Crazy Minds & Silly Stupid Love
Heart-warming, yet comical love story between two Forks High School students; Edward & Bella. She doesn't want to let him in, and he just can't keep his inexplicable feelings for her at bay, but an unexpected truth threatens to tear them apart. AH, AU. (Has adult rating because of strong language and sensuality in later chapters.) Preview: "Yes, because I can't see myself being with anyone else, but then with you," He sighed, closing his eyes for a moment. "It's like a movie in my head, and I want it. I want it more than anything else, and I want it with you."
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When Edward pressed his lips to mine everything seemed to stop like the pause button on a remote. It could have been for only a brief second that everything around us paused, but somehow felt much longer than that. Which I was grateful for because I could not for the life of me try to think with Edward's mouth on mine, all I could do was react.
So, I kissed him back and let my brain take a break for a while. Maybe longer, depending how long we can go before running out of breath. Edward's teeth grazed against my lower lip as he began to press little chaste kisses to my mouth before pulling away slightly. Only to hold my face in his hands with his forehead against mine.
"Hmm. You know, now that I've kissed you, I am seriously regretting not kissing you that night in my kitchen." Edward murmured. I gasped in shock looking up at him with wide eyes.
"You were going to kiss me that night?" I asked completely stunned.
"It crossed my mind after you got me with the whip cream." He chuckled.
"Well, that explains why you were looking at me like a piece of meat." I shook my head at the thought. Edward tilted his head at me speculating.
"Do you always think in those terms?" He wondered still chuckling, but now at me.
"What terms?" I retorted.
"Bella. I can tell you right now, I was not looking at you like you were a piece of meat," He smirked. Clearly he was amused with me as he wrapped his arms around my waist holding me to him.
"Oh, what am I going to do with you?" He sighed before giving me another quick chaste kiss.
"I think you already know the answer to that, Edward." I narrowed my eyes at him unamused. He grinned at me wickedly.
"Oh no worries, sweetheart, I plan on keeping you as long as you'll have me." I caught a twinkle in his eyes which I'm pretty sure that means he really likes the idea of keeping me. Good, because I kind of like the idea of him wanting to keep me.
"Does that work for you?" He questioned, trying not to smile.
"Possibly," I murmured before pressing a kiss to his lips.
"Charlie is going to be here soon." I told him pulling away.
"Mmm, well, frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn." He pouted, wrapping his arms around me from behind as I headed toward the porch.
"Gone with the Wind. Nice Edward. You are a real catch, any girl would die to have you." I laughed at him still trying to walk us to my front porch.
"I don't want any girl. I only want one girl." He spoke into my hair before pressing a kiss to my temple.
"Oh really? And who might she be?"
"You." He said after a moment. That caused my heart to flutter and that weird ache crept in my chest again.
"I'm glad." I said turning around to face him as we reached my porch.
"Don't be." He teased. Suddenly we were quiet, not knowing what else to say anymore, and just looked at each other.
"Can I pick you up tomorrow?" Edward asked, looking a little shy. I giggled at him. He is so cute sometimes, right Bella? Edward caught that.
"Did you just giggle at me?" He asked incredulously.
"Maybe." I muttered. Edward raised his eyebrows at me as he walked toward me, leaving almost no space between us. He seemed to be calculating something for a moment before looking at me with a crooked grin on his face.
"That was the most adorable thing I have ever heard." He teased, but I think he was actually being somewhat serious.
"Do it again."
"What?" I shouted, a little too loudly. Has he lost his mind?
"You are nuts." I said as I pointed a finger at him and then he grinned like a goofball.
"That really was adorable, Bella." He said honestly, green eyes soft.
"You are disgustingly gooey for a guy." I said trying not to laugh at him.
"But you love it." He winked. Was he always this hyper? Because I seriously do not recall ever seeing him act like this before. He was too happy, like a ten year old boy on Christmas morning.
"Why are you so happy all of a sudden?" I wondered. I really wanted to know because he was never like this before. Edward sighed, smiling slightly.
