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Crazy Minds & Silly Stupid Love

Summary:
Heart-warming, yet comical love story between two Forks High School students; Edward & Bella. She doesn't want to let him in, and he just can't keep his inexplicable feelings for her at bay, but an unexpected truth threatens to tear them apart. AH, AU. (Has adult rating because of strong language and sensuality in later chapters.) Preview: "Yes, because I can't see myself being with anyone else, but then with you," He sighed, closing his eyes for a moment. "It's like a movie in my head, and I want it. I want it more than anything else, and I want it with you."


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7. Forever

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"Keep me?" I said innocently. Well, that was a bold move, Bella. Way to use your head. Edward's eyebrows rose slightly, pursing his lips in contemplation.

"Smooth, real smooth, Swan." He murmured shaking his head and backing away. You ruined the moment again! The Bella in my head wined, pouting as she stomped her feet and growling in frustration at me. All the while another part of me was shaking in panick. Edward was getting too close, too fast. I wanted to run and push him away at the same time, but knew I couldn't.

Edward muttered something about going upstairs and cleaning up a bit as he quickly stalked out of the kitchen. I stood there still taken off guard by what just happened, and not really quite making sense of it. I wondered into the living room after I cleaned up myself, spotting Alice sitting next to Jasper on the sofa watching an unfamiliar TV show. Alice's head popped up from Jasper's shoulder throwing a bright smile at me.

"Hey, Bella!" She grinned excitedly. I gave a fake smile and sat down on the sofa across from them.

"What's wrong?" She wondered curiously. I shook my head. I didn't want to keep thinking about what happened in the kitchen with Edward.

"Did something happen with my brother?" She guessed. I stared at her stunned. This girl had some crazy intutition going on. Alice rolled her eyes, knowing the answer by my expression.

"Do you think you could drive me home tonight, Alice?" I was hoping she would say 'yes,' and drive me home right now.

"Uhm," Alice hesitated, glancing behind me. My shoulders fell when I looked up to see Edward leaning against the wall staring at me intently.

"I can drive you home, Bella." Edward spoke quietly.

"Fine." I sighed.

"Unless you have a problem with me driving you home?" He accused, although it sounded like a question.

"There is no problem, Edward." I murmured.

"I'll meet you at the car." He said. turning away without another word.

"Why am I getting the feeling I'm missing something?" Alice questioned with a loaded look.

"Because you are missing something, Al." Jasper rolled his eyes.

"Speak, Swan." Alice demanded standing right in front of me.

"Nothing. I just," I paused, glancing back at Alice.

"What Bella?"

"I said something really stupid. That's all." Why the hell was that so hard to say? Alice's brow furrowed in concentration studying me.

"You don't have a hint of a clue do you?" Alice chuckled, smiling slightly.

"You lost me." I told her. Jasper stared at me as though he didn't believe a word I just said.

"I shouldn't be telling you this, but," Alice sighed.

"Let me put it this way, Edward is obvious when he wants to be." Alice told me expectantly.

"Well jee, Alice. That makes no sense." I muttered, a little aggravated now.

"Then open your damn eyes, Bella." She replied frustrated, probably because I didn't understand a word she was saying.

The drive home with Edward was full of tension and silence. Edward's fingers were clenched around the steering wheel so tightly to the point his knuckles were bone white. His face a blank mask while he put all of his focus into driving. We sat silently when he pulled into my driveway. Neither of us making a move to get the elephant out the car. I was the first to give up and went to open the passenger door.

"Bella wait," Edward said quickly, reaching over the console and grabbing my hand.

"What do you want, Edward?"

"I'm sorry for acting the way I did earlier, in the kitchen." He apologized.

"Don't worry about it." I said. Unable to look at him.

"You are not a charity case, Bella." He murmured after a moment. I suddenly realized my hand was still clasped in his. He must have realized it at the same time I did, and pulled his hand away.

I finally gained the courage to look him in the eyes. There was a softness in his eyes I had not seen before. He must be telling the truth right? Cautiously he reached over and brushed a strand of hair from my face trying to hide a small smile. All I could do was giggle and roll my eyes at him.

"Okay, okay. I forgive you and I'm sorry for that stupid comment I made." I told him honestly. He nodded.

