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ALLIE'S JOURNEY HOME

Summary:
Allie yearns to be a part of a family and decided to find her maternal aunt. After her Memaw is destroyed Allie is lonely and decided to follow her destiny and her visions. They lead her to Forks and to the Cullens. Alice was suprised to find a young hybird on her doorstep claiming to be her neice. Allie and her twin brother Adam give Alice to have a part of her human life as part of her vampire life. Allie not only finds a family in the Cullens finds her true love. Once more the wolves and Cullens must face down an old enemy (Volturi) to save the ones they love.


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8. Hello Brother

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Allie POV

Embry was quiet most of the way home and I felt terrible. My gift had caused him grief, and I felt guilty. I second-guessed myself over and over. Should I have said anything, maybe I should have remained quiet. I had always wanted my parents in my life. Memaw had done her best for me. I was grateful that I had her. She stayed with me, took care of me, and most importantly loved me. Still, I missed out on a life with my mother and my brother. My mother died because of my father, Joham. I thought I could understand Embry's pain in some ways. Neither of our fathers had loved us the way we deserved to be loved. I felt like there had to be a reason, hopefully a good one, that Tiffany had not shared with Embry his father's identity. Why she had not been honest with her son was a mystery. It didn't matter though, because now he knew Levi was his father. His dad, like mine, was an evil vampire, and both of them were determined to destroy our lives.

My heart ached for Adam because he had been forced to live with Joham, submit to him. He did it all in order to protect me. I ran through the evening's events so Edward could read my mind. I wanted him to share everything with the news with the others and fill them in on what occurred. I did not want to rehash everything, for Embry's sake, once I went in the house.

Embry walked me to the door and kissed me goodnight. “I need to get back to the rez, Allie. I'm sorry. We'll talk tomorrow.”

I felt like I need so those magical words to Embry. I was gripped with a need to tell him. What if when he left the house something happened to him? I couldn't let him go, at least not until I tell him I felt. He has walked down the steps, and I still hadn't said anything. I choke back my fear and say it.

“OK. I love you. Please take care of yourself. Call me tomorrow,” I said quietly.

Embry stopped in his tracks. “You love me?”

I blink back the tears. Maybe it had been to quick to say anything.

“Yes, I do. I love you so very much,” I whispered.

He ran back up the steps and grabbed me and kissed me deeply, passionately. I could feel his need for me. The kiss was intense and full of longing. When he let me go he wraps his hands in my hair and pulls my head back gently. His eyes are locked on to mine. I could see his passion and pain in his eyes. I could feel his body rigid with desire.

“Allie,” He pleaded. With just my name on his lips I fall apart.

All of my life I had searched for a family. Finding someone to love was just a dream. I never thought it would happen. My heart belonged to Embry, lock stock and barrel.

“I know that there is other things more important in your life right now, but I had to tell you how I felt. I love you Embry. I will always love you, and not because you imprinted on me. It's because I love you the man, the wolf, all of you.” I said huskily.

My desire for him is evident in every breath I take. His smell has invaded my nostrils, and I am quivering mess. I wanted him on all levels, emotionally, spiritually, and most definitely physically. My nerves felt like raw electrical wires rubbing together. He hadn't said I love you in return, and it scared me. Maybe he wasn't ready yet.

“Allie, baby, I love you too. More then I ever thought I could. You are my everything. Without you I'd be lost. You are everything I could ever hope for and more then I ever dared to let myself dream possible,” He answered me sweetly, gently. He was still upset about his mom, but he knew how I felt. He's not alone. I plan to be by his side, to help him, hold him, and most importantly to love him.

He loves me! Oh thank you, thank you. We kiss for a few more minutes. I'm finding it harder and harder to pull away from him. His kisses had made me drunk with desire and lust. Embry pulled away and tells me must go. We kiss one last time before he leaves. I was sad that he was leaving, but I understood. He was needed there and he wanted to make sure his mom was safe. He needed to return to La Push to run patrol. Once Embry left I slipped inside the door. I lost it. Alice held me while I cried out my pain and frustration. She never said anything. She just wiped my tears and let me wallow. I loved her even more then I had before. She had seen Embry and me on the porch and Edward had told her about my vision.

Why now? When would things ever be normal for any of us?” I thought. “I'm so tired of this bullshit.”

"Alice, he's so angry, so hurt. I don't know how to help him. He finally knows who his father is after all this time, but I think it would be better if he didn't. What would happen to him if he had to destroy his dad, or watch as his pack brothers did? I thought Joham was awful as a father. I mean he's bad enough, but at least he didn't want to kill me. He just wanted to use me, my power. In the end, I'm not sure what's worse, my father's greed or Embry's father's murderous intentions. Neither of our father's love us," I cried.

"Allie, I'm sorry you are hurting this way, as well as Embry. Just know that we're all your family, and both of you will always be loved by all of us," Alice answered me. My other family members were waiting for me too. The Cullens each agreed with Alice, and in that moment, I truly knew what the feeling of home was. Just because Joham was my father, it didn't make him my family. Family was something more than a biological connection, it was loving someone and being loved in return. The wolves and Cullens knew this, and would always be here for us, Embry and me. My brother returned from hunting and saw that I was a mess, emotionally.

