Undying Love

Charlie was at Billy’s and wouldn’t be back for a while. If he was here when I left, it would be that much more difficult.

I walked slowly back into my bedroom, carefully because I didn’t want an unnecessary sickness attack.

I pulled out the first pair of clothes I could find and put them on, and tied my hair back in a ponytail.

I don’t know how I was thinking so clearly. I mean, I should be crying my eyes out, but this was all so new.

I never thought I wanted children. I always thought they were noisy creatures who were always dripping something.

But I loved this baby, even if it wasn’t human, and it’s the only part of him I have left.

I carefully dropped to my knees, and searched under the bed for my suitcase.

I grabbed it by the handle and slid it out from under the bed. It got caught on something, and wouldn’t come loose.

Using both hands, I grasped the handle and pulled it as hard as I could. It finally came out, but there was a sound like a piece of wood being dropped.

I looked under the bed to see that a floor board had come out.

I picked up the board, but just as I was about to put it back, something glistened and caught my eye from the hole in the floor.

I put the missing piece of wood down, and reached out my hand to search around the cavity.

I found something hard, and I picked it up.

My breathing stopped when I laid eyes on it. It was a clear jewel case, with pictures inside, along with a blank CD.

Memories entered my mind: my birthday, and how Alice had gone over the top with the party and Edward humming my lullaby as he held me while I went to sleep. And then a more painful memory entered. Me, slicing my finger on the wrapping paper on this very present, and being thrown onto the floor of shattered glass.

I stopped there, and I didn’t realise I was crying until I saw water droplets land on the jewel case.

The pictures in the case were turned over, and, with a shaky hand, I opened the case and turned the pictures over.

The first picture was of him and I in the living room with my hand around his waist. I looked so plain next to him, and it confirmed my suspicions that I was no good for him.

I felt a little nudge in my stomach.

“It’s your daddy...” I whispered.

I started sobbing uncontrollably, and I couldn’t bring my self to look at the other photographs.

I put the photos back and shut the case before putting it on my bed and replacing the missing floorboard.

When I started to think clearly again, questions formed in my mind.

Why did he leave these here? I thought he wanted me to forget him.

It would be as if I’d never existed...

But I couldn’t think about that now, I had more important things to think about.

I picked up my suitcase and placed it on the bed, throwing in random clothes that I could find, along with a tooth brush, tooth paste, and a hair brush.

I zipped up the suitcase before picking up a piece of paper and a pen and starting to write.

Dad,

Something really important has come up, and I had to leave.

I’m sorry for leaving you with such short notice, and that I haven’t said goodbye in person.

I don’t know how long I’ll be gone for, but I don’t want you to try and find me.

I promise I’ll be back as soon as I can, and that I will be safe.

Please respect my wishes.

I love you,

Bella

My handwriting was more shaky than usual, but I hoped he wouldn’t notice that.

I walked back into my room and picked up my suitcase. I noticed the CD on my bed, and quickly unzipped my suitcase and put it in, along with a portable CD player, and headphones.

I walked downstairs with my case in hand and placed my note on the TV hoping he would find it.

I opened the front door and walked out, closing it behind me and putting my luggage in the back of the truck. I got in the front, and drove, not quite sure where I was going.