"I'll see you at school." He said throwing a cheeky grin at me. I playfully slapped him on the arm before getting out of his Volvo.

"Oh, and Bella?" Edward called.

"I'm keeping you." He said. I couldn't really hear him, but I'm pretty sure there was another word at the end of that sentance. And I smiled as I closed the door and went inside.

I fell asleep that night unable to get three little words out of my head. I'm keeping you.

I could hear something pounding in the distance. Getting louder as it got closer.

"Bells?" I gasped as I realized I was in my bedroom and I had been sleeping.

"Bells, you awake?" Oh, Charlie! He must have been the pounding noise in my dream when he was knocking on my door.

"Yeah, I'm up." I sight, rubbing my eyes.

"Billy and Jacob are goin' to be here soon to watch the game tonight." Charlie told me as he stood leaning against the doorframe.

"Ugh!" I groan rolling over in my bed and throwing the covers over my head. I forgot about Jacob and the fight we got into yesterday afternoon.

"Sounds like a good groan to me." Charlie muttered mostly to himself as he quietly closed my door. Why the hell did I have to worry about Jacob now? Oh right, my head has been Edward infested since yesterday when he called. Damn him! Images of dinner last night at the Cullen's and what was said in Edward's Volvo when he took me home replayed in my mind for the billionth time.

I'm keeping you. What the hell is that supposed to mean anyway? I'm his fricken pet, his dog? Jeesh! Someone is cranky today . . .The devil inside me murmured.

"So, she returns." I mumble to myself, throwing my legs over the side of the bed. I looked at the alarm clock on the side of my bed to see it was only twelve thirty in the afternoon. Why were Jacob and BIlly coming so early? The game doesn't even start until seven, I think. Billy and Jacob knocked on our front door sometime after one. Billy gave me a meaningful stare when he wheeled in. I knew that look. Jacob tried to smile at me apologetically.

"Hey Bells," He mumbled looking at me and then at the floor.

"Can we talk?" He wondered looking back at me again.

"Sure." I said quickly. Anything to get away from Billy's glares. Jacob and I took ourselves for a walk outside after I grabbed my jacket, letting Charlie and Billy know we would be back soon.

"So what did you want to talk about, Jake?" I said, deciding to be the one to speak up first. Yeah, unlike last night with Edward . . .

"About yesterday,"

"What about it?" I wondered.

"What's going on with you and that Edward guy?" He asked, jumping right to want he wanted to get off his chest.

"We're friends." I muttered. Even that was hard to say.

"Just friends?" Jacob asked doubtfully.

"Yes." At least that's what I thought, but Edward on the other hand might have an objection to the term "friends."

"Good," Jacob mumbled. I don't think he meant for me to hear that as he smiled at me sheepishly.

"I'm sorry about what I said yesterday, Bella, and getting into your business, but I just want you to know," He paused and stopped walking. I turned around to face him.

"He sounds like a complete ass to me and I don't want you to date him," He said.

"If you like him in that...way." Jake shook his head looking a bit embarrassed for some reason.

"Okay, thanks for the suggestion." I chuckled awkwardly.

Jacob and I headed back to Charlie's after we talked about Edward and other things that actually had nothing to do with Edward, which was really refreshing. Jacob talked about the boys in La Push and how Seth and Embry want to see me again. I told him a little bit about living with Renee in Arizona and we laughed about Renee's paranoia after watching too much TV sometimes. When we got back it was later than we thought it had been and the game was going to start in a couple of hours. Charlie grilled some ribs and steak on the grill while Jacob and I were gone.

After we reheated some steak and ribs we both sat at the table and ate. I was done eating long before Jake, who I thought could eat like a grizzly bear. Three full slabs of ribs and three steaks that were as big as his hands. By the time Jake was completely stuffed the game was about to start. Charlie asked if I would sit and watch it with them, but I knew I had absolutely no interest in baseball and politely said no, excusing myself from the room. I was laying on my bed reading Withering Heights for the tenth time when my phone started to ring, scaring the crap out of me.

Edward.

"Hello?" I asked cautiously.

"Bella?"

"Edward?"

"Come to your front door please." He told me.

"What? Why?"

"Bella, just do it." Edward ordered.