"Because I'm with you." He whispered, eyes boring into mine.
"Oh." I didn't know what else to say anymore. Now that I think of it, that has been happening quite often lately when I'm with him.
"You never answered my question, Bella." Edward spoke after a moment.
"Oh sorry, I was thinking. What was the question again?" Edward stared at me for a moment hesitating, but at the same time looking determined. A little V appearing between his brows.
"Okay, I have two questions I want to ask you." He admitted, looking away from me for a moment before his eyes met mine again.
"First question, can I pick you up tomorrow morning?" He asked.
"Yes, if you're going to drive me to school and not kidnap me." I chuckled at my own joke. You are the biggest dork in the world, Bellla. Jeez. Edward nodded rolling his eyes.
"What's the second question?" Edward pursed his lips debating his next words.
"Bella, will you . . . will you go onadatewithme?" He shook his head slightly his breathing shaky. OH MY GOD! He's so nervous. Damn Bella, you have him wrapped around your little finger don't you?
"Did you just ask me on a date, Edward Cullen?" I teased, trying not to giggle at him again. Edward raised his eyebrows persuasively throwing in a crooked grin.
"Hmm. Yes, I will go on a date with you." Edward grinned excitedly.
"Thank you." He said, leaning in to press his lips to mine.
"I'll pick you up tomorrow." He whispered into my ear before turning around to go to his car. I watched him leave with one last wave goodbye. As soon as he was out of sight I ran into the house running upstairs to my room to squeal into my pillow like a girl. Yes, I know I was pathetic, but I could not help it; I had a date with Edward. Shortly after Edward left, Charlie came home while I was cooking dinner.
"Smells good, Bells." Charlie said, walking into the kitchen.
"You like speghetti right, Dad?" I'm pretty sure Charlie likes just about anything, well, fast food being the only exception.
"Uh duh." I snorted, rolling my eyes. I should have known better not to ask.
"So, how was your day today?" Charlie wondered, trying to make small talk.
"Uh, it was good." I said simply. Yeah, I was not telling Charlie about Edward tonight. That was a conversation I'd have with him another day.
"Well, you look a little," Charlie paused, studying me for a minute. Oh great! Nice going tiger, you can't hide anything from anyone can you?
"Jumpy." He decided looking at me suspiciously.
"Do I?" I asked rhetorically. Oh yeah, deceptive, Bella, really.
"So, how are your classes going?" He asked, deciding to change the subject. I froze with wide eyes at the mention of school. Oh shit, school tomorrow, with Edward. Somehow I managed to forget that he was driving me there tomorrow. Oooh! I can smell all the juicy rumors already! Somebody, please, shoot me now.
"Oh, they're going pretty good." Yeah, the last thing I wanted to talk about right now were my classes and how I was doing in those classes. I already knew I had all A's and B's, so Charlie had nothing to worry about. Charlie nodded grabbing a beer from the fridge going into the living room. I stuck my tongue out in disgust when I heard Charlie put the game on.
I snuck up to my room after dinner and fell onto my bed, letting my mind take over like it was so desperately begging. I must have fell asleep at some point because I woke up sometime later to my phone vibrating on my desk. I groaned, maybe a little too loudly as I pulled myself up from bed, reaching over to grab my phone.
1 new message!
I opened my phone and pressed view message(s).
I miss you. I know it's probably too soon for me to be telling you this, but it's true.
I read the message over again. And again, and maybe once more. Okay, Edward was getting way too many plus points today. He could lose the plus points as fast as he got them, Swan. Don't let me ruin your moment though. Obviously, you are enjoying the fact that you have his affections. For now.
Self doubt. I shook the thought from my head as I typed my message back to him.
You should have said it's too late to be telling you this now. It's three a.m, and . . .I miss you too.
It was the truth, I already miss him. Shocking as that might be, but it was still true. My phone vibrated again only seconds later.
Sweet dreams, Bella.
