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Undying Love

Summary:
When Edward left in New Moon, Bella finds out she's pregnant. But carrying a vampire's baby isn't going to be easy! What will she do? Will she survive? Will she ever see Edward again? SM Pregnancy Image Hosted by ImageShack.us


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15. Chapter 15

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*Edward’s POV*

Carlisle’s thoughts were blank for a fraction of a second as he processed what I had just said.

It’s an interesting idea, but will it work? Carlisle thought.

“It doesn’t matter!” I yelled, smashing my fist into the wall and leaving a dent. “You’re not going to get a chance to see if it works or not, because I’m getting that thing out of her. And no member of this family, including Rosalie, is going to stop me.” Carlisle placed a restraining hand on my shoulder.

You need to keep your voice down.

“Why should I?” I spat. The love of my life was slowly dying down stairs, and all Carlisle could think about was keeping my voice down. He obviously didn’t care about my wishes and feelings or he would have gotten that thing out of her by now!

Because Bella will hear you if you continue to shout like this. And in her current condition, we need to keep her stress to a minimum.

I closed my eyes and took an unnecessary shaky breath. I had to calm myself down for Bella. Although I had been to medical school twice and was capable of performing the procedure by myself, I didn’t want to risk anything going wrong with Bella. And what if the call for Bella’s blood was stronger than my control? Even if I did feed I knew I still wouldn’t be able to resist. I needed Carlisle’s help.

I opened my eyes and looked Carlisle in the eye.

“I need your help, Carlisle,” I whispered. “I can’t watch Bella die in front of me, especially knowing it’s all my fault.”

It’s not your fault. None of us knew that this would happen. I didn’t think to warn you.

“Are you going to help me?” I asked irritated. Carlisle sighed.

I can’t ignore Bella’s will. It wouldn’t be right to make such a choice for her, to force her.

My dead heart sank. He was my only hope, and he wasn’t going to help me.

“You’re going to let her die,” I stated.

I will do everything in my power to ensure that doesn’t happen.

"It's not enough!" I whispered, anguished.

Why would Bella endanger her life like this? I didn’t think she wanted children as she was always begging me to change her. Maybe she thought she could still have children even if she was immortal.

How could I be so stupid? I left to protect her, remove her from any possible connection of my world. Instead, I brought her closer to it than I thought possible. My voice became low and forlorn as I had a revelation.

"Carlisle, she's keeping it because of me, isn't she?"

I believe that it was part of the reason.

I nodded slowly. If I was there from the beginning, and never left, I could have made her see sense.

But she’s grown attached to it now. I don’t believe you will be able to talk her out of such a big decision.

Using my fist again, I made another dent in the wall to vent my anger.

Please, Edward. You need to control your anger. Bella doesn't need this right now. I know all she wants is to be with you and your baby, as a family. Now pull yourself together and go and spend some time with your soul mate. We don't know how much longer she will last. So grant her this wish.

Carlisle placed a gentle hand on my shoulder.

“Do you think she will survive?” I didn’t want to know the answer.

I think it’s an even chance at this moment. Although I strongly believe she won’t survive this human, he thought sadly.

His thoughts drifted to Bella, cold, white with crimson eyes. I cringed and went on to my next question. I had to accept that Bella may not be human for much longer. I needed to help Bella get through this.

“How are you going to help her?” I asked in a broken whisper.

Your idea about the fetus’s diet seems interesting. We have some spare blood that we were keeping for Bella, just in case.

“How are you going supply the…fetus with the blood?” I asked. It would be hard calling the thing that was killing Bella a baby.

I don’t think we will have enough time to come up with something creative. I think the best way is for Bella to have it. Then hopefully the fetus will also receive it.

I was horror-struck. Carlisle’s thoughts became pictures as he confirmed what he had just said. Bella drinking the blood.

“You’re going to make her drink it?” I said somewhat disgusted.

I believe it’s the simplest way.

I was speechless, I couldn’t think of anything to say. I saw my sickened expression in Carlisle’s thoughts.

What if it helps her? He thought, trying to persuade me. I nodded.

“Can I just…have a moment with her, to apologize?” I needed to apologize for a lot of things.

Of course, if you could suggest the idea of the blood?

I nodded, took a deep breath, and composed myself for the journey ahead. I murmured a thank you to Carlisle and sped down stairs to the side of my fragile Bella.

She looked…frightened. She was lying on her side facing me hugging her stomach. Rosalie was crouched over her protectively and Esme was sitting on a chair that had been pulled up to Bella’s bedside. I nodded towards Esme.

You are not going to harm this baby, Rosalie snarled in her thoughts.

“I’m not Rosalie,” I murmured. “Can I please talk to Bella alone?”

Rosalie hissed. I sighed.

“You’re welcome to wait outside,” I said looking at Esme as well.

Rosalie looked at Esme confused then to Bella.

“It’s okay Rose…” Bella slurred, but then her forehead creased. “Could you wait outside the door though?” Even Bella didn’t trust me. I looked down.