"You are irritatingly bossy." I muttered as I walked downstairs to the front door. Long and behold when I opened the door there stood the Edward Cullen. You just said "The Edward Cullen," Bella. Shut up, I told myself.

"What . . .how did you . . .why . . .where did you-" I stuttered and stammered, and could could not for the life of me complete a proper sentence. Edward stood there staring at me with a killer smirk on his face that I only wanted to wipe off with my fist.

"I hate to have to tell you this Edward, but it's not my birthday." I said snidely. His wicked smirk only grew wider.

"And I'm not getting married anytime soon, so I'm not like having a bachelor party or anything." Now Edward's smirk turned into a full out shit eating grin.

"Are you done yet?" He murmured

"No, not even close," I shook my head. We were quiet for a moment. The silence almost deafening. I narrowed my eyes looking back at Edward wondering why he was here again.

"Why are you here, Edward?" I asked curiously. His shoulders slouched a bit, and he stared at me warily, unsure.

"I don't know." He muttered quietly.

"Do Esme and Carlisle know you're here?" I wondered suddenly. Edward shook his head slowly.

"I told them I was running to Jasper's for help with some homework." He chuckled rolling his eyes.

"They believed you?" I asked shocked.

"Probably not, but they let me go."

"And you don't know why you came here?" I was oddly suspicious of him. Why was he here? Standing at my doorstep in front of me.

"Do you want me to leave?" No! Don't leave! He asked trying to reassure me he was not going to do anything stupid.

"No, I don't want you to leave. It's just Charlie is inside with Billy and Jake. They're watching the baseball game." Edward tried to hide a smile, unable to look me straight in the eye.

"What?" I snapped. Edward's eyes finally met mine.

"Nothing. You . . .just said you didn't want me to leave." He said slowly. I thought I seen something flash in his eyes, but it could have just been the porch light.

"Oh." I didn't know what to say to that. I didn't even realize I told him I didn't want him to leave, but then it dawned on me that I really didn't want him to leave and I didn't know why that was.

"You said Charlie is inside watching the game?" Edward wondered changing the subject. I nodded.

"Does he check on you often?"

"Sometimes. Only if he thinks I'm up to something. Why?" Edward pursed his lips for a moment lost in thought.

"Sit with me for awhile." Edward told me as he sat on the top porch step and looked back at me. I hesitated staring at him with wide eyes.

"I won't bite, Bella." He smiled slightly trying to be sincere.

"My dad is going to kill me if he sees us out here." I mumbled as I sat next to him. Our legs almost touching.

"He won't." Edward grinned mischievously.

"How would you know?" I demanded.

"Trust me. He won't Bella." We were quiet again, both of us staring off into the distance not sure what to say next. I shivered. Edward noticed immediately and glanced at me from the corner of his eye.

"Cold?" I nodded, putting my hands in my pockets with my arms tight against my sides. Edward shrugged off his jacket and wordlessly put it around my shoulders.

"Thanks." I sighed. I could feel his eyes on me, watching me, but I refused to let him know I knew that. I tried to count some of the stars in the sky, but there were too many. I turned my head to look at Edward without actually giving myself permission to look at him. I froze the moment I did because he was looking right back at me. His hand came up to push a strand of hair out of my face before he suddenly hesitated doubting himself. His eyes still on mine silently asking for permission. This time was different than last night when he pulled the strand of hair out of my face. It was a kind gesture like an apology last night, but tonight this was something else entirely.

Something in my eyes must have given him the go when his fingers brushed against the side of my forehead as he gently pushed the strand of hair out of my face. Time stood still for what felt like hours as his face slowly inched closer to mine. I knew what would happen next, but is that what I wanted to happen? Should I let him? Or should I look away and pretend there is something in my eye. Before I had time to stop him he stopped. His forehead pressed against mine, but his eyes were open now as he pressed his lips to my forehead instead. My mouth fell, stunned he decided to do that.

"Maybe another time then," He smiled, repeating something he had said once before, but seems like so long ago. I was so confused and taken off guard by him. How could he be so light hearted and easygoing about it? He knew and I knew what was about to happen, but then out of no where he changes his mind and goes for my forehead. How could he laugh it off like that?

He put his lips next to my ear and whispered, "I'll wait for you, even if that means for forever."