I smiled as I closed my phone, and reached over to turn off the lamp.
I was walking with Edward in the school parking lot on our way to class.
We were holding hands and laughing. Until I realized that almost the whole school was staring at us. I could hear laughter in the distance.
"Of course, Edward Cullen is going to be the first one to get into Swan's pants." Tyler burst into laugher in front of us as he pointed at me.
"So what? Dude I'm going to be the next guy to get in her pants." Mike snorted, shoving Tyler aside.
"Edward, what's going on?" I asked, looking up at him. He looked at me with a funny look on his face.
"What are you talking about, Bella?"
"Why are Tyler and Mike saying you want to get in my pants?" Edward laughed pulling his hand away from me.
"Don't you know, Bella?"
"Know what, exactly?"
"I'm only with you because nobody else wants to be."
"Oh Eddie, darling!" Tanya called walking straight into Edward's arms.
"Hey, baby." Edward said before crushing his mouth to hers.
"Oh no, Eddie, stop. Not in front of everyone." Edward grinned at her.
"What the hell, Edward?" I yelled. Edward turned around and glared at me.
"What is your problem, Swan?" He growled.
"I thought you wanted to be with me." I whispered. Edward snorted loudly, while Tanya burst ino laugher.
"Oh please, like he would ever want to be with you. You will never be good enough for him. You're a freak, Bella." Tanya howled in laugher again. Edward just smiled at her like a lovesick fool.
"Maybe you can be with Mike, Bella. I know he likes you for your ass." Edward shrugged.
"I don't want to be with Mike." I whispered, tears falling from my eyes. My tears set them off and they both howled with laughter and turned away from me.
"Bells, Bella, wake up. You're dreaming, kid. It's just a dream." I woke up, startled, and realized I had been screaming with tears in my eyes. Charlie was sitting beside me on my bed rubbing my arm.
"Are you okay, Bella?" He asked with worry in his eyes. I nodded unable to speak just yet. My heart was pounding in my ears. The tears still spilling from my eyes.
"Want to talk about it?" Charlie wondered still concerned.
"No." I croaked. Charlie pursed his lips, still looking worried.
"You really scared me there, kiddo. I thought someone was trying to get in the house." He murmured.
"Sorry, Dad." I apologized.
"I almost grabbed my gun you were screaming so bad." He chuckled, trying to lighten the tension in me.
"It was just a dream." I muttered more to myself than Charlie.
"Maybe you should go see Carlisle tomorrow. I can set you up an appointment when I get to the station." Charlie told me.
"No, it's fine. I'm fine, Dad." I told him quickly, hurrying out of bed after seeing it was already quarter after seven.
"Alright. Well, I have to get going, kiddo. Gonna be late for work." Charlie said, hesitant to leave me alone.
"Go. I'll be fine, Dad. I promise." He sighed, before heading toward the bedroom door. "Love you, kid." He said before quietly closing the door behind him. I heard my phone buzz from the desk. I sighed as I opened it to see a message from Edward. My stomach lurched and my chest tightened.
"Ow." I whispered holding my hand to my chest. I hesitantly opened the message.
I'm on my way now, Bella. See you in a minute. I swallowed thickly, hurrying to get ready before Edward gets here. Before I knew it, I heard Edward's car horn from outside. Oh no, he was here.
Shit, now what am I going to do? I probably can't even look at him right now without seeing Tanya standing next to him. I took a deep breath as I locked the front door. I walked towards Edward's car without meeting his eyes. Just as I was about to open the passenger door, Edward side stepped, blocking the door from me.
"Bella, what's wrong?" He asked. I could hear the worry in his voice already.
"Nothing." I whispered still unable to look at him.
"Oh really? Then, why aren't you looking at me?" He was beyond worried now. He knew that something was clearly wrong.
"I don't want to talk about it." I muttered, looking at the ground as I tried to go around him. He cut me off again, grabbing my chin with his fingers and forcing me to look at him.
"You've been crying. Tell me what is wrong." He pleaded with me. I seen the worry in his eyes.
