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Denial...

Summary:
Bella Swan and Edward Cullen are born to be. But when Aro ruler of the Vampire World threatens to kill Edward, Bella has no choice but to leave. How will Edward take to this? Bella tells him she doesn't love him, will he ever know the turth...? (I have a banner made, but does anybody know how to put one up...?)


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2. Tears...

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Edward’s POV

My eyes scanned the parking lot as I searched for the girl I love’s face. Finally I spot her, but instantly I know something is wrong. For a change she is sitting under the shelter at the benches and is alone. She never sits alone. I walk over with a big grin on my face, I go up her and kiss her on the forehead.

“Hello sweetheart, sleep well?” She doesn’t look up, just sits staring at a envelope in her hands. “What that?” Still no answer. “Bella? What’s wrong? Come on sweetheart, your worrying me now.” She still doesn’t look up, but to my relief she answers.

“Can we go somewhere else?” She finally looks up with pleading eyes.

“Sure, where?” I took her hand and helped her stand up. She stood up then pulled away, taking her hand with her. I stared down at my singular hand then looked up to see that she had tears swelling up in her eyes. “Bella! What’s wrong? Please, just tell me!” She turned away from me and walked into the woods just beside the school, taking me to the place we went together, our meadow. She walked to the middle and laid down, indicating for me to do the same.

“Edward, there’s something I need to tell you…” She stared at my face, not taking my hand or leaning into me, this was scaring me now.

“Yes…?”

“Only.. I can’t tell you. I’m going to give you something, and you have to promise me one thing.” I was shaking now, what was she saying? Why was she acting so weird? She was completely and utterly scaring me now.

“Bella, please, your scaring me! Just say or do what you need to.” I was pleading, just hoping she would out me at rest soon. She sighed and then inhaled a deep breath, she placed the envelope into my hand.

“Read this, but only when you get home. Just please, read it carefully, then talk to Alice. Don’t blame her, but she may be able to answer some questions.” She had tears rolling down her face now, I knew this was something bad, something really bad.

“Why are you crying? Bella? Has something happened?” She looked up at me again and then without giving me an answer she ran away. Something made me sit there, and not go after her, I didn’t need to read her mind to know that she wanted to be alone. I sat there for a while longer before remembering about the letter in my hand. I turned it over, the opening was sealed with wax. I couldn’t wait to read it, I couldn’t wait until I was home, I needed to know why she was so upset. I slowly broke the seal and pulled out a few pieces of folder paper. The had indents on them from where she had pressed hard with the pen.

Edward,

I can’t tell you this face to face or over the phone. We have been together for just under a year now. The few months with you were amazing… I loved you so much, loved you more than I have ever loved anybody… but then things changed. Things got dangerous, I was nearly killed several times… When James bit me, my birthday party and then when there was the fight between us and the newborns…

You always used to say that you were dangerous, I always said you weren’t, but I guess deep down I knew you were. I never wanted to believe that you were bad for me… but I guess you were.

When you asked me to marry you, I was overwhelmed. I never thought I was good enough fro you, and I guess it’s true. I don’t want to marry you. I still love you! But not in the way a wife is supposed to love her husband. I don’t want you to blame yourself because it’s not you.. It’s me.

For a couple of months now I’ve been thinking about how you always say you love me. I’ve realised that I don’t love you as much as you love me.. And it feels wrong for you to love me. I’m human, and I know you don’t want me to be like you. But for as long as I’m human I’ll always be in danger. I don’t want to force you to do anything that you think I’ll regret later, so I’m leaving.

When you left after the birthday incident, I did some horrible, dangerous and reckless things. You thought I was dead and then you tried to get yourself killed. I don’t want you to do anything like that again. You need to find a vampire girlfriend and settle down, start a family like what Carlisle did, he’s a great example.

As much as it hurts me to write this; I am. I’m going to get a flight to Florida and move in with Renee. I will tell Charlie that I want to move back… he won’t stop me, he can’t. I don’t love you anymore Edward. I can’t stay here and live through life as if nothing ever happened because it did.