“Allie.” He spoke my name with quiet reverence.

I embraced my brother, and I felt better immediately. We spent the next few hours together. Nahuel made me laugh and smile, something I needed desperately. We talked about my vision and what I could do to help Embry, which wasn't a lot. It was late in the morning before we finally decided to get some sleep. I offered my room to him, but he declined. He decided to sleep in Carlisle’s study, on the couch, like he had since he arrived.

The next day, I was lost in thought about Embry's mom and Nahuel. The fact that Levi was a vampire bothered Embry, but I think he would have been able to handle it better if Levi didn't feed on humans. Like Nahuel had or did. Right now, my brother fed on animals and ate human food to avoid an altercation with the pack, and to make me happy. I was sure he would return to his old ways when he returned home though. It worried me. I was in my room on my bed, when I heard Edward at the door.

“Allie, can I come in?”

“Sure, Edward.” I knew each of my family member's scents.

"Allie, I understand you're bothered that Nahuel feeds on humans,” he said softly.

It was going to be a lecture and my defenses went up automatically. I didn't need him to lecture me about Nahuel. I couldn't help how I felt.

“Edward,” I said a little harsher than I needed too.

“Allie, just listen, please. Maybe you should give your relationship some time, let it form fully. If you push him to change his feeding habits it may cause a rift. It's not easy to live our lifestyle. I hate to admit this, but I used to feed on humans. I know you love him and vice-versa.”

He tapped his head with his finger. It made me feel a little better, since I had told Nahuel that I loved him, but he never reciprocated.

I knew Edward had rebelled, once many years ago, because Alice had shared the family's history with me. I wouldn't ask him any questions about it though. I knew it had been a difficult time for him as well as Carlisle and Esme.

“Alice told me you rebelled and fed on humans. How did Bella feel about it?”

He smiled ruefully.“I told Bella, when she was human, but she decided it didn't matter. It haunts me to this day. I learned from my mistakes and it made me things easier since I had my gift. I used my gift and searched out humans I felt deserved to die. I picked criminals to punish them for their sins. I had decided I should be the one who punished them. It was wrong of me. It was very hard to change my eating habits once I tasted human blood, but I returned to my family and it helped.”

“I'll help him, Edward.” I tried to defend my view, but part of me knew Edward's right.

“Nahuel's lived this way his entire life, and change is a hard thing. Give yourselves time, as a brother and sister, and then worry about the other things. I just don't want you to feel disappointed, if he can't or won't make the change, and lose out on getting to know your brother. He did agree to hunt animals once already, maybe this will help him make the change permanent."

“OK. I won't push the issue. I will spend our time together strengthening our connection,” I answered happily.

I hugged Edward, who, for all intent and purposes was like an uncle. I had two brothers already, and considered Edward and Emmett more as uncle figures. It was different than how I felt for Jasper. He was my uncle by marriage, but he felt more like a father figure. I adopted the roles Nessie had with the family, except Edward and Bella and Jazz and Alice had traded positions. I considered Carlisle and Esme something like grandparents, or foster parents. Sometimes it was hard for me to label our roles. I had agreed that I wouldn't push the issue. I decided I would just concentrate on bonding with Nahuel.

The next few days flew by as we all awaited Sam and Emily's baby shower. Embry had not been able to spend very much time with me, because of the threat to his mom. It bugged him a lot. It did me too, but I tried to keep my feelings quiet. Both of us wanted time together, but due to patrolling we were limited. We managed the best we could under the circumstances.

Embry had seen Nahuel when the Volturi had attacked, but he had never met him in person. He made an effort to accept Nahuel in my life, but it was hard for Embry. Nahuel drank from humans and it went against Embry's nature to accept that. I appreciated that Embry tried, but I couldn't fault his feelings when I shared them myself. Things were a little more tense between them, since the cookout. Jake told me that it was harder for Embry than it had been for him. He was already attached to Bella when she was changed, and my other family members had grown on him during Bella's pregnancy.

Finally, the day of the shower arrived and Alice dressed me beautifully. My aunt had style. I dressed in a red short sun-dress that clung to my body and stopped just above my knees. It had a v-neck and the bottom flared out. The dress was a sun-dress, but a very sexy one. All of the Cullen women planned to attend the shower, and later the men would join us for a dance/party. The Cullens had paid for a party to be hosted afterward to allow us some fun from everything. Alice said we all needed a “Stress free night of dancing and laughter.”

Nahuel planned to leave and return home, and decided not to join us for the party. He knew the wolves were not comfortable with him. I appreciated my brother's gesture.

“I'll miss you.”

“Me too, baby sister,” he replied. “I am so glad you have the Cullens, they are good people. I know they will protect you.”

“Yes, they are wonderful. I have been blessed. I love them all, as I do you,” I confessed.

He smiled. “I love you, Allie. I need you to know that. I would do anything for you.”

I thought about asking him to remain on an animal diet, but Edward's words rang in my head. I had time. Forever. I could wait to have this conversation with him.

“I would do anything for you too,” I promised.

He left soon after our conversation to return to the Amazon. In my heart, I knew that I would see him again. We were family, siblings, bonded together now by more than blood; we were bonded by love.

 

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