"It was a dream." I told him as looked away from him again. Edward sighed.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked, the same question Charlie asked me earlier.
"That's what has you so upset?" I nodded.
"Come here." He told me, pulling me into his arms.
"It was just a dream," Edward whispered to me, pressing a kiss to my hair.
"You have nothing to be worried about." Yes, I do. I have a lot to be worried about. I don't know how long Edward held me in his arms, but eventually he pulled away and opened the passenger door for me. "My lady." He bowed, grinning at me. I laughed a little as I got in his Volvo. He hurried around to the other side, quickly climbing in beside me.
"Ready?" He asked. I nodded, probably looking absolutely terrified. Edward noticed, but didn't say anything as he took off.
Edward got out of the car quickly once we parked to open the passenger door for me.
"Thanks." I said, walking ahead of him. I glanced around the school parking to see if anyone had noticed us arrive in the same car together. It was too late, several students were already staring toward us with shocked expressions.
"Bella, would you slow down?" I heard Edward call from somewhere close behind me. I ignored him as I rushed toward the main doors. Somehow Edward caught up to me just as I was about to reach the entrance.
"Stop," He growled at me, grabbing my wrist. Just freaking great, Swan. You failed to escape.
"You can't be acting like this just because of a dream." Edward said coldly, looking at me with hard eyes.
"I just want to be alone, Edward." I said quietly.
"Why?" He demanded angrily. I didn't say anything as I just stared at him.
"Well, I'm not going to let you, not until you tell me what is wrong." He challenged.
"It doesn't matter." I replied, narrowing my eyes at him.
"Toobad, because it matters to me. I can't stand to see you like this." He admitted, his eyes warming slightly. My shoulders fell; giving in.
"Can we talk about this later? We're going to be late for class." I told him. Edward let out an exasperated sigh.
"Fine, but don't think we aren't going to talk about this." He warned, pointing a finger at me. I nodded.
"Alright, Let's get to class." He muttered, taking my hand in his.
After every class, Edward was there to walk me to the next. We walked in silence, not saying much of anything to the other. Neither of us knew what to say. This all happened so fast, ever since that day I fainted in biology. Maybe Angela was right, maybe we did bond somehow that day. I have no idea when it would have clicked into place, but at some point it did, and here we are.
I just could not believe it took one weekend and just about a week, and now Edward and I were already a thing? I don't really know what to call us yet. I was not sure about the whole boyfriend and girlfriend thing, I think it was too early for that, but the thought terrified me either way. I guess saying that we are currently dating would be okay with me. The only thing that I could not get out of my head was how fast everything happened, and usually when things happen that fast, the relationship is doomed for failure. Well, at least most of the time.
So, where does all of that leave Edward and I? What happens now? Are we already doomed for failure, or could this actually work. I wish I knew.
Edward held my hand as we made our way to the cafeteria. I knew he still wanted to talk about what bothering me so suddenly, but I wasn't sure if I could even attempt to tell him all the things that have been on my mind lately, I would not have a clue where to start, or how the hell to begin. Once we entered the cafeteria, I was about to go sit with Angela, Ben, and everyone, but Edward tugged me back toward him, grabbing a fistful of my dark green sweatcoat.
"Sit with me today?" He asked. He wanted to talk, not later, but now.
"Okay." I agreed hesitantly. We found an empty table after a bit of searching on Edward's part before he led me toward it. We sat down silently, but I could almost see the tension rolling off Edward in waves, even though I was pretty sure the tension was rolling of me just as much, if not worse. After a moment, Edward must have made up his mind about something before scooting his chair closer to mine and leaned in toward me.
"I think we should talk now, Bella." He whispered. I nodded, I knew this was going to come, but I was hoping not right this minute.
"In front of everyone? I'm sure more than half the people in this room are listening to our conversation right now." Edward stared at me for long moment, debating what to do next.
"Come with me." He spoke quickly.
"And go where?" I replied bitterly.