Esme stroked Bella’s hair before turning to leave the room. She touched my shoulder before she left. Rosalie was still unwilling to leave, her thoughts were uncertain. I gestured towards the door.

I’ll be listening, she warned before she left. I closed the door. I sat in the chair next to Bella. She was struggling to keep her eyes open, worry still present in them. I didn’t know what to say.

“I’m not going to hurt you…or the baby,” I said. She relaxed a little. We stared at each other for a few moments.

“I’m sorry,” I started, slowly taking one of her hands in mine. She looked confused. “For leaving you…and for leaving you like this,” I glanced at her stomach, then back to her face. “And for lying,” I murmured.

“Lying?” she gasped. I nodded slowly.

“What I said that day in the forest,” she cringed, “was all a lie,” I said. She looked even more confused.

“I never stopped loving you Bella, I left to protect you. With what happened on your birthday…” We both grimaced. “I realized that it was too dangerous for you to be around my kind.” She shook her head gently.

“But you said…” she slurred.

“Bella, everything I said that day was a lie, the biggest lie I have ever told. I still love you and I promise to never leave you again…I just need to know if you feel the same way about me…” I asked gently.

“The way I feel about you hasn’t changed, and never will…” she spoke slowly.

“Thank you,” I murmured. I slowly leaned over and kissed her softly on the lips. My thirst threatened to take over so I quickly leant back.

“You’re thirsty,” Bella guessed, obviously seeing my black eyes.

“I haven’t been hunting as much as I should be,” I confessed.

Bella gasped suddenly as her back arched backwards, squeezing her eyes shut. I could tell she was trying to hold back a scream. After a few moments she relaxed and returned to lying on her side.

“Bella…” I asked worriedly.

“He was just…stretching…he’s just a little bit big.” She shrugged. I suddenly remembered.

“I’ve thought of something that may help the…baby,” I said. She looked hopeful. “Carlisle and I think that he may have the same diet as our kind…” I chose my words carefully to not upset her.

“Blood…” she gasped. I nodded sadly.

“Carlisle will be down in a minute with some…we were wondering if you’d be willing to-”

“Drink it,” Bella interrupted. I nodded again.

“I know it’s a horrible thing to ask…” I whispered.

“But it will help,” she said hopefully.

“I hope so.” I held my breath and leant in to kiss her forehead. I heard the door open, and caught Carlisle’s scent as he walked in the room.

My thirst suddenly flared as I smelt blood. I clamped my hand over my mouth and nose and stopped breathing, closing my eyes.

Carlisle’s thoughts became apologetic as he left the room. He returned again, this time without the cup of blood.

I opened my eyes and saw that Carlisle had pushed my chair a little away from Bella and was standing in front of me.

“Edward?” he asked carefully. I removed my hand and took a careful breath. I nodded to assure him that I was in control.

“You need to hunt,” Carlisle insisted. I looked behind him and saw Rosalie talking to Bella, explaining what had just happened.

“I’m not leaving her,” I stated. There was no way I was going to leave her, even for fifteen minutes. Every second counted at the moment.

Edward, in the near future I can almost guarantee that there will be a lot of blood with Bella. Carlisle thought sadly.

“If she improves, I will,” I allowed.

Will you be alright while Bella attempts to drink some blood?

“I’ll hold my breath,” I said. Carlisle left the room and I took a deep breath and held it. He returned with the cup of blood. I was sitting about 5 feet from where Bella was, but I couldn’t afford to lose control.

I watched as Rosalie helped Bella sit up, supporting her back with some pillows. Carlisle handed Bella the cup which she took with both hands. She sniffed the straw and grimaced. I wanted to tell her that she didn’t need to do this, but she needed to. It was her…our only hope.

She put the straw in the mouth and sucked. I saw the blood travel up the straw. After a few slurps she removed the straw. She looked at me and must have seen the worry on my face.

“It tastes…good,” she assured me. It tasted good? This was the girl who almost fainted at school because someone pricked their finger.

“That’s excellent,” Rosalie assured her when I didn’t.

Bella continued to finish the whole cup before she handed it back to Carlisle.

“Do you want some more?” Rosalie asked eagerly.

“Umm…sure,” Bella answered. I looked towards Carlisle.

“Maybe we’ll see how that goes down first,” Carlisle said. He quickly left with the cup and I was free to breathe again. I stood up and kneeled at Bella’s bedside.

“How do you feel?” I asked placing a hand on her cheek.

“Better,” she smiled. She did look better. A normal human wouldn’t notice but her cheeks were slightly more flushed than they were, and her eyes were brighter.

“I’m glad,” I said as I kissed her other cheek.

“You need to hunt,” Bella said as I pulled away.

“When you get better, I will,” I promised. I pulled the chair up from behind me, placed it next to Bella, and sat in it. Rosalie’s thoughts were smug.

I took both of Bella’s hands in mine and gave them a reassuring squeeze. I could sense someone behind me so I turned my head. Alice was standing in the doorway with a sad smile on her face. I nodded towards her and turned my attention back to Bella.

I heard Alice gasp, and her vision entered my mind.