she could be vicious. The silence was killing me I had to say something.

"mom?"

"I'm hear honey, I just never heard you talk about a woman like that Edward are you in love with this girl? After only a week?"

"I was in love with her after only a day, maybe even the moment I laid eyes on her. I can't stay away from her mom, and I don't want to and she doesn't want me to either, our connection is equally potent on both sides we both love each other."

"Oh Edward, I am so happy for you! I was waiting for the day that you would get sweep up in the love of someone that deserves you. I have heard Emmett talk about her before, she sounds like a lovely girl. I can't wait to meet her I'm sure your father and I will love her too. And if she loves you like you do her than Tanya is going to be so happy for you. You know that's all we have ever wanted for you"

I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I like a two ton elephant was finally out of the room and I could breathe again. I talked to my mother a little longer about Bella, some of what she had been through. My mom's heart went out to my girl immediately, she felt for her and told me to be careful with her not to push too hard. To enjoy being in love. I told her that I planned on savoring every minute. We talked about dad and the hospital some more till I finally said goodbye telling her I would call her next week. I knew now that I had one more call to make, I just hoped it went as smoothly.

"Hello" I heard my best friend pick up the line while I heard two little girls playing in the background.

"Heya, long time no hear, how's my girls?"

"Edward, hey, we're all fine. How are you? What's going on in the state of Washington?"

I knew this was my opening when it comes to Tanya it was best to just get it out there so I took a deep breath and jumped in.

"Well, for me being in love works. I don't start the hospital for another two months and well I get off the plane and fall in love with the first girl I see, which happens to be Emmett's sister Bella," I said in a hurried rush.

"Edward, in love are you sure?" This was new; I just knew she was going to give me shit and start saying how we would see. But I had never told my best friend or my mother for that matter that I was in love with a girl.

"Very sure, and she loves me in return, is real Tanya, I've never fallen so hard, so fast, or been so sure of anything in my life, Bella is it for me."

Tanya was silent for a moment then I heard her speak to the girls and heard the car door shut. I could only assume that she had put the girls in the car and was standing outside of the car talking to me, so she wouldn't be overheard with whatever she had to say.

"I'm happy for you Edward, have you called your mom yet and told her?" Tanya said I could hear the smile on her face.

"Yes, she can't wait to meet Bella. We will be back at the end of summer. I want you and the family to meet her too" I said smiling hoping that my best friend would love my Bella as much as my mom already did because she makes me happy.

"She makes you happy, I can tell. That's all I've ever wanted for you. I can't wait to meet her. Send a picture will you? Let me know how things are going, the girls miss you and can't wait to see you."

"I miss them too and I will" I said, telling Tanya everything that we had been doing and about going out his evening, she told me the girls had started piano lessons but missed hearing me play. If I was being honest I missed playing too. I talked to my best friend for another twenty minutes as we caught up on what the other was missing by being so far apart. Everything seemed to fall into to place. Like where everything that concerned Bella and was just seemed so easy like I had found my home and I belonged here with her, with my Bella.

BPOV

I got in the driver side on my rusty old pickup as Edward went around to the passenger side after opening my door for me. This morning had been hard to wrap my head around. Last night I had been so upset and hurt with what my mother had said to me, that I had fallen asleep in Edward's arms. But my dreams well… they were different and wonderful. I felt all kinds of attraction the Edward but, I couldn't seem to slow down, keep my head out of the clouds, I guess you could say. But, what was even more strange and wonderful was that Edward felt the same. He loved me unconditionally and with a passion just like I did and I just didn't know how long slow was going to work for us. Nothing had been slow for us.

Edward and I were quite in the truck. It was the good, comfortable quite. We were both lost in our thoughts it looked like.

I cranked to truck up and made my way out to the little house on the outskirts of town. I was excited to give this to him and I just hoped that it was going to be ok that he would be alright with it. I hadn't been to grandma Swan's in weeks. My grandmother had died six years ago, mine and Emmett's junior year of high school but she had left the estate to me and Emmett. She had always been a saver and well when she passed and the will was read. She had left Emmett and I a small fortune, enough to pay for college and if we invested well –which we did- then we would never really have to work we could travel and do whatever we wanted. The house was left to the two of us but, I had bought out Emmett's half in the place so I could have a place of my own when I got older. Emmett liked newer style things and I had always admired and loved this home. I had spent so many hours in that house playing and singing. I just couldn't part with it. So I paid someone to keep the lawn mowed and the inside clean while I was away at college. When I moved home I thought of giving my dad privacy from my craziness and my nightmares. But, my dad wouldn't hear of it and it seemed like a good idea to stay with my dad. But, I still came by here every couple of days to play on the piano, dust and make sure the place was in its usual form. This place was my sanctuary; I had never really shared it with anyone. But I wanted to share it with Edward. I pulled into the drive and saw the little white house with its wraparound porch, rocking chairs and swings.

"Bella?" Edward said pulling me out of my thoughts

"Yeah?"

"Where are we?" I smiled

"I am bringing you to a place that holds great comfort to me. Do you remember what I told you about my Grandma Swan and her leaving me and Emmett a house and the rest of her estate after she died?"

He nodded and I took that as a cue to continue.

"Well, I brought the other half of the rights to the house from Emmett after we found out about it and I have used it as my safe place ever since"

"This is your grandma Swan's house? Your house?"