"I don't know. Anywhere but here." He said, his eyes burning into mine.
"Edward . . . ," I said doubtfully. This was a bad idea.
"We'll be back in time for biology. I promise, let's just go." He was pleading with me again. The desperation evident in his tone.
"Alright. Let's go before anyone else notices we were here." I agreed. Edward snorted sarcastically.
"I'm pretty sure the entire student body is watching us already." Edward laughed as bitterly as I felt. We decided that we weren''t technically going to leave the school campus. We walked around the school garden on the far south side of the school before we started walking toward the forest.
"We aren't actually going to go in the forest, right?" I asked Edward feeling a little wary. He furrowed his eyes at me looking bemused.
"You said you didn't want anyone to hear our conversation, did you not?" Edward replied, using what I said in the cafeteria against me.
"Yeah, but I did not mean I want to talk in a forest, Edward."
"Bella, neither of us want to be late for biology, or miss it all together. The forest is our best option." He said, trying to convince me.
"Not if we get lost in there." I retorted. Edward rolled his eyes at me.
"Just trust me, Bella." I sighed, before walking ahead of him. Edward held onto my arm helping me over broken down trees and rubble that was on the ground. I'm suprised I haven't fallen flat on my ass yet, and then Edward would fall with me from laughing so hard at my clumsiness. Edward stopped me at some point, saying we didn't want to go too far into the forest. We were in somewhat of a bald spot in the middle of the forest. I had no idea where, but I got the feeling Edward knew where we were.
'Spend a lot of time in forests, Edward?" I joked at him. Edward looked at me smirking slightly.
"What are you thinking?" He asked after a moment. I glanced at him, standing beside me a few feet away.
"I'm thinking about how this has all happened so fast." I said honestly.
"You mean, it started so fast," Edward chuckled.
"What else?" He asked, trying to get a glimpse into my head.
"Did you know that almost all high school relationships are doomed for failure the minute they start?" Edward sighed, studying my expression.
"You're afraid." Edward told me. It was not a question either. It was a fact.
"Aren't you?" I asked, a little surprised.
"Yes, in the most general sense of the word." I knew he would say something along those lines, but I go and ask anyway.
"What is it that you are so afraid of?" Edward asked, still not understanding where I'm coming from. I thought of how I was going to answer that question.
"I just don't see why people try to make something work when they already know that it isn't." That was the best answer I could think of. Edward narrowed his eyes, thinking over what I just said.
"Are you trying to tell me you think our relationship is doomed and we should just go about our lives and forget whatever this is between us?"
"Well, yeah, but the way you're making it sound, it sounds awful." I replied quickly. He sighed, his shoulders falling slightly as he slowly sauntered toward me.
"That is," Edward paused as he came to a stop not inches away from me.
"The worst idea I've ever heard in my life." He said pointedly.
"Edward . . ." I sighed. I felt Edward's fingers under my chin, lifting my head up so he could look at me.
"You are far more delicate than I thought," He chuckled, shaking his head at me.
"I want this to work, Bella. I want to try, but I can't do that if you keep pushing me away because you are having doubts."
"They aren't just doubts, Edward. It's a mixture between being rational and a healthy dose of fear." He was smiling a cute little smile. Jee wiz, where the hell did this guy get his looks from?
"Well, you are going to get over the fear, if it's the last thing I do." Edward told me as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"You really want this to work, don't you?" I asked.
"Yes, because I can't see myself being with anyone else, but then with you," He sighed, closing his eyes for a moment.
"It's like a movie in my head, and I want it. I want it more than anything else, and I want it with you." I stared at him in complete awe as he pressed his forehead to mine.
"What do you want with me, then?" I wondered, suddenly very curious. He smiled, in a way where it reached his eyes.
"Everything. Marriage, having a family together. Growing old together." He was giving me the fairytale. The fairytale every girl has ever dreamed about. Fantasized about every night after their Dad's read them Cinderella before bed. Why should I be so lucky to get my fairytale?
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