I want you to forget me, forget I ever existed and start afresh. I know it will be hard as you did this to me. I know the pain it causes, and it hurts me to know the pain your feeling. Please, this is my choice so don’t blame yourself. I love you.. As a friend.

Goodbye Edward Masen Cullen.

Yours Truly,

Isabella Marie Swan.

If I could cry, I would have no tears left by now. I knew something was wrong, but I didn’t think it would be anything like this. I just layed there in the meadow, I don’t know for how long. A few days maybe, before I heard the thoughts of a few hunters. I slowly rose to my feet, which were numb from lying down and not moving for so long. I ran at vampire speed towards my house, I knew that everybody would be worried. Unless…

Alice

She knew this was happening! I had to confront her, ask her why she didn’t tell me. After a few minutes the house came into sight. Everybody was standing outside, knowing that I was coming home, probably from Alice. I carried on running, just running towards them. I didn’t have the gut to stop so I just ran past them all, smashed the front door into pieces and run up stairs, slamming by bedroom door with full force. After a few moments I heard a soft knocking on the door. It was Esme.

“Edward, hunny, can I come in?” She spoke with a soft and strained voice.

“Do what you want.” I moaned between sniffles. The bedroom door opened slowly as Esme made her way in, slowly. She came over next to me, by my bed and sat down.

“You gonna tell me what happened?” She asked with a reassuring hug.

“Alice hasn’t told you?” Why wouldn’t she tell them?

“No, she said she promised she wouldn’t tell us, and that it was up to you… Please, Edward, tell us?” I couldn’t be bothered arguing so with a big sigh I gave in.

“Bella… she’s… gone…” I couldn’t hold it in any longer, I screamed and curled up into a ball on my bed, rocking back and forth like a child having a tantrum. I felt two sets of arms around me, trying to calm me down.

“Edward…” I heard Carlisle’s voice, he was trying to stop me rocking, but I was too strong. Edward, please, I hate too see you like this. Calm down, please, your scaring us all. “Esme, go and get Jasper, he may be able to calm him down slightly.” I heard footsteps leaving the room, then two seconds later the same footsteps but with another enter. I heard a soft scream and something fall to the floor. Everyone’s thoughts then went to Jasper, he was trying to control himself, I was hurting him with my feelings. They were so painful it caused Jasper to scream with pain. After a couple of minutes I heard him get up and walk over to me.

Edward, can I help you? His voice was strained and hoarse as he tried to stop himself falling apart again. He always asked permission before trying to help. I nodded my head pleading for him to help me. I felt a sudden wave of calm and happiness go through my body, but then my own feelings burned it away. I felt something wet and warm trickle down my cheek, I put my hand up to it and stopped it’s travels. A tear…

“I’m sorry, Edward. Your emotions are too strong, I can’t overpower them.” I heard him leave the room, not wanting to feel my pain, he knew it would hurt me even more knowing I was hurting him by hurting. Some more tears came out of my eyes, this time Carlisle saw.

“Edward? Are you crying?” His voice was confused, then I felt his hand on my face wiping away the tears. “Edward, your crying!”

“I don’t care!”

“I don’t understand, why are you crying?”

“Just leave me alone! I don’t want to talk about it!” I stretched myself out onto the bed and put a pillow onto my head, trying to block out the noise. You know you can’t block out my voice… Edward, please, we have to talk, tell me what happened! I have to know, I’m your father! Plus, for you to be crying you have to be pretty upset! He thought, plus sending images of myself into my head of me crying. It had been a long time since I had seen me crying, it was a shock. I gasped and slowly moved the pillow, turning my head to face him.

“She’s… gone…” I turned my face back the opposite direction and put the pillow back over my head. I heard Carlisle sigh then walk out of the room, speaking to me through his thoughts. When you’re ready to talk, come talk to me, I don’t have to tell the others, but please, just put my mind at rest. I don’t understand what you mean by ’she’s gone’, I just know that it is extremely upsetting for you, and it’s upsetting me seeing you like this and not being able to help. He paused in the doorway for a moment before adding, Please, come speak to me soon. Then I heard his feet trail down the stairs.