"Yes, and I have something I'd like to share with you will you let me?"

"You can share anything with me Bella, everything with me" He said with a sincere look in his eyes, eyes that I just wanted to fall into, arms that I wanted around me forever.

I shook my thoughts and grabbed his hand. I led him to the door grabbing my keys out of my pocket. The front door was one of my favorite features of this old home because the huge glass door that let in the morning light and it would always glisten off the mahogany stair case that led up to three bedrooms upstairs. I opened the door and Edward's jaw dropped I walked him around showing him the house. The kitchen was spacious but not as big as my dads; the master bedroom and bath were on the main floor and were right of the stairs to the left. I showed him the back yard and the garden that my grandmother was so fond of, that I had made sure someone attended too. It was time for my surprise and I was a little nervous when we got back into the house to the kitchen I made Edward close his eyes as I lead him into the parlor which was right off of the living room.

"You can open them now" I said as I sat down on the piano bench. The piano had been a wedding gift to my grandmother from my grandfather. It was a cherry baby grand piano that I made sure always stayed in tune. Emmett had never wanted to learn to play but, I had and so I had spent most of my childhood and youth sitting in this very spot playing classical, rock, really anything I could get my hands on.

"Oh my god" Edward said stuck almost speechless.

"You said the other night that you played. I acted like I didn't because I wanted to surprise you. Now you have a pace to play anytime you want." I said with a smile so glad I could give him so much joy. "Will you play for me?"

"Yes, of course." He said coming to sit beside me. "What would like to hear?"

"I'm up for anything, surprise me" I said with a smile.

I gasped as I recognized my favorite tune as it crossed my ears. Edward stopped and looked at me. "Bella? You alright?"

"Yes, more than alright, that is one of my favorite songs, one of the first ones I truly learned to play, please don't stop"

He smiled and turned back to keys, Edward played for hours and there was very few songs I did not recognize and one point he asked me to play for him and I did he seemed as entrapped by my playing as I was his.

After a while we moved to a lounge chair that was in the corner of the room just enjoying being in each other's arms away from everything, in our own little bubble.

"Why don't you live here?" Edward asked breaking the silence

"Oh, I don't know I thought about it once, you know, to get out of my dad's hair, so he wouldn't have to see the pain that Jacob had put me through, so he wouldn't have to hear my nightmares. But, he begged me to stay so I did. Now I'm glad that I did" I said smiling up at him.

"What do you think he would say if you decided to leave now?" He said with a look I didn't understand.

"I think he would be ok with it, you've made me like a new woman, I use to not be able to talk about anything, and you've made me open up. We're going out to a bar tonight I have done that in almost a year. You make me feel safe, I feel like I could do anything as long as I have you"

"I feel the same, I love you Bella"

"I love you too"

"Do you ever see yourself living here?"

"Yes, but I don't think I would want to live here alone. It's not too far from Port Angeles only twenty minutes; I love this place, could you see yourself here?" I knew my life was his life, if he was to be a part of it, wouldn't make him live somewhere he didn't want to be."

"It's wonderful here, I love it here, but what makes it so wonderful is that you're here. Where ever you are so I will be." My heart swelled with his words and it gave my confidence. I turned in his arms and brought my lips to his, he meet my kiss with immeasurable love and abandoned passion. We wrapped ourselves around one another simply taking in the others taste and reveling in the new found closeness. Neither pushing for anything more than what we had already explored, just content to be caught up in one another. I pulled away first there was something that had had to ask.

"So do you really need to look for an apartment? You could live here. I could stay at my dad's if you're not comfortable; I don't want to push us too far. But you could stay here, you would need anything and it would help me with the up keep."

"Bella, I… "

Too soon I should have not said anything but the thought just popped into my head and I couldn't help it the idea of having him here close to me. Maybe even with me. Well, it was too much not to press the issue.

"I'm sorry Edward, I shouldn't have…" Two fingers ghosted over my lips effectively shutting me up.

"Let me finish Bella, I would love that but, don't you think that's taking too much from you, and to soon. It wouldn't be right to live here and you not be here."

"I want to be here but, I don't want to push, I just… am scared about Port Angeles and work and the hospital, there all really big steps and I think if I can keep you with me close to me, then that might make things easier. But, then I feel like I'm smothering you, I don't want that either, so I'm sorry just forget that I said anything" I said looking at my hands and trying to will the red out of my cheeks

"Bella look at me" I snapped my eyes to his and saw nothing but blinding love. Love that was meant for me.

"I don't want you to be scared of me moving. But this house brings up good possibilities I would like to think about it ok. We have time." He said taking a deep breath but his eyes never left mine. "Bella, love, I know we have some big things coming, but I want nothing more than to share everything with you. We will be fine I promise as long as we love each other and continue to confide in one another everything will work out. Bella, you could never smother me, baby, I can't get enough of you. I want you and need you close I just don't want you to regret moving too quickly ok?"

I nodded. I could never regret anything when it came to me and Edward and our love for one another. But he needs me to be sure and because of that I would make sure to take the time for him to know that anything we ever did or are going to do would never be regret.

"I love you, but we need to get going, so we can get ready the pixie is going to have a fit if they get there and were not ready to go"

"Ok love lets go, and thank you for my surprise it means more to me than you will ever know"